Doodle I hope you can find comfort in knowing your love for each other will never but also the grief. If you didn't love them you would not grieve. You both found the other half of yourselves and that is something to cherish. Some people live their whole lives and never find the other half of themselves. The only person who knew the real you and you them.
I can't say the grief will get easier it won't that's my experience. My grief after 22 years has only gotten worse as my husband was 47 I was 45. My husband has missed so much . He would have been 69 this year.
I call early grief the first 10 years as this my own experience. I remember well when you first posted Mr D had died.
The moment your spouse or partner dies half if you dies to. You are suddenly classed as single. But to me that's wrong I am still a couple my husband lives on in my heart and mind . As yours and everyones does. I am still married and still Mrs.
Doodle there is no such thing as normal. We and our lives are all unquie . Talking to Mr D is what I have been doing to Mr W for the last 22 years.
But I have shouted at him this shouldn't be my life,I have swore at him for dieing and leaving me alone. But he had to die he couldn't live and I had to tell him to stop struggling we would be OK. He died few minutes later. But there is never an okay.
You are doing better than me I only have 2 photos of Mr W out our wedding photo and my favourite one of him . I can't bear to look at anymore. Saturday would have been our 45th wedding anniversary but I couldn't look at our wedding album. But I wasn't sad I remember all the things that went wrong that day and it made me laugh.
Posting on this forum shows how strong you all are. You can exactly how you feel and be understood, cared about ,no judgement passed especially when I say I shout and swear at my husband. Don't know if any of you have done that but I have felt better afterwards and see him with that stupid grin on his face as if to say feel better now and I do .
Some of you will have videos of your spouse or partner I have gone any but I am glad because I know it would tear me apart seeing him and hearing him. But for you it may give you comfort there is no right or wrong way to grieve but your way.
Grieve in away that is best for you . People who don't love and therefore don't grieve don't understand you can't switch it off. Bone crushing grief can hit you out of the blue. But for me and many ,love like we had is worth every tear. Love doesn't make the world go round .
But for me my love for my husband makes mine go round . Because of him I face whatever life throws at me.
And I and sure Doodle and everyone else it gets you through everyday.
As usual I never know if my rambles help or but I know it helps me . š« to you all.
How do I develop a thicker skin?.
