Good morning to you all. Yesterday was as close to a session in purgatory that I'm likely to experience on earth .
I was touched by the caring responses from so many GN pals. To be honest, I cried so long and hard that my eyelids felt like lead. I'm sure that, as many of you pointed out, some of the distress was post-op related. However, the crux of the matter was that, after trying my hardest to make light of the fact that my son had lost a parcel [an album containing over 100 photos of visits we'd made to visit our grandson] I found myself being indirectly "blamed"...which was utterly unfair and crazy.
Another loving letter was sent to him, in which I expressed my puzzlement ...all that I hoped for, was a text to say something reassuring...a bridge-builder To date, no such message has been sent. All is far too quiet for my liking. I'm a very sensitive mum [not so unusual] and I'm deeply upset when a cloud hovers over my family, no matter what the reason.
My daughter-in-law rang last night. She is marvellous. Without wishing her to "take sides" [her loyalty must be to her husband] I gather that depression might be the key. My ex-husband was diagnosed as bi-polar. Anyway, we're all to meet up in the near future, by which time, the matter that has hurt me so deeply will be resolved. My son means the world to me. I need to know how he feels deep inside. The not knowing is heart-wrenching.
to you and many thanks