starting to feel all over the place.

So glad you are feeling better today. I think we are all having variable days. I think if you live on your own motivation to do things can slip as there is no one to jog you along or gently reprimand. I count my blessings and am kept on my toes by video calls from daughters! Some days I do lots,others I just drift! I saw a tweet yesterday by a documentary producer who described what she had for breakfast,and that she was feeling invisible. What followed was a heartening outpouring of love and understanding, both towards her and other posters offering understanding and emotional support. There are millions of stories out there. I think sometimes the current situation is almost impossible to comprehend for a lot of people. Messages are very mixed. In some ways it reminds me of how things can look very blurry in a hot climate. Interweaved with the new normal are messages that life is no less risky than a month ago. No wonder we all have days when it's all a bit much!

I'd say you're not on your own, we are all feeling somewhat the same. I've started to listen to Podcasts and now I am addicted. I have earbuds so can get on with other things while listening. Can you get involved with something in the local community, there are lots of online stuff if you can't leave the house. Stay focussed, and have faith that this will not last forever.

Any time I wonder what to do, I'm sewing laundry bags for the NHS. I'm cutting up sheets and pillow cases that have not been used for a while. Duel purpose - doing something for the NHS and recycling unwanted sheets (washed in a 90 degree wash, to make sure they will stand the pace!!) DH normally finds watching ancient TV programmes keep him amused.

It's such a relief to read this post. I'm so glad it's not just me. Generally I have managed to be positive and thankful but some days it's just too hard and I flit from one small thing to another feeling cross,fed up and lethargic. Now I acknowledge it's just a difficult day, heave a sigh of relief it's over at bedtime and remind myself it's a new day tomorrow. Glad you feel better

I was awake a 5 - dodgy pork last night for dinner!!??. I'm still in my dressing gown and have no inclination to do anything. It is one of those days. They happen. The weather isn't great and its chilly so I'm thinking chocolate might help and another cuppa. Hey ho tomorrow is another day.

SiL asked me yesterday what my plans are for this week. Just having to say, 'Well nothing actually,' was pretty depressing. DH is back at work. All my usual activities and events are cancelled indefinitely (as are everybody else's of course). There are phone calls with friends but nobody has any news! I'm getting really sick of this endless drifting. No heart to do anything much beyond basic cleanliness, walk once a day and reading and TV the rest of the time.

I feel my life is not my own any more At least we have summer and lighter evenings .I dread the thought this situation will still be with us come autumn.

My friends and I keep in touch by regular phone calls back and forth.
They are actually quite boring as we have so little to report but the contact is nice.
This morning I have rung three, not one answered, one I know makes regular trips out, but one of the others says every time we speak how paranoid her H is although I do know she entertains her family in her garden.
The other couple are obviously going out.
It is this that makes me feel so isolated as I cannot go out.

Those few weeks of sunny weather were great - I like to just sit out in the back garden and watch the plants grow, and birds and bees.
Now it's much colder and the forecast isn't good so I don't know how I'm going to fill the time.
Main thing thank God we're all well, up to now.

Couldn't agree more about the telephone conversations, noticed this week that a regular once a week call to a friend is getting shorter and we are going over the same ground. Another friend has been making regular phone calls to people she usually helps as a volunteer driver, up to now they have all been reasonably upbeat and coping but apparently that is now wearing off and they are beginning to feel abandoned and worried about everything. I felt very low the other day thinking about the clubs I go to and how will they be able to restart as so many older people have underlying health issues. Very slow day today.

Annsixty, I think I am getting low because I thought this would be a temporary shutdown, and things would be sorted out, but the chaotic way it is being handled makes it hard to see any ending.
The government is too busy congratulating itself on its abysmal performance, that it is not looking for better solutions.
The opposition have not held them to account because they are scared of not being supportive in a crisis.
We keep being told now is not the time for an enquiry, but how many more must die before some different approaches are considered?
Oh, to live in New Zealand!

What exactly could the government do though? New Zealand has a fraction of our population and they are spread out over a large area. The UK population density is much higher than in other countries.
Not meaning to turn this into another political thread. Just practicalities.

Two of my friends have now returned my calls.
One said she had been for coffee in her friend’s garden, sooner her than me, it is very cold here today.
The other had been for a run in the car with her H to pick up their “sick” lawnmower, now repaired.

Feeling reassured by the above comments. Some days I can't be bothered doing anything. I thought my house would be spotless but alas, no. Found out today that we may get back to our caravan in July so that has cheered me up. I have to say I'm not usually this miserable!! Strange times.

Gosh, I’m so relieved that I’m not alone in experiencing all of the feelings so many pp are expressing here ?

You’re all more than welcome to come and clean my house! Let me know?

Relief here too. This weekend has been very strange for me. Just couldnt be bothered. Been fine up till then and pretty
much counting my blessings. The weather most definitely a factor. And the fact that for various reasons I havent seen my “ granddog” - a gorgeous king charles cavalier pup - that I absolutely adore and have missed terribly for the last week. Just have to take each day as it comes I guess. And be kind to ourselves.

we're all finding it hard now,it's gone on so long.I started off feeling quite enthusiastic,doing jobs I 'd been neglecting.Now I don't really have much to do,and we all feel fed up when it's raining.I don't know if I'm looking forward to more shops opening or not,I keep thinking how big the queues will be.

My concentration is shot to hell at present. Anyone else? I can barely concentrate on the simplest instructions. Any more than one paragraph and I lose interest! Patience is at a short ration too and I feel exasperated with DH a lot of the time through no fault of his own. We went to M&S for food this morning and I just wanted to get out of there. Normally I like to browse!

I am scared this is the start of something worse but hopefully not.

Sorry, jane10, not wanting to be political, but the lack of testing, the lack of PPE, the late lockdown, and the heartbreaking situation in care homes...I'm sure there must have been so many warnings, but the spokesmen still insist...we did the right thing at the right time....

The prospect of feeling safe seems further and further away.

For me it's not knowing what's ahead, this seems to have gone on so long already and with the Govt's rush to re-open everything I fear a second lockdown. I just have to remind myself to take one day at a time, it's outside my control..

Camelotclub you are not alone with concentration! I love knitting but other than something I had to finish for a friends birthday ,find I struggle to focus sometimes! Same with reading and tv. I know the knitting and craft group I belong to have similar problems. It's the old good days and bad days raising its ugly head. ! I do think its tricky though as there can be a pressure to use this time creatively etc etc. Well some days I do and have lots of get up and go,others nope! We are all different but one very positive thing about my daily visit here is the comfort from knowing other people sometimes feel the same. I'm sure in years to come many books will be written about it! Then we can look back and maybe it will all make sense!

Jane, NZ has cities too!

You are allowed a duvet day now and again. We can all stall at times so go with the flow. Can you find a workout to do daily? I find doing Joe Wicks every morning at 9 am gets me motivated plus raises my serotonin levels. He does a workout for all ages and he is good fun. There are other options for getting going. I hope you get outside for your daily Vitamin D dose as that is also vital. Try to learn something new, have a bit of a routine, write your memoirs. I hope that you feel more positive when the weather picks up.

Chardy- I know. I've been in them! Nothing like the population density of London, Leeds, Manchester etc etc