Hi GN
I am writing this whilst I cry my eyes out
My DH is 80 on the 10th Sept and I am64.
We have been together 25 years and married 22
We own our home, but after a lot of financial difficulty we had to borrow off our mortgage, quite a few years ago
The house is now on the market and we hope to clear the mortgage and then still be able to buy a small property
The problem I have is, I would like to move somewhere new,
We live on the south coast and I have had enough.
My DDs and 4 grandchildren live in the US and OZ, he has 1 daughter who lives in spain, but they haven't been close since she was a little girl (another story)
I moved into the area 30 years ago, after my ex husband, a soldier left me in germany.
As I was an military wife for 20 years, I was always moving around and settled into civvy life on my own
I am finding life so lonely now and I am so unsettled
I don't have many friends, but the ones I do have all have families and lots of commitments and I joined a gym 3 years ago and learnt ballroom and latin dance. But again this can be clichey and the ladies I know all have family
We haven't made friends as a couple, because DH worked away a lot and I was always working and studying
I am so lost now without my family
I do have a sister local, but I had a fallout with my BiL 18 months ago and he wont have me in the house now and this has had an affect on our relationship and also they have a very close family all living nearby
I did go to OZ for month end of november till end december and I spent some time with the DGD's and I loved being part of a family
I am so lost and feel so helpless
My DH and I spend 24/7 together and since lockdown and now winter months coming, I am dreading it
Is it me or am I getting mixed messages
How do you acknowledge Easter.