Not so much unhappy memories but reminds me of times I've come through some really bad sh**.
As a youngster I ended up spending some time in young offenders. Due to going off the rails a little because of developmental delay, undiagnosed autism and abuse.
While inside I built up a supptotive relationship with a few staff who were fantastic. I was a lot smaller than most of my peers and needed a lot more support than most, but the staff were great they helped me get back on my feet and achieve things. While inside I eventually faced my demons and fought my abuser in court. He was arrested and charged with his crimes and I had to endure horrific court appearances to be cross examined about what he did. This was so hard expecially as when scared my communication slowed down and I'd have panic attacks and struggle to talk. I was appointed a team of three officers fro the jail to go with me to all my court appearances, two each time so that if one wasn't available the other may be. During one very bad day when my abuser had attempted to intimidate me in court by doing certain things he knew I'd take as a warning I was on the verge of a panic attack. One of the staff with me a guy in his 40s says his "dad radar" kicked in when he thought I was not going to be able to take the stand when it came to me getting up. As we sat in the stalls waiting he tried to calm me but nothing helped. Then all of a sudden e began to sing "Whitney Houston's Greatest love of all" he literally sang the lot to me and I swear a song has never touched me like it before. I have heard it prior to this but never listened to the lyrics and honestly the lyrics could be written expecially for me based on what I was going thru at the time. It was so haunting. Just to understand where I'm coming from the lyrics are below. I just remember that despite been someone who was paid to lock me up at night this man ignored any embarrassment and sang to calm me, it worked but I remember the whole court room went silent then when he finished people started clapping and he went beetroot but the judge commended his actions and said that he was proud to call him an officer. Now everytime I hear it it briefly reminds me of what I went through before I realise it's more what I have survived and got over and fought and how I always fought to keep my dignity of all things
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I believe these lyrics are just wrote for some abused children. It's haunting but lovely at the time. The lyrics are as follows.
I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be
Everybody searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone who fulfill my needs
A lonely place to be
And so I learned to depend on me
I decided long ago
Never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I'll live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all
I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be
I decided long ago
Never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I'll live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
Is the greatest love of all
And if, by chance, that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love