Haircut

Oh dear my courage failed me this morning and i rang and cancelled appointment. It was giving me panic attacks yesterday just thinking about it and i couldnt sleep last night.
I am going to have to do it but obviously i am not ready yet. Not sure if its the thought of being in that kind of enviroment, covid, or just fear i wont like what they do.

Phone your regular hairdresser and ask for a quiet time, explain you will need to talk about your hair and see what they suggest. My hairdresser left during covid but when I wanted to go back I explained that I would need longer time to talk.
I got another one who was happy to take me on who suggested cutting my hair short from the long bob with blond highlights I had had and just let the streaky grey grow through. I have actually had compliments from family and friends, it does not look like me in the mirror but with more modern glasses taking their advice as well I feel quite happy with it.
See what they can suggest.
You have done really well so far a new style will make you feel another step on the way.

I’d suggest a bob to your hairdresser, have a chat too about it’s condition, see how you feel after that. As NotAGran said, you can always have more off next time.
Best of luck.

You have done so well in all aspects travel after a horrendous year I hope a shorter cut will give you a tiny umph
You say it started to fall out but having it in a bun will encourage it to break off
I have had a pixie cut for many years and it is just so easy and everyone says it looks good and it’s just such a real doddle to keep looking ok A wash in the shower and an upside down head to dry it tiny bit of a product to run through and bingo done for the day

Personally I wouldn’t go too mad with the first cut, a bob if you know it suits you to start with .
You can’t stick it back on , but you can always have more cut off!

Years ago a friend went from waist length to a pixie cut in stages to get used to it .

If you go at a quiet time maybe midday-ish on a tuesday or a wednesday the salonn might have more time to spend with you.

I was much the same - had my hair cut last year, then DH died in March and it took me a few months to go back to the salon. I don’t go often - 3 or 4 times a year, but to the same place, so I do have a relationship with my Stylist. My worry was her asking after DH, but once I’d told her my news, we just discussed my hair and I went for quite a drastic cut - no regrets.

If you have a regular hairdresser speak to her, she will know you and your hair. (My hair is now halfway down my back as I cannot make a decision, like you I put it up most days, I keep thinking that one morning I shall wake up and know what style/cut I want)

Sorry you have had such a dreadful year, good to see you posting again ?

So sorry for your loss.
I’d go to a salon you trust and ask for a consultation on a cut to suit you and how to improve the condition. A good hairdresser should spend time giving you advice.
You obviously feel it’s time for a change, go for it!