Do you think you have a guardian angel?

Although not religious, I am agnostic so have an open mind, I do believe I have a guardian angel. I was in full blown alcoholism from the age of 15 to 28 when I went to AA and got sober, I can remember some things that happened to me during those years but a lot I cannot, just some flashbacks but I really think I am living on borrowed time and should’ve been dead a long time ago, I’ve put myself in very very dangerous situations over those years. The one thing I could not get my head around in AA was a God who apparently looked after drunks, well not all of them a lot of people die drunk a lot more than get sober. Also this higher Power that apparently looked after me, why didn’t it look after a 16-year-old girl who was cutting through the park to get home and she was raped and murdered why was she not saved by her higher Power? Anyway for those reasons I do believe I do have a guardian angel and I think it could probably be my aunt May who used to tell me she used to pray for me and luckily I was sober when she died at the age of 88 actually on her 88th birthday… And very controversially I don’t see alcoholism as a disease, No one held me down and poured drink down my throat and I knew what would happen when I got drunk but I continued to do it. Cancer is a disease, my brother died from it in 2003 at the age of 49 and I still feel guilty about that and feel I should’ve been the one that died not him, he was such a good man. Anyway to the main point of this thread, do you think you have a guardian angel?