I am relatively new to GN, I reply to posts but haven’t yet posted myself, I am sure I will at some point.
As regards people you feel you need to make an impression on: when I first got married I used to feel that the house had to be be immaculate when my mother & father in law visited and used to tear round like an idiot making sure everything was spic and span. I don’t know why I did this and neither of them ever commented. I think it may stem from my childhood. My mother was quite an untidy person but when she knew my paternal grandparents were paying a visit (wasn’t often as we visited them weekly) she would go crazy, tidying, polishing, hoovering, polishing any brass or silver, cleaning windows in & out, even bathed the dog!! I used to love it as the house always looked so lovely & tidy but my mother would be exhausted by the time they arrived. Maybe that’s where I got the need to do the same from, although my DH & I were relatively tidy most of the time anyway.
I soon learned not to worry too much, especially once I had children but even now there’s still a bit of me that hates being caught in a muddle by unexpected visitors. I suppose that feeling that you are being judged never quite leaves you if you’re that way inclined.