Good morning Mick and all GN's on a very dark but still morning in North Yorkshire, from a very weary me! Rubbish night with a lot to fit in today meant that at least I put the first load of washing in at 3am, and though tempted to look on here I went back to bed and managed to doze a bit, but not much until about 5am. At least I was able to put channel 9 on the tv, and then turn away from it, because at that time - I do recommend it to others who dont sleep much - they have lovely bird song on. So no music or other jarring things, just birds and as I do know many of the songs and enjoy my birds I find it very soothing and calming, if I dont get back to sleep it sort of puts a bit of a barrier against all those worrying and upsetting thoughts that tend to take over at that time of night. So that lot of washing sorted and ready to go on the line when it is daylight and the bedding put in and now churning around, has at least enabled me to get a little ahead of the morning, which it certainly needs to do.
As is no doubt the norm with others it is feast or famine, so either trying to cram too much in one day or nothing happening at all to take my mind off the various aches and pains etc. So today is definitely the former! There is a meeting I go to once a month, which is very useful and worth going to , as besides having some interesting speakers etc and being held in the library, with better chairs for me to sit in, it is very well run and a local councillor is always there, so you a) get to know what is happening with council affairs and of course have a captive person to nobble about your usual moans about the pot holes etc and their effect on people etc etc. She is a very nice woman and does a lot of voluntary work and I respect her very much , and am glad to get the latest news, which then if there are things that might affect them I relay all the things I have learnt to the womens group that I go to weekly. The problem with that is that they are also on a thursday so cant do both or it is very awkward to try and cover bits of both. First thursday of the month means that this is a double day, added to which , the usual group are doing the big raffle today and several things that I need to take and be involved in. None of this is improved by the fact that I still have no yellow peril. This means that I will have to go even earlier than normal to have a chance for a parking for disabled bay. Added to which I have to think if I can manage to walk down to the washing lines with a load of quite heavy washing, as no buggy to help. So then whatever I manage to do I have to be home without fail for 1pm, as the garage have kindly said they will come here and pick the car up for its MOT today, which fingers crossed, is not going to cost me a fortune, but means I will definitely be stuck at home until I get the car back , mind you with this early start to the day I will probably be glad to fall into a chair and go to sleep. Then cleaners to the rescue, who will turn this mess around and make my bed with nice clean new sheets ready for a very weary I suspect person later on.
It has been very frustrating to be without the yellow peril, but maybe it has had its good points. Up until now I have still chosen to believe I am usually ok with the odd day when I struggle to get around. My view of my abilities has been that I have say 2 days a week with problems, and 5 days a week when I am fine and can walk as much as I want to etc, but just choose to use the buggy for speed. Well these few days have shown me that I cant keep this fiction going any longer, and it is much more 5 days bad and 2 days good, and that if I want to keep my independance I have to bite the bullet, and accept that I have to accept some changes if I am to stay here and run things as I want to. So yesterday I went to look at a place that sells all sorts of disability stuff and buggies etc and the idea was to look at what was available for me that would be light enough to put in a car, or take on a train or plane etc.
There were two options. One was the kind where it splits down into about 5 pieces and so you only lift one piece at a time etc, and the other was an ultralight that folds down and can go in the boot. So I went to see what they were like, try lifting bits etc and generally look at what was on offer that would suit my problems. As my back is a major problem I needed a chair that would give me a higher support , not just like a stool style of seat, which would be no good at all. The first thing was the fact that the foldable ones were 4 times the cost of the other ones. Naturally that meant I first looked at the split down kind. My back was very bad yesterday, which of course, was why I wanted to look on that day. It is no good going on your best day, you have to see what you can manage on a day you are struggling. Well very disappointing that even split into about 5 parts, they were already just about what I could manage and difficult to lift for me into the boot.
The lady selling was very pleasant and helpful and said that they have contacts with someone who makes hoists to fit into your boot so that would be a way that might work. The problem with that was if I changed my car, another expense to change it over etc and even without that , on my own it would not be easy to get it up or down anyway. When she told me the added price that would cost, the ultra light one became more attractive , but cringing price. But it was worth going there. They are a good firm, been there for a long time with a good reputation, and as my first line of call to keep active and independant, I didnt feel in this case that I could risk buying a second hand one. So I came home with the brochures and have measured the boot and tried lifting it into the boot and driving outside on the pavement to see what it is like. Of course, it has nowhere near the suspension or range of the yellow peril and it feels as though you have hardly anything in front of you, but the more I think of it , the more I now see extra advantages. So although where possible I would rather use the bigger more comfortable buggies similar to my big one, at such places as Harlow Carr, the great advantage of this would mean that I could just decide to go somewhere without having to wait until they open to start driving there, because without a buggy I cant get round so never get anywhere early and when there are special things like the Glow garden on, I cant go to those either if there is no buggy.
So now I have the brochure to re read and check over and think about, and I need to go to the bank and find out how things stand, but it is probably the best thing I can do. It will mean no trips to anywhere on a boat, which I had been wondering about, and right now, although I know it is the right thing to do, I am feeling very down that I need to do it now. You know that thought, where you say sometime in the future I might need something like this, but your brain likes to kid you that it is years away, not now! Once I get over that , it will probably be the best thing I can do. But the other thing will be all the stuff I cart round in the boot (in case) , spare towels, macs boots etc etc not to mention the important coffee box will probably have to go elsewhere. Oh well I havent got it yet, I need to wait and see. Today has enough things to cope with as it is.
Just looked outside but still not a glimmer of light. Tomorrow, if I have the car back safely, I need to see if I can get my hair cut at my hairdressers. It is very fine, so if it gets too long, it doesnt hold a shape well and being on thebuggy or with the window open in the car , it all tends to fly away, and having left the house looking reasonably tidy I glance in a mirror in a shop or cafe and see the wild woman of borneo!
I need it tidying up now as there will be various concerts etc and I have no wish to be sat there in the week near christmas with all the push and shove in the town. So whenever I can get it sorted will do for my christmas cut.
Hope your eyetest went well Mick and you dont need to change glasses or anything. Mum2three, enjoy your book today ,I could change places with you. I dont know how old your children are but if there is a little one, there are two lovely books by Raymond Brigg. Father Christmas and then Father Christmas goes on holiday. They are well done as the author considers the adult reading it too , especially grandparents. So in the first book he is living in a back to back terrace with an outside loo etc. He has a cat and a dog, and mutters on about "blooming christmas" with wrapped presents for them that the children can easily guess what they are, and oh how rude, you see him sat on the look in the outside privy. The follow up one is where FC wants to go on holiday so turns the sleigh into a caravan and goes to the seaside, where children recognise him , but he puts his fingerup to tell them to be quiet about it. I have recommended these books to many people and they have all enjoyed them.With the Snowman and the Tiger who came to Tea, they belong in my christmas for years. Susan56 hope you are able to enjoy your lunch today and relax and catch up with all the news and views with your friend. GrandMattie you had quite a day of it, and as for those rude Yummy Mummies, I think I would have just moved away and let them sort things out, so within 5 minutes when the children were asking for this and that they would actually recognise how much you do, and be less rude and more thankful. Wish I had been there, I would have had a word or two with them. Pity the children to have such ignorant parents! hope the Tai chi is calming and soothing for you today. How lovely Aldom, to have so many people to remember your husband , and who have made you welcome. Getting your pictures up is a good start to it feeling like home and sounds as though you have found a treasure to put in your little black book for best handyman for the new year. All to the good, which should help in this starting time in your new home. Just think, there is also something about going somewhere new. You can choose to bring old traditions with you , or alternatively invent new ones that you prefer to start your first christmas here. There is not a great deal to recommend living alone, on the whole, but at least you now have the choice. You can have your christmas dinner at noon or midnight, or no christmas food at all, Watch the opera or ballet uninterrupted by pop music or much rustling of papers and talking over your favourite aria , eat all the chestnuts yourself! But mostly congratulate yourself now and heave a sigh of relief. You did it , managed that move and are settled in your new home to see a brand new year in a new place. Not to mention discovering all of the quirky people on GN too, who will be happy in the coming days to commiserate, advise, ask questions of you, and generally be the great back up whenever life gets to you. so enjoy your first christmas now. You deserve it.
Well, still looking very dark, but dry, out there. Washer is still going, but have had my Bach before 7 and am now in desperate need of a decent coffee, and a shower and then start the hectic day. Will look in later if I have the energy and the time. Enjoy your day everyone, I wish you a bus on time, a parking space, and a chance meeting with an old friend for today.