I am carefully NOT looking at the many things that I really need to sort out, yet again. I havent been well and am not in the right frame of mind to contemplate a blitz right now. Having moved many times both here and abroad, you would think that I would be a competent "thrower outer" by now. but when it comes to books and paperwork and making decisions I am not. I shall no doubt be more in the mood come september. Having been a teacher and lecturer, that always feels like a start the year time and sort out time. Of course every time we moved I would swear that I would never let it get so bad again but thats life.
It just made me remember once , many years ago, when there was just my first husband and myself, and we were supposed to be getting ready to move once more. I was very tired and was fed up with his excuses of having to be in work and leaving me to do most of the sorting out,(despite the fact that I also had a full time job,) and we ended up having a blazing row. I had just about had enough of him, the firm, and everything else and suddenly said. "Right, I am leaving NOW. " He was stupid enough to say "Oh you wont really" and that was red rag to a bull!
I got my coat and bag and took the car and drove out to the countryside. It was wonderful and stress relieving, as at that time I really meant it. I sat there suddenly thinking how marvellous, I would not have to think where anything went and how to pack and how to get rid of things etc, and best of all NO decisions to make , and relished the thought that he would have to sort out every cupboard and drawer and clean up. I calmed down and went and found a pleasant cafe and had a coffee and spent a while thinking about what I really wanted.
Then I drove back home and we carried on. But my husband definitely made more of an effort, and we made many more moves over time. But that is how I feel right at this moment. I want to just go out , shut the door on the lot of it, and do a Reggie Perrin and disappear. Unfortunately , it wouldnt work, as no doubt wherever I went to, I would still have things to sort out! Ah well just have to wait for September, and a cold wet day to get me into sorting mode!