True Grammaretto however much we enjoy getting away, home is always the safe haven.
Doodle if I didn't mention it before, Jenny Colgan has written dozens of easy-listening, predictable books with happy endings which are ideal for night time. it doesn’t matter if you fall asleep and miss whole chunks of it
I save the non-fiction for when I'm awake 
NotS I understand so well the difficulties of accepting what aging and other stuff brings. I suppose we all feel that way at times.
The other hard truth is that comparing our life to someone much worse off (as we are often urged to do), doesn't help much, or at all because it never changes our own road, just reminds us of the sadnesss in other homes.
I hope things ease for you soon 
Another visit from DS and Gubbins today, unscheduled and flying to fix my phone again. He's so good, coming all this way and I get very, very frustrated that I can't see well enough to fix it myself.
So I was up at 5am this morning, making a little treat for him and knocking back (no, not the gin
) but the bread I'd set to prove last night.
Two sunflower & pumpkin seed loaves filled the house with an evocative fragrance and were just out when he arrived.
We talked briefly about his trip; it takes a lot of courage to do this but “Time spent in reconnaissance is never wasted” and if he finds, after 6 months in UK it’s not where they want to be, that's useful info.
There’s always Plan B.
