My daughter (youngest of three kids) and husband have a six month old, my only granddaughter, S. Their marriage is breaking up, and my daughter decided she can not care for S (due to emotional duress caused during the marriage), so tomorrow S is going to another state to be cared for by his family. I made my feelings known - that I think she should stay here with the family that she knows and loves her - but the parents have decided otherwise.
I have been her primary caretaker since she was born last July while her parents worked. I have been so upset all day, and can't stop crying. I'm afraid I'll never see her again, or if I do, she won't know who I am. It's true that it is a challenge to care for a baby full time at my time of life (62), but as she, along with my three kids, is the only family I have, and the only time I have a real problem is when the parents don't come home and don't inform me. Then, I stay up all night waiting for someone to show up and end up frustrated and angry with them.
When she leaves (her dad moved out today, no love lost - though I am disappointed that it couldn't have worked out), there will be such a hole in this house, I'm not sure how to handle this or what to do.
I've been up all night, so upset. All I can do is stare at her sleeping, touch her hair or hand, and think about all of the things and times I had high hopes of sharing with her. I feel destroyed, like a part of me is being ripped away unfairly.
The chances for me seeing her anytime soon is remote, as she will be a couple of days' drive away. My eldest son lives with me, and is mentally disabled (plus we have pets), so that alone makes travelling difficult. My middle son lives in another state, and it would make it a bit easier to take if he was closer, but there you go.
I am having a really hard time understanding why God would give me this gift to have her torn away. I don't know how I will handle this without having a complete breakdown over this loss.
For those of you with grey white silver locks
Leeds's Victorian bear pit in Headingley set to reopen to public.