You’re ok here, but probably better off on the Relationship Forum. But while you’re here, take comfort from the fact you are not alone. I have been through separation and divorce and have come out the other side and so will you. Good luck
I think you have come to the right place for help i.e. Gransnet.
From what I have seen on here there are very caring posters, people with advice, willing to listen (even though it's written!), who have been through the same situation as you.
The feeling of being totally lost and unable to move on is an awful place to be. The quotation 'this too shall pass' is very true in my experience of having been through situations like yours. It's hard to believe when you are deep in loss, but the pain WILL gradually lighten, and the friendship you will find on Gransnet will help.