I'm grateful to have found this forum, I'm hopeful that I can gain strength and understanding from the dialogue.
Today, I feel like it isn't really worth trying anymore.
I'm fully aware I placed too much importance in the relationship I had with my son. I gave too much, done more than I should, and didn't say no nearly enough. I wanted his life to be better than mine, less traumatic and painful.
Now, I'm left with the one person I felt would never leave me, did just that. I lost my Mom and Dad within a year 2021/22 and left in the family is just us.
Does it ever get easier? I get my hopes up during the times he's engaged only for this to happen again.
I'm in such a dark place that I truly don't see how things could improve. He won't communicate with me if something is wrong, not allowing me to know...just silent treatment. How am I supposed to know? Then I walk on eggshells all the time the little bit I do get to see him and my grandson for fear I will be cut out again.
I know I am rambling, I'm sorry. I just need to feel someone somewhere is going to read this and may understand.
Thank you for listening.
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