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nannynoo Mon 13-Jul-15 01:37:24

Little man is tucked up in bed smile

I am going to get some much needed shut eye soon as have been busy from the first minute he was here lol

Day 4 now and not even had TIME to catch up on here...

He is SO happy to be here ( please see my previous posts if not aware what I am talking about even lol )

He can't seem to believe it and nor can I

We are laughing a lot of course and having fun eg in the park , making cakes , playing in the garden , making new friends etc BUT there IS a bitter sweet side to this unfortunately as he was away so long etc ie his EMOTIONAL well being and the emotional fall out / his healing time , bless him

Is displaying some 'behaviours' like peeing on the floor and spitting etc and he never did this before and is nearly 8 now so I just stayed calm and said ''big boys pee in the toilet'' and he has MOSTLY being doing it in there now especially as I stay calm about it but he is EXTRA clingy and insecure etc and seems VERY worried and anxious he is going to be taken away again / has to go back again , he knows his stuff is here etc but he still seems worried bless him , he is SO happy here yet of course he has FEELINGS even though he cannot fully express them in words due to his Autism so when his frustration and anxiety and anger come up I am encouraging him to hit the settee as it is soft and he NEEDS to get it all out somehow and it seems to really be helping him as he has a good hit of the settee with a very angry look on his face bless him and then a look of RELIEF , a smile , then he is off playing happily again and he even instigates it himself now when the feelings come up inside!!

Reckon he has a lot of anger inside , it seems he has abandonment issues to me and I do want to be that 'soft place for him to land' and be able to FULLY HEAL HERE and feel SECURE and happy of course , but the secure bit is going to take a while as even at school in the morning they end up having to drag him away from me as he is clinging on and I WISH he was with me A LOT SOONER but I can't change that I can only do everything I can to help him heal and overcome his issues etc which I know will put a stop to the behaviours which are going with it / being caused by it so he IS a happy little boy on one hand but he does have some emotional issues to deal with now after everything he has been through sad

I believe he will heal though , my heart aches to see him so clingy and insecure as he has been EXTRA clingy ever since he was handed over to me , he has NEVER held my hand SO tightly and keeps holding my hand really tightly and looking into my eyes for signs of ''YES , you are here for GOOD or for as long as needed but back IN the FAMILY again now!''

nannynoo Sat 25-Jul-15 01:12:01

I have not been on here much as been too busy lol

It is so lovely and happy and it still feels AMAZING to have him here and he is settling in so nicely!! smile

His anger seems to have gone and he has realised he is HERE now and not going back , so is really thriving now and it is so lovely to watch

He has stopped weeing on the floor etc and goes straight to the bathroom now as he is a 'big boy' and is proud to be one

I have kept things as balanced as possible re 'doing stuff' and 'chilling together' it is so lovely but I don't want to overuse the word lovely yet after my horrendous year maybe I'm allowed wink

This is the HAPPIEST I have been in a LONG while , we are so natural together and he freely gives kisses and sometimes at the weekend I let him sleep in with me and we go to bed early and watch Mr Tumble together snuggled up in bed and his antics make me laugh so much as of course he does not go straight of to sleep but has funny chats with me even with his limited speech

He is sleeping and eating very well and loves his room and sleeps so well in there too , we have such a good routine he has taken to like a duck to water and loves his bath time and have cooked all his favourites like cauliflower cheese , fish pie , meatballs and pasta in tomato sauce etc and am eating and sleeping well myself too!

It is going BETTER than I thought and we visited his playscheme yesterday which he loved and he loved his swimming club too , he is fitting in well in the neighbourhood and has made friends with 3 girls in particular who fight over his hugs!! LOL He is proving quite popular! grin

My dog is getting used to him now too which took a little while but they are quite sweet together now and my GS holds his lead when we go for walkies , to be honest it is utter BLISS after this hard , tough year and I am loving every minute of it and THIS is what I have been waiting for smilesmile xx

NfkDumpling Sat 25-Jul-15 07:19:16

Thank you for the update. It's just so wonderfully fantastic to hear all is working out so well. There will, I'm sure, be 'those' days when he pushes the boundaries, flexes muscles as he develops in confidence, but you've proved yourself more than capable of coping. It's just a shame it took so long for things to come right. flowers wine

loopylou Sat 25-Jul-15 07:19:34

nannymoo I am so pleased for you, after all those trials and tribulations it's great that it's all worked out brilliantly for you both, flowers

Anya Sat 25-Jul-15 07:22:31

Lovely to hear the happiness in your post sunshine

Gagagran Sat 25-Jul-15 08:26:46

Nannynoo your DGS is one lucky little boy to have you! You fought so hard for him and you deserve the happiness and love you are enjoying. I am full of admiration for you - star Gran! flowers sunshine

Iam64 Sat 25-Jul-15 08:27:38

Great post nannynoo smile

Meercat Sat 25-Jul-15 08:51:42

Lovely update Nannynoo Great to hear it is going so well for you both. flowers

shysal Sat 25-Jul-15 09:07:41

Great to hear from you, Nannynoo. I hope you continue to have a lovely time. sunshine

annodomini Sat 25-Jul-15 09:27:32

Nannynoo, this is the second post this morning that has brought (happy) tears to my eyes. Thank you for your update. You deserve all the happiness in the world and so does your GS. sunshine

POGS Sat 25-Jul-15 09:34:31

nannynoo

Great!!!!

It has taken so long but try and put all the negatives into the ` dustbin of bad things' and open the `box of the future .

I am sure he can only flourish from now on and I can only imagine how wonderful this is for you , I bet you sit and watch him all day and whilst he is tucked up in bed with a silent shout `We did it'

wine

Ana Sat 25-Jul-15 13:10:59

Really pleased everything's going so well and your GS is settling in wonderfully. You both deserve this happy time! smile

Crafting Sat 25-Jul-15 14:14:41

So happy for you both nannynoo smile

Lona Sat 25-Jul-15 14:20:38

I bet you keep pinching yourself nannynoo! You deserve every moment of happiness and so does your dgs. I'm so happy for you sunshine

Deedaa Sat 25-Jul-15 21:28:51

How wonderful that things are going so well nannynoo I expect there will be upsets to come but I am sure you can overcome them if you stay as positive and balanced as you are now. I am reminded of the giggles I have with GS2 when we cuddle up on the sofa and watch Clangers. There's no substitute for sheer enjoyment is there?

hildajenniJ Sat 25-Jul-15 22:03:42

I am so happy for you both. I know what it is like being Granny to autistic boys. They are absolutely lovely but can also be very trying. I really hope that all goes well for you both.

nannynoo Sun 26-Jul-15 03:50:13

Yes Pogs I sit there staring at him OFTEN and I DO feel like pinching myself at times Lona and those happy snuggling together times are PRICELESS Deedaa xx

I was looking at him on the train home from contact today and I COULD NOT BELIEVE he was on the train WITH me ... I actually shed a few tears on the way to the station walking down the road with his hand in mine as SOOOOOO many times I walked that journey home alone , without him and shed tears of a different kind!!!

It was such a good feeling to be able to drop him off with my DD at the contact centre , then LEAVE , not stay week after week and be WATCHED , it is like FREEDOM now too , but with support thankfully!

I am loving it as you can tell and Mr Man is loving Nannys home cooking a bit TOO much and is putting on weight already! lol So will keep an eye on it as he has been the slimmest he has ever been whilst in foster care but was not overweight , just had a GOOD weight to him before , solid and with a BIT of a tummy which I find so cute anyway , but I will not be making him obese of course it is just too much of his favourite dinners for now!! wink LOL

We had a lovely family barbeque today and he was SO HAPPY to see everyone , was a bit upset at contact as he was worried I wouldn't be coming back and of course he has ALWAYS gone home with the FC up till now so I think he was worried she was coming to get him after but he keeps saying ''stay with Nanny'' so I think it is sinking in gradually but not surprising he has worries from the off initially x

daffydil Sun 26-Jul-15 08:38:21

I have read one sad post this morning regarding GC so it makes your update so welcome. I have followed your experiences from the start and I am absolutely delighted that you now have your DGS with you and are giving him the quality of love and care he needs and deserves. Keep us posted from time to time.

Jomarie Sun 26-Jul-15 19:37:41

Happy days are here again Nannynoo - so happy for you and thanks for letting us all know how things are going with you both. smile

FarNorth Sun 26-Jul-15 19:47:41

I'm so pleased for you both, Nannynoo. It's so good to hear that your DGS is starting to relax and to believe that he is staying with you.
smile smilesmilesmilesmile

glassortwo Sun 26-Jul-15 21:40:37

You deserve to enjoy every minute together nannynoo sunshine

nannynoo Tue 04-Aug-15 01:59:03

Little man is settling in well

Is still healing and so am I from the trauma of it all but it will take a while...

Still a few behaviours remaining but it is so understandable and on the whole he and I are both so HAPPY smile

We have done some lovely things like a trip to the zoo with a picnic etc , it is just lovely BEING TOGETHER wherever we are and right now chilling at home is so therapeutic for both of us , we are relaxing , unwinding , healing even through the difficult moments

We have a lovely routine and things are just coming together naturally and am persevering with things like discipline and not giving up

He has been asking for his Mummy a lot recently , bless him , but he still says ''stay Nannys house'' as he wants to stay here and every day is a pleasure even through the hard bits and even the dog plays up sometimes as is in his ''teen dog years'' so can be a bit of a handful too , but I joke about my cheeky boys and having my hands full etc which indeed I do but am happier than I have possibly EVER been after what I have been through to get here and am still going through in some ways as no order is finalised yet , but am plodding on and it is going well , better than I thought and I know our full healing and settledness in our souls will come x

NfkDumpling Tue 04-Aug-15 07:22:39

Wonderful Nannynoo! Just wonderful!! sunshine

FarNorth Tue 04-Aug-15 11:27:52

You're doing so well Nannynoo. I was just wondering how you were both getting on so it's good to hear your news.
You and your DGS deserve your happiness sunshine

nannynoo Wed 05-Aug-15 19:45:18

Ahhh thank you , it has been a difficult journey but oh so WORTH IT and still is! smile ... Always will be I reckon

It is a sad situation really but the assessment lady met him today and said ''he is in the 2nd best place possible'' which was lovely to hear! ... She really took to him as he is lovely and it went really well , was worried it would be chaos but it was calm and pretty orderly

So have a few more things to do after our holiday and will really get stuck in more to all the practicalities once he is back at school xx

NanSue Wed 05-Aug-15 20:12:12

Wonderful news. So pleased for you both. flowers