Stopped smoking.

Thanks ladies, that cheered me up on my return from the quack, lol.

He has kindly given me some antibiotics for a chest infection and an inhaler for the breathlessness. I hope that once feeling better and I get some weight off too, then the breathing will ease back to normal and I can get some sort of normality to my life.

Yeah, not ever going back there, to the smoking. I have tried to give up before and then gone back which is stupid but this time feels so different. I am not going through this suffering for nothing. Plus it is keeping my little doggy awake at night with my coughing and that is not fair to her, nor is filling her with smoke, so great to be living in a smoke free home, just need to sleep now.

Hope you have all had a great Saturday and enjoying the start of the build up of Christmas according to the tele adverts.

Hope you'll be feeling better soon, ruby, once the antibiotics kick in.

Onwards and upwards - I am sure you will get there as you have the right spirit and we are all rooting for you.

ruby soon you'll be one of those "insufferable ex-smokers" - like my husband! I often smile to myself at how far the other way he has gone ...I don't mind though, just happy that he no longer smokes. I find it very amusing though when his still smoking family blame me for his conversion! (I've never smoked). Actually, I tell them it was the heart attack that did it (true).

Good luck for the next phase of your new non-smoking life

Thank you all again for your support, it is invaluable at this time, well, all the time really.

I'm not feeling too much better on the antibiotics so am off to the doctors again in the morning as I have taken a week's course nearly now and not much improvement. I am wondering if it could be anxiety as well though, since the move and being in a hurry to get everything sorted out. It isn't going to and I have to accept it and enjoy doing this house up. Luckily my son has started to help me a bit now so it makes a difference to feel like I am supported a bit.

I do feel, and I do not mean this sexually at all, that I need to fall into a man's arms, rest my head against his chest and feel that my worries are his worries. And that feeling when you just melt into someone and relax, do you know what I mean? I remember the feeling well as I was married for 16 years. I feel all strung out. What can make me feel like that if I don't yet have a man to cuddle? I don't drink, now don't smoke, trying to lose weight so where do I find my release?