Depression

This morning I still have that sinking sensation that someone has switched off my Life Force button - it is very disturbing and I guess hard for anyone who has not experienced it to understand. Everything is such an effort - and this is so far removed from how I normally function that it is very hard to endure.

I am using a skin butter that my DD bought me from Neals Yard to try and alleviate the pressure areas. The skin is intact, but there is redness.

I am going to tea with friends this afternoon and feel as if I could happily stay at home - but I will go, as I have to get back into normal life, even though it feels a huge effort.

Sorry to hear that feeling is on you again Mishap

I'm finding it hard writing Christmas cards as so many friends and relatives have passed away this year. Sometimes they have to be crossed off the list altogether or there is just one of the couple to send to.

I hope going out for tea with friends lifts your spirits a bit Mishap and hopefully a feeling of a bit of a breakthrough getting back to normal life. it's a horrible feeling being on automatic pilot and just putting one foot in front of the other but sometimes getting out is good medicine.

If you think the skin butter isn't working, just use olive oil or bio oil, gently massaged into the area.

It is a sad fact Anya and for that reason, I now write a new card list every year.

You will enjoy going out to tea and having a natter Mishap. It will do you good. Have a for me.

Tea with our friends was lovely - just sitting by the fire chatting. How wonderful it was to go out and no-one stuck electrodes on me or wanted to listen to my heart or get me to do exercises. This is the first normal outing I have had for weeks and it has been a tonic - tiring, but a tonic.

Thank you for olive and bio oil suggestion. I'll look into that.

I have a sheepskin on its way to put in the bed.

So glad you enjoyed your friends' company Mishap, good friends are worth their weight in gold, aren't they?
I hope this marks a little step on your road to recovery

So pleased to hear you enjoyed your afternoon Mishap and I'm sure your friends were equally happy to have you back

Thank you for your encouragement. It feels like a big step for me at the moment.

Tomorrow I have a more usual outing! - echoardiogram. Hopefully all will be normal.

So pleased you had a lovely visit Mishap and hope all is well tomorrow.

I'm so glad you had a lovely day of normality yesterday Mishap. I hoped it's buoyed you up for today's tests and the results are good.

Mishap How are you today? Glad to hear that you enjoyed your tea with friends, nothing nicer than a chat.
Hope the echocardiograph is normal and you have a few more 'better' days.
Keep chatting to us ((hugs))

Hope all goes well today Mishap.

I think I been trying to do too much over the last few days, knee is grumbling (note to Mrs. P it's the knee that is grumpy, not me)
Still got cold/flu symptoms, not sure whether I really have a cold coming on or it is still the withdrawal from codeine.

All Xmas shopping done - just need postie to do her bit now, then I can finish all the wrapping, never been so far ahead.

Good luck at the hospital today, Mishap. Looking back, you've had quite a time of it and I hope you're starting to recover. It takes a while to get used to learning that your body has changed yet again and is taking that bit longer to settle down after surgery.

When I last had an ECG, the nurse reassured me everything was fine for 'someone of my age!' I can't tell you how much that cheered me up....hmmm !

Good luck Mishap

Just had a call from the hospital - echocardiogram cancelled as too many staff off sick! I have pointed out that I have a clinic appt on 18th and they do need this result before then in order to know how to proceed. Sigh.

Oh Mishap! What a b*gg*r

Oh! What a ... What ja said. Did they give you any idea when it might be done?

Oh, for flip's sake Mishap that's awful. We all know these things happen but it's a pig when it happens to someone who is suffering as you are! Shall we send the grans in to sort em out!

Mishap - I'm so sorry, you must be feeling completely ticked off.

Arghhhh it never rains.... so sorry to hear about that. This sort of crapulence really does not help lift spirits.

Oh Mishap This just should not be happening and I am so upset for you.
Can your GP intervene and express the urgency of your procedure in relation to results being necessary for your appointment on the 18th.

Given that your procedure was cancelled, I am hoping you are top of the list for the first immediate slot.

Thank you for your fellow feeling. I have just been to the dentist and got back to find a message from the hospital offering me an echocardiogram on 13th - a Saturday - and this is before my clinic appointment so this should be OK.

Got back from dentist and have been fighting the weepiness again - I will talk to GP tomorrow about trying the sertraline again now that I am on the beta blocker. It is very frustrating the way it always comes back and is blocking my progress at every turn.

My DD wants me to go with her to DGS's Christmas play tomorrow and the sad thing is that I do bot know whether I can face it. I get so tired and weak, and the access and seating there are difficult on crutches. Before all this happened I would have been thrilled to go and it demonstrates to me the extent of the problem.

I truly am trying to rise above this but it is a major struggle - one moment I think I am clawing my way out and the next I am back on the floor. All I can do is to plod on.

I'm sorry to hear your still feeling so low. It's such a terrible dark place to be. You won't be there forevermishap You come through your posts as a fighter and post so positively on the threads. At the moment you can't see the woods for the trees so it's hard for you to see that. I rooting for you along with the rest of us.

Mishap Your cancellation could understandably be the reason for this slump but it has been rectified.

Wait until morning before deciding whether or not you feel up,to,attending DGS's Christmas Play. Even if you only go along for half of the performance, you will probably be surprised how helpful people will be, doing what they can helping with access and seating. If you really don't feel up,to it, looking after yourself is your priority.

Hope you have a good night.

Thank you - you are all very patient with this ongoing miserable saga. I cannot wait to be myself once more.