I am still in absolute terror of this coming test, been reading on internet of the pain some people have during a colonoscopy and realise that everyone has been feeding me lies about how 'painless' the procedure is.
They tell me that they are screaming and rolling around on the bed in such agony, I have had three weeks of torture just worrying about it but hoping it would be ok, now I know its not. there are dangers too with the sedation, I have a horrible cough and when I lie down I cough worse so I know there are risks with chest infections/problems.
I am so scared of having treatments of any sort, I just want it to stop.
I had the chance to bring it forward to last Friday but I had no one to take me/bring me back so couldn't do it. why do the NHS just seem to think you are available at any time to fit in with their appointment cock ups. I have had to get my daughter to take time off work, someone has had to disrupt their life to stand in for her, my friend who cant now take me is grumbling that she has to pick me up when Ive had the test. (this friend is very ill herself and will struggle to drive the journey to the hosp). My elderly mother has now offered to babysit me for the day, she has had to cancel things that she had planned. I asked about patient transport if no one available to pick me up and they said I still need someone to accompany me as drivers are not specialist trained, yet my friend would be allowed to take me home alone and she is not medically trained, this does not make sense.
I just hate to be a burden on anyone and I wouldn't do it for anyone apart from my DD or DGD.
Ive got 5 more days till I know my fate. My whole life is 'on hold', everything I do or think about centres upon 'colonoscopy', I cant concentrate or do anything much. Does anyone know how this feels.