Depression 2

I will welcome that "something positive" with open arms!

I have to keep reminding myself that although today is not a good one, it is better than I have been a few weeks ago - so I will hang on to that.

I am seeing the counsellor this afternoon, and I need to try and pin her down as to what she is doing and what direction she is aiming at, as so far it is painful on the purse with no actual benefit. It also means my OH has to drive me there and back which is a nuisance for him - we live so far from civilisation.

Mishap (((hugs))). I think the fact that you had a bit of a backward step after three good days has taken it's toll on you and understandably left you feeling totally peed off at the whole blessed situation.

Rant away as much as you want, this too is good medicine until suddenly something positive happens and you feel back on track.

Rant away Mishap! IBS certainly isn't "just" IBS, it's incredibly debilitating and wearing - not to mention inconvenient! - and alters your entire way of life and the quality of it. Doctors should know better than to refer to it as "just". I don't know how you managed to keep working, you must be exhausted. [Flowers]

I am going to have a rant now - please ignore it as you see fit - it may make me feel better.

I have had irritable bowel for the whole of my life and it has been a total blight. Needing the loo urgently up to 10 times a day whilst trying to hold down a job and bring up a family required every ounce of my determination and bloody-mindedness. Waking every morning with nausea that lasts till about 1 pm, and still trying to carry on a normal life is no joke, take it from me, especially when it drags on decade after decade.

It has all been thoroughly investigated over the years so there is no doubt that it is a motility problem, and I just chuck down imodium by the bucketload. How many times was I told that it is JUST irritable bowel? - sometimes I felt like screaming at them, as the word just seemed distinctly inappropriate in the context of the life that I was having to lead.

With my hip op, depression and heart wobbles I have just got to the point where I feel I cannot cope with the bowel problem any longer. I wake up every morning feeling sick as a dog and then engage in the battle of the bowels for several hours. It has reduced me to tears this morning - whatever spark of life that helped me to fight this damned thing has been wiped out by all my other problems and I cannot fight it as a used to - I do not have the oomph to rise above it any more.

Maybe tomorrow.

Rant over.

Reassurance from a professional is excelent medicine. Hopefully the pain will dull to discomfort soon.

Summer's on it's way!

It must be reassuring to know that your hip is doing ok and that the CPN is happy with your progress!

That's really good to hear that Mishap, even if progress isn't as fast as you'd like you are sounding much brighter! to you! x

Well done Mishap you're sounding so much more positive. More good days than bad days, which is really encouraging

Had 2 appointments today - the first was with the CPN and she was encouraging about my progress, even though things went a little backwards today after 3 good days. I had not slept well and this always leads to a worse day. But I am sticking with the treatment and it does seem to be kicking in. She says it will be a while before I feel the full benefit. More patience required! I feel very nervous of any relapse as the symptoms are so very unpleasant.

I also saw the orthopaedic consultant, who examined my hip in detail and said that all is well, and the pain that I am getting is likely to be soft tissue pain. He has sent a note to the physio about this and hopes she will be able to help me. He has OK'd a bit more movement and bending etc (e.g. trying to tie my shoes - dare I?!) which is encouraging - but slightly daunting - there is no way I am going to risk anything that might make me require further surgery - no way could I go through all this again! I do wish the pain would stop - it is partly that that keeps me awake - but it is reassuring to know that it does not stem from anything serious.

I just want to feel well for a bit!

Good news Mishap. Keep going in the right direction. &

Mishap hope you get the dose right soon. Good you have a GP who listens. Let's hope your GP can help on Tuesday Phoenix. for you both. Would send you some if I could find some anywhere. Life is so much better when the weather isn't so gloomy.

Yes agus - I recognise that scenario. Some people think I must be nuts when I tell them how small a dose I need of various drugs (and how problematical it can be if I take a "normal" dose) - luckily my GP has seen what happens and fully understands my situation.

Mishap I have a very low threshold for drugs therefore it takes me a while to get the balance right. DH on the other hand needs a quantity of analgesics for instance, that would knock out a horse .

Hope the dose you have returned to does the trick.

Hope all goes well for you on Tuesday phoenix

Thank you.

I had a bit of a weird night unfortunately as I tried (as instructed) to up the dose of the anti-depressant a bit and it caused some unpleasant side effects - strange feeling of being unable to keep legs and arms still and I was awake with that for ages.

I will put the dose down a tiny bit again tonight, as I have been OK on that in the past and seem to be very sensitive to it. That will mean I am back on the dose that I took for years (and suddenly stopped for the operation) as a means of preventing my migraines and IBS. It may be that, even though it is a small dose, it is right for me. Time will tell.

Phoenix - will be thinking of you and hope GP is able to help on Tuesday.

Good news Mishap, you're getting there

Mishap That is good to hear. I had noticed you were posting more. May you continue to feel better.

I will keep everything crossed for you. (((hugs)))

Tiny steps, tiny steps in the right direction mishap I too had noticed you 'posting' and felt that you were making progress. I'm so glad your feeling a little better. to give you courage and hope.

That's so good to hear Mishap, everything firmly crossed for you! X

to you, Mishap. Hoping the New Year is good to you and that your health continues to improve.

Much love to you, and good to hear that you are having some good days!

I am dreading Sunday and Monday, but know that I just have to metaphorically gird my loins and get through it. Seeing GP again on Tuesday.

Good to hear from you all and thanks for your good wishes - very appreciated as I am sure you know.

Mishap glad that you sound like you have taken a tiny step forward

That's good Mishap. I'd noticed you've been posting on other threads, so hoped it meant you were feeling a bit better

I've noticed you on more of the other threads Mishap and hoped you were feeling a little better. I've got everything crossed for you.

Still have everything crossed for you Mishap. I do detect a little spring in your step which I sincerely hope turns into a strong stride very soon. Really hope also that you have turned that blessed corner at last.