daffydil it is good to hear stories like yours, my bowel cancer has spread locally and I feel that my life is on hold until I get the all clear.
There are some jolly types who get chemo and put on a silly smile and try to be positive but the bottom line is that we have a life threatening illness and I cant laugh and be jolly. They must all be putting on an act and that is false.
I try to tell as few people as possible as I don't want pity but I told a shop assistant in a shop I never go to normally and she looked at my shopping and said in a patronising voice, 'well, dear you should buy yourself all the treats you want while you can'. I wanted to scream.