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I'm not going to tell him.....

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grannyactivist Fri 06-May-16 15:57:18

but I'll bet you think I should.

Next week we're off on holiday to visit old friends in Norway, this couple have been very close to my husband since he was a boy and they're now very old and frail. The husband has terminal cancer and so we are not likely to see them again. It will be hard for my husband to say goodbye. I'm flying home and my husband will get home three weeks later as he's cycling home.

I've had a sore throat for some time and had the feeling of having a lump there. I saw the GP last week and got a very speedy referral to the hospital. I didn't tell my husband about the hospital appointment because I wanted to know what I was dealing with before worrying him. I saw the consultant today for an endoscopy and there is in fact a lump in my throat, which the consultant suspects is benign, but he's referred me for an MRI scan and biopsy. I imagine the date of the scan will be as soon as I return from my holiday. So, I've decided not to mention it to my husband. If I tell him he'll insist on returning home with me and thereby miss out on time to process saying goodbye to his old friend and on some much needed R&R. The lump is most likely benign and if it isn't then at least my lovely man will have had a great experience to set him up for caring for me.

We usually talk about everything and if I was worried and needed his support I would certainly tell him, but I really want him to have his adventure. If the lump does turn out to be worrisome he can fly home and be back the same day if I need him to. (I haven't told anyone else either so this is our little secret - shh!)

Deedaa Sat 11-Jun-16 21:54:07

Brilliant GA Think what a depressing time you would all have been having if you'd told him. His holiday would have been spoiled, the children would have been upset and you would have felt guilty as well as worried.

How nice to have a man who understands smile

Cherrytree59 Sat 11-Jun-16 18:13:39

ga 'you can't keep a good woman down!'
And you certainly are good woman.
You have put everybody before your self.
I know you will get through this.
Just let everybody at least be there for you now ga
flowers

Indinana Sat 11-Jun-16 17:58:47

Oh grannya what a tremendous relief for you - not only to have him home again, but to have been able to unburden yourself on him and have his full support and understanding. You sound like a rock solid couple. I feel very hopeful that all will continue to be well for you x

grannyactivist Sat 11-Jun-16 16:38:48

Hooray - The Wonderful Man is home and has heard my confession. wink Fortunately he absolutely understood my thinking and is very grateful that I did spare him (and our children) the knowledge - and especially the decision of whether to continue with the cycle ride. Pulling out would definitely have meant explaining why he'd done so to the children and with exams to be taken that would have been an unnecessary burden for them.

It is very good to have him home and to be able to talk openly about it. I've never kept anything of importance from him before and it wasn't easy, but I'm glad I did. He's as brown as a nut and has had a lovely adventure and now he's working on the allotment as I sit here drinking tea. All is well. smile

Thanks for being a listening ear once again pals.

cornergran Thu 09-Jun-16 19:35:51

I also has anaesthetic problems, explained three years ago, process adjusted and all was well so, please do tell everyone responsible for your care. I'm sure you and your MiL will be delighted to see you DH and have him share the load. Good luck, will be thinking of you. Sending flowers and sunshine

harrigran Thu 09-Jun-16 19:29:19

Thinking of you ga and wishing you a speedy recovery post anaesthetic flowers

morethan2 Thu 09-Jun-16 19:15:05

Fingers crossed

Lona Thu 09-Jun-16 17:11:49

Good luck from me too ga, hope the news will be all good. sunshine

hildajenniJ Thu 09-Jun-16 15:56:46

Good luck with the biopsy ga. I hope all goes well. Glad that the timings worked out well an your DH will be there for support. flowers for you, from me.

baubles Thu 09-Jun-16 14:32:26

Ah sorry, I hadn't read the full thread and didn't notice the date. Please ignore my wholly irrelevant post.

Still wishing you well and sending positive vibes though. flowers

baubles Thu 09-Jun-16 14:25:41

If it were me I'd tell my DH purely to allow him to make his own decision armed with the same information that you have. I'm not a worrier I suppose I'm an optimist as far as health is concerned so my choice to tell him wouldn't be based on fear of what could be but simply to treat him as an equal. I wouldn't and haven't told anyone other than him in similar circumstances.

Wishing you a positive outcome.

MiniMouse Thu 09-Jun-16 14:11:11

Sending you sunshine and flowers ga Let's hope the bipsy gives you the all clear. (I love your choice of the word 'worrisome', it's the first time I've heard it in years! It goes with 'tiresome' and 'bothersome'. So descriptive!)

BBbevan Thu 09-Jun-16 13:07:32

What a brave, wonderful, selfless person you are*ga*. I hope all goes well for you

grannyactivist Thu 09-Jun-16 12:39:08

Thanks for the tip about telling the anaesthetist about the sickness - I've always suffered from terrible sickness for days afterwards - hopefully s/he can give me something to avoid it this time.

One son has now finished exams and the other one will be done by a week tomorrow, so I feel I've managed not to add an unnecessary burden and can tell them all the (hopefully good) news when the deed is done.

kittylester Thu 09-Jun-16 12:03:49

Good luck from me too Ga - just realised the coincidence in your abbreviated name! You know we are all wishing you well.sunshine

Luckygirl Thu 09-Jun-16 11:41:41

Glad that OH will be with you to deal with the sick!! I hope that it all goes well - you seem to be getting excellent speedy treatment and they are being very thorough. Good luck with it all.

Indinana Thu 09-Jun-16 11:19:30

I second looplou's suggestion - I was very sick after a GA, and told the anaesthetist the next time I needed one. He adjusted the drugs accordingly and I was absolutely fine afterwards.

Good luck ga, I am keeping everything crossed for you. flowers and (((hugs)))

loopylou Thu 09-Jun-16 10:55:55

Very much keeping my fingers crossed for you ga, I too wouldn't have told my DH.

Do tell the anaesthetist that ga's make you very sick, there are new drugs that they can give you before you come round. The last time I had a ga, four years ago, was the first time I hadn't been sick for days afterwards.

? and hug x

Anya Thu 09-Jun-16 10:53:37

Here's hoping for good news soon sunshine

grannyactivist Thu 09-Jun-16 10:43:46

UPDATE no 3:
My consultant has been on holiday so I only got my results letter today. He says there is a need for me to have a biopsy under general anaesthetic, but that I can go home from hospital the same day.

Fortunately my Wonderful Man will be home on Saturday, so the timing is very good - I am always very sick after a general anasthaetic so I wouldn't have wanted to have that procedure without him nearby to look after me. I'm still feeling very positive and lots of friends are praying for me, but my poor mother in law is very worried now, I can tell.

Indinana Mon 23-May-16 23:02:38

Keeping everything crossed for you. So pleased you have your MiL's support - she sounds like a gem, lucky you!

cornergran Mon 23-May-16 22:22:36

ga just [hugs], pleased you have the support of your MiL.

Judthepud2 Mon 23-May-16 22:13:05

Keeping my fingers crossed for you ga.

Synonymous Mon 23-May-16 14:49:13

So glad you had a lovely time and your DH is doing all the things he wanted to do. Your PIL sound lovely. Praying that all will be well for you. flowers

kittylester Mon 23-May-16 14:17:09

(((hugs))) Ga - please keep us posted.