The Black Dog Gang

Please don't feel alone - behind every virtual person on here is a real caring human being.

I am in a bit of a trough just now for a whole host of reasons. A drug I was given to control my heart rhythm has upset my hard won absence of depression. I feel very weepy. But of f the tabs now and hoping it will start to wear off. The stresses of being a carer make it harder to keep at bay. But i will get there.

I know what you mean by " hard won". Maybe time for a review of medication with your doc?

Luckygirl... you say you're a carer. Are you getting all the help you could? By that, I mean paid care workers, respite for the person you look after, a day centre perhaps? A befriending scheme? There is help if you know where to go.

AgeUK, Crossroads, Social Services, for example.

As I haven't seen any posts on here since my last post on November 8th, I can only assume that:

a) everyone is happy, busy and in no need of this thread, or
b) somehow I've been blocked from seeing posts on here.

I'll just go off into a corner and cry on my own then.....

I'm around, and still rather miserable..
Busy every day, so just keeping my head down and putting one foot in front of the other at the minute.
I feel quite overwhelmed with 'stuff' which I must do. (None of which I'm doing, naturally!)

Me too, MissA. I was feeling pretty good, on my new meds (been on them for about 6 weeks) but today, for no reason at all, I've cried and felt like hibernating! It's mad, because I've got things lined up to look forward to (trips away, days out, etc) but I feel as though I've taken a step forward then 2 steps back.

Do you still work? I work (if you can call it that) 2 days a week. It ensures that I get up, get ready, put on my "front" and do something for other people.

Ah, that's a pity, Lynne.
Still, mental health (stupidly, I inwardly shudder to use that phrase!) is such a complex issue, there are bound to be times when it feels like the clouds are descending again.
Yes, I still work, but I'm in the process of leaving my job now and finding something new.
I'm having a hard time admitting defeat, but I bit off more than I can chew with my current job, given that I have my grandson living here with me.
I think that's why I'm quite down, and I'm also physically worn out too.
Your job sounds lovely, by the way!

I also need to add that I'm feeling I was pushed back to work too soon after the death of my daughter.
It was a year a few weeks ago, and I just don't feel up to it some days.
I have to grit my teeth, wipe my eyes, and just do what I must..
I feel quite angry at times that I'm in this position.
I'm not sure "they" realise the bloody trauma I've been through, and there, I've said it. It was a trauma that I will never ever get over.
It will be with me forever.
I'm not writing myself off, but I would have liked more time to adjust to the new "normal".

Sorry Lynn, I've not been around,partly because I have involved myself in other threads.....a complete waste of time.

It would be a pity if this one faded away.
I am doing OKish, but struggle with the short days.

MissA.... so sorry to hear about your daughter. That is a real trauma, I agree.

My job is great, and I love it there (so why do I not want to go? It doesn't make sense).

Anyway, I've got boring housework to do today (later haha, then I'll probably have coffee with son no. 1 before we fetch his girls from their mother's, after school.

I keep starting a diet, then ruining it by scoffing cake, but I'll try a bit harder today.......

Oldbatty...I know what you mean, I've been doing the same. Like you, I find this time of year doesn't help.

Hope everyone gets on better today.

Nice to " see" you Lynn. Come back fellow gang members who have fallen by the wayside!!

Hope you are having a better day today Lynne.

I am much improved since throwing away the heart meds.

Hello I am still here- luckily for me I feel a lot better (I almost don’t want to say that as it’s like tempting fate) .

Lynne - it took a good 8 weeks on the meds before I started to feel noticeably better. It’s now about 12 weeks and I almost feel “normal”. So don’t give upon the meds. I used to feel I was taking one step forward and 2 back too.

Miss A - what a terrible time you have had, I am not surprised you need all your strength to get through the day which doesn’t leave much left for anything else.

Batty - glad you are Okish.

Hope everyone has a good day.
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An, great news.

Keep going everyone! My thoughts are 90% negative. I am going make a determined effort to introduce some more positive ones. Watch this space!

Anannymous...thanks. I definitely won't give up on the medication. I know I'm better than I was a few weeks ago.

I saw my eldest son earlier (he has Wednesdays off work), we had a coffee and chat - he has had depression and anxiety but is very well now)then we picked up his 2 little girls after school, went to a play centre then pub for dinner, before returning them to their mother.

Son number 2 is meant to be calling round here later.

Hope you've all had a decent day

Hi all. Since being here last I've learnt that some of my problems are or maybe physical and relating to actual medical problems which are being investigated. Again once you start investigating you are opening a can of worms which I'm not sure whether it's a good or a bad thing at my age. As you can see I feel low about it wished I carried on oblivious...

mmmm tricky one that Blue Sky.

How is everyone? Good day? Bad day? I met my sister-in-law yesterday, so that she could buy some new clothes...pulling out (carefully) from a junction, some muppet drove into me. Nobody was hurt, my numberplate was broken (half of it broken off and smashed), so all ok.

A few weeks ago, I probably would have cried a lot at that. I just thought "Ah well, no bother" and bought a new numberplate.

Today, work was great. We all chatted and laughed. I got home to find that the outside light was broken, the iron had been left on all day, and the tumble drier isn't working...no drama, I can deal with those things. The difference of being on the correct medication... it's all good.

I hope you're all doing well.

How's everyone doing? I am feeling better than I have done for a long time. I am keeping busy, keeping warm, and getting a decent amount of sleep. I hope you are all managing to get on alright.

Hi all just checking in, this page is great in making me feel 'normal' whatever that is and not so alone. I've had anxiety for God knows how many years. Unfortunately had to see the Dr recently but she immediately thinks my problems are anxiety related which really pees me off! Ended up in hospital with terrible stomach pain over the weekend and tomorrow seeing a consultant for gastric/gallbladder pain. I feel like screaming it's not all in my head, my body has problems like everyone else, but I have to double proove it to get heard and then doubt myself which is ridiculous. Does anyone else feel labelled or is it just me. Fed up.?

Please GNHQ set up a chat room.

hopeful, you are quite entitled to your feelings and sorry to hear your news. You are not alone.

Oldbatty, so glad you are out there. A chat room would be wonderful.... it would be a great place to share our feelings without frightening everyone around us to into trying to say the right thing!

You're not alone hopeful1, once you are diagnosed with anxiety and depression, the docs sometimes go to that first to explain symptoms, when it can be something else entirely. It's understable I suppose, when the docs are looking for answers, but frustrating for us nevertheless. I'm feeling better than I was a couple of months ago, but have ongoing family problems, and I won't feel completely recovered until they are resolved. Trying to find things to be thankful for every day, and have an excellent GP and counsellor, but still struggling at times. How is everyone else on this thread?