I cannot have infusions, as I have chronic lung disease. Methotrexate is also out of the question, as it would cause fatal lung failure within months. There are very little options open to me.
I have been told that even on Leflunomide, I am at risk of lung failure, kidney failure and worst of all , my hair may fall out! My daughter is getting married next year and I don't want to be a bald MOB!!!
However, I have been feeling so awful for months now and sometimes my pain levels are extremely high, I would just like some sort of respite.
I'm not one to feel sorrow for myself and looking at me, you would never know I was ill. People keep telling me how well I look! I don't let on and just like to get on with things, keeping busy.
The only thing in my favour is that I'm on permanent antibiotics for my lungs, so that may protect them.
However, this time it's getting to me.
I don't want to offload on my family, as they have enough worries. I know my DH is worried, but not saying much,
Sorry for being such a moan, I just needed to share it!