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Go for it Annie, get angry, its very therapeutic!

You are sounding a bit more positive now, Annie. Keep it up.

When HMRC says jump one has to jump !

Have started working on other problems, lot to sort out .

Thank you x

Annie sorry to hear you have gone backwards. Please don't try to take on everything at once.

What works for one doesn't work for everyone but what I do is write lists, lots of lists. A list seems to put it all in perspective. I tend to do the 'easy wins' on the really bad days and some days manage nothing but when I am able to tick something off my list I feel a little buzz that things might be getting better. Sometimes the lists just get bigger but there are times when I feel I have achieved and they are good.

Doodle do what I do, turn the cake upside down, that way it will be level before you ice it! If it really has a big hole, scoop it out and fill with sweets, again on the underside. It is quite 'a thing' these days to cut into a cake and sweets fall out! I think one of my skills is making food look like it is deliberately like that!

Thank you x

Haven’t had panic attack for years , with agoraphobia I can get back in the bungalow and I am calm, this is different .

I wake and straight away my mind is swamped with problems I have to deal with . It will pass .

anniebach stress always causes me anxiety attacks. A full schedule like the one you just described would absolutely shake me up for at least a day - or two.
Remind yourself continually that this will pass. Tell yourself it's temporary. Give yourself permission to rest and recover.
Those of us with our predisposition find upheaval, noise and too many people very overwhelming.
You will feel better soon.
Be gentle with yourself till you feel calmer

Dear Annie, so sorry you have so much on your plate, please know how well you are doing and how proud I am of you, I wish I had half of your courage. Sending love and prayers.xxxxx

Hello Annie, I am sorry to hear you are having a bad day, especially as you had managed to venture into your garden. I know from experience that we seem to take one step forward and two backwards but just remember that you did manage to get outside and nothing terrible happened. Of course it is easier said than done and you have had a lot of worry, which you could really do without at the moment which I am sure has added to your anxiety. Please don’t let it all set you back. At my worst, some years ago, I couldn’t leave my front room and I remember very well the sheer joy I felt the first time I went to the shops on my own. You will get there. I hope the therapy session goes well.

Having a difficult time, anxiety has struck , hit me yesterday and still with me. Only have it when trying to go out but now in my home. Could it be stress?

Have had the battle of the new windows, the five days last week with the new fencing. The building of Fred’s garage ,

Work for/with my brother, end of year PAYE returns, vat returns and HMRC has change the way these are done and I don’t understand it.

Firms accounts with accountant and a vat ledger missing . Big problem.

Gardener has messed up my garden , if council see it I will get a ticking off.

Am having EMDR therapy for the agoraphobia and now the
NHS nutritionist is pressing me to work on my eating disorder.

Don’t have help from mental health with NHS because GP thinks MIND can help, but they don’t.

I feel swamped, causing me to be agitated, shaky, fearful.
Have no family support, don’t even have a key holder, if I was to have a fall I would have to press the alarm and because no key holder the police would be called, how embarrassing is that.

Could it be too much stress ?

Thank you GrandmainOz x

Please believe there's hope ladies. I still have awful days, but they are so rare compared to living in a terrifying black fog every single day. It took years to find the right medications, but my psychiatrist, once I found him, has saved my life.
That's not an exaggeration. He also helped me see that I was worthy of help and treatment. I thought because of my age and length of suffering that I was beyond hope and things would never change.
I was proved wrong

Haha sounds nice could just eat some nice chocolate cake

I cover mine with chocolate icing joce and level it off so that no one can see it’s sunk in the middle. Whoever notices just gets a nice extra bit of chocolate icing - they don’t complain ?

That made me smile Doodle how very true. I am no good with words . I wanted nanny to see that there is some thing we can all do. Like you said even if it don’t turn out right it doesn’t matter.. I can remember a dear old lady telling me when I was young, I said to her my cakes never turned out nice,she said if it’s does not look right put some custard on it, no one will know the difference, still make me smile.

P.s nanny
I cook - inedible food
I sew - things that go straight in the bin
I knit - things that unravel at first wearing
I exercise - but can’t get up off the floor after
I paint - but no one has any idea what it’s supposed to be
Yup I am multi talented - bad at everything
As annie says is there something you would like to do? Try it. It doesn’t matter if it turns out good or bad just having a go can give you a sense of satisfaction.
I wish you well.

Well said Doodle

nanny you don’t need any other skills. You have already mastered the most important thing. You are a good mum and love your children and DGC. You said it yourself.
That is the best thing in the world. To be able to love others - no other skill comes close.

nanny is there anything you have thought ‘I wish I could do that’ ?

aw Joce that sounds amazing xx

Nanny you don’t have to be skilled for every thing.. My daughters got me a dolls house when I had a brake down. I just looked at it thinking how can I do that umm. A good 12 month after I got it out of it’s big box, I had to build it 3 stores high. I did it yay. I loved every min I have now furnished it 3 years on still not finished.. I do get lost in it and my grandkids love it it lights up all done by myself and I did not have a clue.. I’m not saying get one, I just want to say you don’t have to be skilled to do every thing.. big hugs

nonnie. thank you x yes i am ok with my family but not with OH,s I will , sometimes, on bad days remind myself what a blumming good mother i was/am. I adore my children and GC and they know it lol. I am being honest when i say i have no skills at all.

nanny I don't think its every too late, don't think I would cope if I didn't believe there was a possibility of improvement. Please don't think I know the answer just a suggestion which you may well have heard before. Maybe do some small thing very well, learn a small new skill, cross stitch is easy and, even though I think I am rubbish at it, no one seems to notice! Plant something in a pot and watch it grow. You probably have lots of skills which others would envy. I knit and take it for granted but others think it is clever, just as I think a friend who makes clothes is very talented. Don't put down your skills, you have coped so that in itself is a skill.

You must be doing something right as you have been married so long, it would have broken down if you were not worthy. Are you still friends with all your family? Lots on here have broken family relationships.

Glad you are having a better day today.

nanny please try to like yourself, to see yourself a person worthy of love which you are. Love that child that you were and who was so hurt. X

I am actually not too bad today the above is just to explain how i feel xx