Black Dog Gang 5

Hi all x

Joce sorry the health anxiety has reared its ugly head, try to
hold onto the thought you did manage to lessen it’s grip before and you will do again, x

nonnie. There are 8 emotions which dominate us,
love, anger , fear, grief are 4 of them.

I know my love of your grief, I don’t know what you are hiding
from, perhaps not hiding from but suppressing?

You fear an emotion rearing it’s head but there can be no healing until you let it free, there is no shame in voicing emotions, we don’t mind expressing love do we ? If you can
open up the wound a little, this may or may not release the
hidden emotion.

I am sure at the meetings you comfort others, allow your self
to be comforted x

Thank you lavender, it usually get me at that time as well,
very bad in the morning. I have not been so bad while we have been on holiday had my moments..
Nonnie hope your support group goes well hope it help I really do...
Annie hope your day has been a successful one for you.

Annie did you manage to have a word with the doctor?

Love to all with a peaceful night and sleep for those in pain xxx

Nonnie I wish you well for your visit to the support group. I don't know if this will be your first time, if it is, just give it a go, telling yourself you can always cancel it in the future. Deep breaths and remember we are with you xxx
Joce sorry to hear you are having a bad day, anxiety is horrible, it sweeps over me, usually at 4 in the morning but remember you will deal with it in your way. Thinking of you xxx
Annie will be along shortly to help.

Evening all, hope every ones ok..
I have my old dog back, this heath anxiety is really getting to me today.. well has been for a few months now err will I ever get rid of this..
Sorry all just having a bad day,

Nonnie You are clearly not in a good place, and I am sorry about that. I know you are apprehensive about the support group and it will bring up things you are hiding from but it may help you. However if it distressed you that much could you take a break from the group, because nothing should make you feel worse than you do.
My physical pain is not helping but as you said not having pain, does not make you feel better and I agree with that.
I wish you well and hope that the support group will help you. Take care.

So sorry that you mostly seem to have physical issues as well as the black dog. Of course I have a few too but nothing problematic so I should be grateful and I am but it doesn't help me feel better. Going to a support group tomorrow evening but it scares me that it will bring up things I am hiding from.

lavenderzen like bogof buy one get one free. Agree 2 for 1. Only on condition we lunch and have a drink, have to be quick though cant sit down for long. Seriously that cheered me up.
Salsaqueen the GP did give me some meds but due to GI Problems I cant regularly take them.
Annie I hope you get your vitamin D.
Flutterby please do not worry about your procedure, they should offer sedation. I was worried about the colonoscopy but I realized the worst part was the prep.
I agree with you Eilyanne most of these proceedures are not as bad as we think.
* Doodle* and Joce I hope you are feeling better and the same to anyone I have missed.
This forum helps me as my anxiety is always worse Sunday night, knowing I have work tommorow.
I hope everyone has a good nights sleep.

Hello all. How is everyone?
I am still doing my chain mail for David. Poor chap I think the stuffing will pop out of his head soon if * annie* keeps squishing him ?
grandmafrench, yes we try to look after each other in the gang. To many problems of our own to want to bother getting into arguments with others.
Hope you are all ok. I am off soon for an early night. My tinnitus is playing the 1812 overture at the moment so I will try and get to sleep and hope someone sends the orchestra home ?. Sleep well all xx

Hello everyone xxx
Annie hope you get a good response about the Vitamin D tablets tomorrow.
Salsa I don't drink either but I am the size of a small house and have a very good appetite .
flutterby I am sorry you are feeling scared and worrying about an endoscopy - I have never had one but I think you can have a sedative. Try to settle yourself if you can, I know what anxiety is like.
I woke this morning at 4 a.m. and felt awful, my hands were hurting, I felt scared and I wished it was light and 6 oclock instead of 4. I got up made a piece of toast and tea and took a painkiller and then read my book. My mind settled eventually. Things picked up during the day for me and I had a little walk with my four legged friend and sat in the square along the lane and pondered life in general, the birds were singing.
Nonnie that was a lovely gesture for your son and daughter in law. Hope you are feeling stronger.
Nanny How are you, and how is Marshall is he still "recruiting" for the B&B you run!
Love to all including Grandmafrench Joce Rafichagran and the many people I have forgotten.
Have a peaceful and restful night. Hope those with pain and worries manage some sleep xxx

flutterby Had endoscopy a couple of months ago. No pain, only slight discomfort -- VERY slight!---and right outcome. Don't worry .( She says!)

Annibach I certainly hope you can manage to get out when the weather is better. Some fresh air will work wonders.

lavenderzen I was told years ago that I'd got a fatty liver - there are 2 types, one caused by excessive alcohol intake (not me) and the other by being overweight. I fall into the 2nd category, and I really should lose a lot of weight, but my BP is normal, so is blood sugar and cholesterol (I don't take any tablets for anything except depression), so I've just scoffed a Flake

Flutterby1 I wish I was a bombshell - some might say bombSITE . Just been for lunch with son no 1 and husband. The endoscopies sound awful, but apparently aren't painful - my sister-in-law has had 6 of them.

Doodle Good luck with the knitting.

Joce Glad you had a great holiday.

Nanny How are you today?

GrandmaFrench Yes, you write some lovely things on here - as does Anniebach

Rafichagran Can't your GP at least give you some effective painkillers?

One of the ladies at the sheltered housing scheme I work at has been in a lot of pain, with terrible stiffness, since December. So much so, that I have been helping her to dress, every morning. I suggested she ask her GP for a blood test. She did, and it turns out she's got Polymyalgia Rheumatica. She's been prescribed Prednisolone (steroids), and the difference in her last Friday was amazing! She's back t her usual self.

flutterby I have had several endoscopies, there is no pain,
I understand the thoughts , the whatifery x

ANNIE I am so happy about you being befriended. I think you, Fred and perhaps DAVID may well become social butterflies. That would be great. I hope your doc appt goes well. Wet,bit sunny and cold day here. Just been to cemetery to give my mum some daffodils. She like me loved them x.
JOCE I am so happy you managed your holidays maybe you can send me some courage when it comes to my time.
NANNY. Pain is hard to handle. I do hope you get some relief soon.
SALAQUEEN. How is our blonde bombshell?.
NONNIE. We are all wishing you well and we can empathise with you.
LAVERDEZEN. How are you?
DOODLE how are things with you.
GRANDMAFRENCH. You are writing some lovely post on our forum. Thank you.
ME. Well I am having some health anxiety and my thoughts are everywhere. Full of what ifs. I am bit scared. Spoke to doc last week and she mentioned endoscopy if things don’t settle. Well I am terrified. I know I can’t do that, no way I can.

Apologies if I have forgotten anyone.
Happy INTERNATIONAL WOMENS DAY xx

Hi all x

nonnie there are many, many lovely people around x

Grandmafrench I echo rafichagran and yes Fred is a mobility scooter. I have my bid for freedom all worked out,
much depends on the full results of the blood tests. If I
can’t get my muscles strong I have a backup plan.

lavenderzen I would love to join you on walks , I sometimes
look on google earth, see Snowdon and think ‘did I really climb it?’, yes and have photographs to prove it. I loved walking.

Just been sent a photo from DS & Dil. They opened the front door and found a card with a pipe cleaner heart on it and the message "Have a really good day". It was from a local child. Some lovely people around.

What a lot of positivity. Hope the MRI scan is reassuring, the sciatica improves. Love the spring flowers.

Salsa that was very brave, don't think I could make such a big change.

Annie I believe you need Vit D to process calcium so hope your bones are OK. Lack of exercise would make you more vulnerable.

Nothing good for me to say again.

Thank you, Rafichagran, glad you liked my bit of waffling!
I'm surprised you can even come close to being kindly and good-tempered on here if you still have Sciatica. It's enough to send you bonkers, isn't it. Do hope you get some proper relief from it soon. Don't worry too much about your Daughter, Lavenderzen - have the same problem with my children. Maybe it's only us oldies that are taking it seriously/seriously enough/much too seriously? I've had just about enough with thinking about all the strikes, yellow vests, demonstrations, Brexit and now.... a ghastly virus. Wonder what we've all done to be worrying non-stop about such stuff. No wonder people have health problems. How amazing that Mint Aero chocolates are prescribed for a fatty liver!!! Who knew, eh? . That's the attitude to have. If we are 100% sensible all of the time, it's a pretty dull life, isn't it? Glad Doodle that you have taken charge of little David's leg problems. The little chap needs those chain mail tights very soon otherwise he'll simply not be fit to go out with Annie and Fred. Since I'm reasonably new to this thread, I am guessing that Fred is a Scooter? If he's a pony, then I feel I have to say that you might be trying to run/trot before you can walk, Annie. I'm so cheered by your news that you are making a bid for freedom. That sun can't come fast enough and, if it is a Vitamin problem, I reckon you'll notice the difference very quickly. I did - there was a time when I found climbing the stairs too much. After a course of Vit. D via the Doc, I was soon back to normal. (We soon forget what normal feels like, don't we, that's the problem, so we accept stuff we shouldn't and sometimes a third rate life because we don't want to make a fuss, don't you think? Does sound as if the BDGang are starting to fight back. I should be in bed now, but instead am waiting for my bread to come out of the oven. Know I decided to bake far too late this evening. However, the oven pinger has just "pinged", so that's me for the land of Nod. Sleep well everyone and dream of birdsong, sunshine and an end to winter's ills.

My lovely friends x

I have to speak to the GP on Monday, I pray she will say the lack of vitamin D is causing the severe muscle weakness. I long
to get out with Fred. Surely it’s the vitamin D , I have only left
the bungalow twice in over two years and that was for x rays.

I can’t sit out the front, my next door neighbour has problems
and I don’t want to be involved.

So will be positive , have been looking at some summer clothes ,must look smart sitting on Fred.

Hello everyone xxx
I wish you could come with me on the fields Annie you could watch my little monster being so naughty. Spring is on it's way and you will be out on Fred enjoying some nice weather very soon.
Joce your flowers are lovely and glad you enjoyed your holiday.
Hope you are feeling stronger Nonnie, and Nanny hope your pain is easing.
Rafichagran hope your MRI comes through soon. I am waiting to have one, maybe we could go together and have two for one!
Salsa your new haircut will cheer you up. You are knitting Doodle you must be feeling better.
We have a lovely welcoming place here, it is a peaceful place away from the stresses everywhere Grandmafrench it has been a lifesaver for me.
I've been concerned about my daughter and this blessed virus, I spoke to her yesterday and she seemed quite oblivious to it all, however, I think everything is being taken care of where she is. There will be no visit though unfortunately.
I had a letter from the Consultant yesterday (a copy of the one sent to my GP) and apparently among other things I have a fatty liver, crikey who knew! Anyway with that information I bought some Mint Aero chocolates! I think it matters little at my age.
I hope everyone has a peaceful night and there is sleep for those in pain.
Love to all including those I have missed out xxx Take care everyone.

Save David’s legs Doole...
I am getting excited for you Annie, hope it sooner rather than later... I have had a log burner put in my conservatory so it light and warm all year round I love it, it’s like living out side in my garden to some degree..

Grandmafrench what a lovely post. I love the the posts on here. Everyone is caring.
Hope you are all as well as can be. I am looking forw
ard to when Annie goes out on Fred and let's us know how it went.
Keep knitting Doodle for the sake of David's legs

Oh hell's teeth, Annie you just needed a few more minutes and Wales would have smashed it!!!!!! Still, it's a game, it's a sport and no point in taking it too much to heart. Hope little David has survived intact, he'll possibly need some TLC himself by the end of this competition.
Hope everyone has had a reasonable day - plenty of talk of Spring and sunshine. I think there are signs that it's really happening and it's going to give everyone such a boost after a very wet, very miserable winter. All that greyness is soul-destroying. Not a surprise you're needing Vitamin D. Wonder why it's not routinely given out - a lack of sunshine really affects all of us and it seems that the Health Service in the UK is only just waking up to that fact? Suppose it's the old problem with £s again. Every Autumn I am given a couple of little glass phials full of Vit D in an orange flavoured liquid. Snap the glass container in half and put the contents with some water or drink it neat off a spoon. When I lived in Normandy, the Doc always said 'we poor Northern Europeans are starved of Vit D., which is essential to our well-being.' Surprised to still be given this in the South of France, but my Doctor now explains that some people hide from the sun in the summer season if they can - especially the elderly. So they can end up with a lack of an essential vitamin regardless. I would imagine that your taking this supplement now will make a huge difference to your mobility and muscular problems. It's so exciting that you are going to get some proper help at last to enable you to go out and catch the air, some sunbeams and a change of scene. Hope everyone is soon in better spirits if they're sad or unmotivated, unwell, distressed or in pain. Beginning to see just what a kind and caring group you are. So much nastiness in the world and why, I keep asking, is it that some people just can't limit their aggression or lack of respect, that they seem to get real joy from putting others down on a forum. What happened to debate, or even some light-hearted conversation I wonder? Do some people actually think debate means the same as a row, a fight or an argument? Long may the Black Dog Gang look like the voice of reason. Have a good evening everyone.

I am busy knitting some chain mail leggings for David. His little legs are getting squished and he needs some support.
April would be a good month to get out and about with Fred annie when the weather is a bit better. Do you have a little basket on the front where David could sit for a bit of an outing?
Hope everyone is ok. x

Sorry Annie hope David is ok x