Black Dog Gang 5

Hello everyone. Lavenderzen I'm well thank you for asking. More than a bit anxious about The Virus! I try to remember that everyone is worried or unsettled but we've all got each other and we'll get through the worst of it soon. Doctor told me yesterday that as long as we all do our bit, hand washing, not hugging, not kissing, standing well back from people (especially in a queue) and taking care of ourselves, we'll be helping to control something that we worry we can't. It's that feeling of hopelessness when we think things are beyond our control that's so awful - especially when that fear is about those that we love. We have to be strong now. How lovely, Annie, curled up on the couch with Lark Rise to Candleford. I must watch that series again, I loved it. Nasty that such good moments should be jolted hard by what sounded like bad news. But you don't know that it is and neither does your Daughter yet. Won't stop you both worrying, sadly. However, she was clearly frightened and needed to lean hard on her Mum and perhaps she just voiced her worst fears. I expect that sharing this with you made her feel a lot better and a lot stronger - ready for her appointment. She's been really brave and arranged to talk to a specialist as a matter of urgency. Facing her fears - you must be proud of her. She'll get through this and knowing you're there must make so much difference. Try to relax and think positively - at least until you are told otherwise. Hope you sleep well. Hope all of you sleep well tonight and the weather picks up very soon. Sunshine must be ordered - a large amount for everyone after a long wet winter - to shake off the greyness now. I stood outside this afternoon in the sunshine and sprayed my little lemon and orange trees in their big blue pots. They have greenfly already and when I sat down for some tea a mosquito bit my bottom through the wicker chair and my trousers ! Sometimes I wish we all had that kind of drive and determination ! Nighty night all. Sweet dreams

Good night all, hope we all have a peaceful nights sleep ?
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Hello everyone
Sorry l have not been messaging for the last while and l may be dipping in and out a bit but l do like to keep in contact. Much going on in my own life and the outer world and it has taken me over a bit.

Annie
l am really thinking of you and your beloved daughter. I often ask myself when if ever do problems stop and how much do we have to take. My prayers are with you both.

Joce
l was thinking of you on your lovely holiday and l am so glad you enjoyed it and you deserved it too. We all need to have joy in our life.

Doodle
l am sorry about your husband 's health problems. Not easy for eirher of you. I do envy you not knowing about anticipatory anxiety and that is the way it should be. I unfortunately have it; badly at the moment. For information purposes only it is when you are afraid of and dwell on future events and when at it's worst it can paralyze you. My best weapon in the battle is distraction but just at the moment that is not working.

Take care and talk soon.
Dawn xx

Morning Dawn I am really bad at the moment.. some one said to me the other day.. if we think of the past we get depressed, if we think of the future we get anxiety.. so true in my case anyway. I don’t cope very well Dawn. Take care. Fingers crossed for our friend x

joce I have no idea if you are religious or not but I hope you don’t mind if I quote you a prayer I say every day in the hope that it may help you.x

Do not be anxious about anything but in everything by prayer and petition with thanksgiving present your requests to God and the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Salsa that sounds positive. What do you do with your dumplings, lid on or off? I leave the lid off and they become crunchy, others prefer them soggy.

Lavender, Joce & Dawn lot to be anxious about if you are a worrier with generalised anxiety. I can't imagine how hard that must be.

I get very anxious that another thing is going to come out of the blue and hit me as I seem to have had far more catastrophes than any one I know. I realise that sounds as if I am making a fuss but I had 2 brothers die in car accidents, I have been very ill several times and had far too many operations and they have all been for very different reasons. Current issues are beyond anything so sometimes I go through a lot of 'why me' and on good days I think about how well I have coped with it all. Don't seem to be many of the latter lately.

Doodle I do seem to turn to our lord more than not.. if I am honest I do question my beliefs a lot as well.. but thank you for your quote lovely.
Nonnie bless you yes we al have our crosses to bear, they say the lord only gives us as much as we carry. This is maybe why I sometimes question my faith..
I like many on hear have had my lode to bear from a young age, much sadness over my years .. I will never give up hope.
You will keep coping because we do... I am one to talk I find it very hard to do, but I still keep going on and on..

My thoughts are with our friend Annie and her daughter today, i hope all has gone well for her dear daughter...

Hi all x
Younger daughter saw consultant, cervix fine, said for daughter
to have ultrasound next Friday, daughter said she didn’t want to wait another week so had the ultrasound this afternoon, should hear results early next week.
She was convinced her sister was with her and so felt reassured, they were very close.

annie glad your daughter saw the consultant and had the scan. Hopefully the results will be good.
joce another thing I have read is that many of faith have doubts but God knows this and at moments when we feel furthest from him is when he is closest to USA

Annie glad the results from the consultant are positive, fingers crossed now for the scan results xx

Doodle yes I have read that my self.. still sometimes thinks are sent to try us don’t you think...
Annie how are you feeling tonight a little easier I hope..
hope every one else is have a peaceful evening.. ?

joce sometimes it seems like that doesn’t it. All I know is that the only help I’m going to get comes from God and even if I’m angry with him sometimes he’s the only one I can turn to and my only hope.

Thank you all x

If I may share my thoughts on faith, and life’s lot ?

God doesn’t give us pain, or suffering , life does as it does to
everyone.

Why me ? .only one answer, why not you ? , if not you who do you want it to be ?

When tragedy and or illness hits us we fear it coming again,
then we don’t think of the joy , love , happiness we have had
in our lives, these too can come again.

Annie I am so pleased to hear your daughter received some good news from the consultant. Next wait for scan results will be anxious for her and you so once again fingers x and prayers. It was great that she managed to get the ultrasound quickly. Hope you are feeling a little bit better this evening.
There seems to be a few of us having problems and the virus is also a concern. Times just seem to be taking an unfortunate turn at the moment. It’s hard to feel positive.
The last post from Annie says it all so again thank you Annie.
Sending and hoping for some for all you lovely people (and me if allowed).
Xx

So very very pleased for you Annie and your Daughter's mind must be less full of what ifs this evening. Fingers and toes all crossed for the scan results and some positive words from the Consultant. Your last post was lovely. Acceptance is often a difficult emotion to deal with but it does give us all perspective and some serenity when we're troubled or sad. Hold on to the happy times and the joy...that should be our mantra, especially as we're all facing such unsettled and worrying times at present. To you all - sleep well, relax and put the worries on one side just for a while? We want to wake up stronger to face what tomorrow might offer.

Annie so true we should remember love joy and happiness, lives has so many good things. I have had so many things in life to be thankful for so at least for to night I will be grateful for them... thank you Annie xx
Good night all wishing you all a peaceful one ?

We all have problems and definitely there is much anxiety in
the air , in the country , so unsettling .

Right my lovely friends, let’s try this ? At bedtime think what
was nice today, don’t mean a a day full of joy, but something you saw or heard even if just for a few minutes , then share it
here the following day. Yes ? X

Thank you Annie for your words. They do help.
Sleep well everyone xx

Thank you Annie for your support and l really hope that all will be well for your daughter.

Joce thank you so much for your understanding words. I did really appreciate that yesterday. Struggling myself a fair bit at the moment so l understand what it is like. Take care as best you can as l will.

Way different times ahead for all of us in uncertain times ahead and so we must really hope for the best.

Morning all,
Well Annie I told my granddaughter I loved her to the moon and back yesterday after she give me a lovely hug and kiss.
She told me she loved me to Disney and back that’s a lot of love... made my heart sing ? she will be 4 in May...

Dawn hope you have a peaceful calm weekend..
dam these horrible feelings we will beat them... ?

Joce yes, I've been told that too and know that with physical pain we lose consciousness when it is too much to bear. Have you read Depression the Curse of the Strong? Does it mean that those of us who try harder suffer the most? Wish I knew why some have to suffer enough for a small village and others sail through life.

Yes, I find it easy to think of the good things in my life and there are many but it doesn't stop me from being haunted by the bad. I most certainly count my blessings which should outweigh the rest but somehow don't.

annie good to hear your daughter's news but you will still have a very worrying weekend.

Had a lovely video call from the younger GC this morning, seem to be getting them a lot more this week. Suspect DSs are worrying about the oldies, another one is coming round when he comes home tomorrow to bring us some immunity boosting stuff. Think we might be advised (told) to stay home and look after ourselves.

Nonnie is it may be because we try harder we suffer more because of the trying, if that makes sense.. no not heard of the curse of the strong. No it doesn’t stop you being haunted by your past, but that is what it is the past and should stay in the past. I do think this is where I struggle, my daughter is always telling me mum leave it where it belongs. If only it was that easy I know she is right I have a good life now with my own little family, there is still all the what ifs from the past and the future. THAT is where they belong...that is where we should be able to leave it. ( Says me ) x

Thanks Joce unfortunately it is the present which is my major issue. I understand about your daughter's advice which is well meaning but we cannot stop the thoughts that come into our mind whether helpful or the opposite.

I'm struggling today to motivate myself to do anything so have put on a huge pan of veg soup as something I can do which doesn't require a brain. Just went round the kitchen looking for anything I could throw in! We will be well stocked if we have to isolate.