Black Dog Gang 5

gossamer sorry to hear about your husband’s stroke. It must be very difficult to communicate when he cannot respond. Your daughter sounds a lovely person I hope she can help you with your anxiety. Life is very stressful for so many at the moment. Anxiety is a horrid feeling and sometimes thoughts seem to take over and rule our lives. Is there anything you have tried before which helped? Hope you sleep tonight and wake more positive tomorrow.

annie I forgot to say I have magpies too. Sometimes they land on my balcony and sit there looking at me through the window. I wonder what they think ?

Gossamer, I'm so sorry to hear about your husband. Sending love and hugs.

I just cannot sleep. I've just looked outside and several houses with lights on and someone walking their dog. It feels so unreal.

Sending love and hugs to you all xxx ?

Good morning all xx

Hope everyone is as well as can be expected.
Gossamer sorry to read your post regarding your husband, it must be very hard for you both xx

Trying to stay positive here and for all of us.
The sun is shining and it's a beautiful day. The lambs are running around the field, the farmer only puts twins and triplets in the field opposite, but there is a lot of them this year pestering their mums no end, who soon puts them in their place!

Take care everyone, love to all xx

Gossamerbeynon, don’t know if this will help.. I came off antidepressants after near on 20 years, I am in no way recommending any one should to this with out there GP recommends it.. you must do it right...
I take CBD oil.. it is not for every one, I find it helps me, I sleep better, which is a big thing for me, most of the time feel better albeit not every day.. have took it for about 6 months.. for now I will continue to do so while works for me.
Take care
Hope all are doing ok this morning.. hugs to every one ?

Joce345 Wed 25-Mar-20 14:14:29. Me too, I think of all the people much worse off than me, even those I don't know as most of the people I know are not in my situation. People suffering on the news gets to me. I sometimes think I have too much empathy.

Gossamerbeynon1945 Wed 25-Mar-20 19:05:50 sorry about your husband, that must be so difficult to cope with. DH didn't accept his mother's death until 13 years after when his father died. He cried then for his mother. Some things are just so hard to accept.

Anniebach Wed 25-Mar-20 22:18:14 My DSs still find it hard to speak about their loss to us but I think they speak to their wives.

My positives - I think about all those less fortunate than me at this terrible time. We have family to shop and video call lots. This morning I had a text from my neighbour who is going shopping and asked for a list. She then texted again and asked if we had emergency wine and chocolate . We have a balcony so in this fine weather can talk to neighbours a few doors down and we are all being positive.

I even have sympathy for politicians because they face an impossible situation. In fact I have sympathy for everyone except those flouting the government advice. I seem to have been able to put my own problems on the back burner because of the bigger picture.

I hope you all find some positivity today but know how hard that can be at times.

Hi all x

So much anxiety throughout the country, we can keep posting
here speaking of our anxiety, depression, worries .

My positive is rather odd ! I cut my finger nails .

Big deal ? Yes ? three fingers on both hands are bent into the
palms of my hands, forefinger and thumb on both hands only
for use, I wish I could have taken a video to share with you , only description to sum it up - I am a contortionist.

Medication is a difficult decision, if it eases your depression/
anxiety give it thought . Thankfully Valium is no longer the
answer .

When I go to bed at night i listening to an audio book , it helps
ease those anxious thoughts when settling to sleep

Hugs to all x

This too will pass .

Thank you all for the lovely messages. I try to stay neutral regarding my husband. He is very stubborn and on the day of his stroke I found out something else he had been up to and I think I spent the next year absolutely stunned. Couldn't feel anything and could not cry.

I have not tried CBD oil, but I used to buy it from a farm in Devon, for my lovely dog Sonny, who had to be pts a few months ago. He was a Belgian Griffon. I think I have some CBD oil left and perhaps I should try it. At the moment I am taking Kalms Day, which seem to help a bit.

Anyway, enough about me. I hope you are all hanging on in
there. Better news today about antibodies and testing and numbers have gone down today - I hope and pray it continues.

I send all my love to you very kind and gentle people.

gossamer not surprising things are difficult for you. Looking after someone who has perhaps let you down must be really hard. Sorry you lost your dog too. You must miss him. Our pets mean so much to us. Hope you can keep your spirits up.

annie I’ve always thought you were a woman of ingenuity. How did you cut those nails? Well done you.

I have joined our online library and they have a number of audio books so I am trying one out. I must admit I enjoy being read to. My reader is Martin Jarvis who has a lovely voice. My first book was one I had read before and enjoyed but the reader was an American woman with a loud brash voice and I couldn’t cope with that so I returned it and got another. (Actually can’t remember if I’ve told you that before on a previous post or not ?)
I am sitting in the sunshine (indoors) watching the world go by. Not a lot happening really but I love watching the birds. We are lucky to have some red kites locally and often see them almost floating on the air currents. Beautiful.
Take care all. x

Doodle it took about an hour, put one hand between your
knees, - knees bent , then move the hand around until you spot a finger nail , put a support on the hand holding the scissors, best do it when listening to an audio book ?

Martin Jarvis is fantastic reading books

Doodle my little dog was so lovely and I really miss him. We also have a black cat who just turned up one day. He is a lovely cat but will insist on bringing in live mice and leaving them for whoever to deal with, so I bought a falconry bell and put it on his collar. He doesn't mind it at all and at least it gives the birds and other little creatures fair warning

I haven't done much today, just the usual cooking and cleaning.

I have a Kindle and downloaded "Grownups" by Marion Keyes.

Not sure about it really, but perhaps I need to read more.

Love to all and stay safe and well

annie watched Joanna Lumley in Haiti a few days ago and she was proud that she could still cut her toenails. I looked up her age and she is 73. So if someone who apparently has no health issues is proud of that then anyone with your issues should be extra proud. Keep it up.

Doodle I could listen to Martin Jarvis read the telephone directory! I seem to still be reading the same amount as before and am on a mission to reduce my bookcases to a manageable level so only reading ones I don't think I want to keep.

GossamerBeynon your lovely pseudonym transported me back to my classroom in Portcawl where our english teacher played us the record (yes an LP, it was a long time ago!) of Under Milk Wood. I have read, heard and seen many times since but Richard Burton's lovely dark chocolate voice is the best of all! I am sorry for your present (and past) problems and for all on this thread including myself I suppose who suffer. I rarely post but I read and I get such an uplift - especially from Annie She is a wonderful inspiration.

Hi eilyann. Yes Under Milk Wood, I played Polly Garter and
Mrs Dai Bread two . Lovely to see you x

Doodle my little dog was so lovely and I really miss him. We also have a black cat who just turned up one day. He is a lovely cat but will insist on bringing in live mice and leaving them for whoever to deal with, so I bought a falconry bell and put it on his collar. He doesn't mind it at all and at least it gives the birds and other little creatures fair warning

I haven't done much today, just the usual cooking and cleaning.

I have a Kindle and downloaded "Grownups" by Marion Keyes.

Not sure about it really, but perhaps I need to read more.

Love to all and stay safe and well

Annie reminds me of an oak tree. Sways when she must and then stands firm, however battered she gets.

I love Under Milk Wood and Richard Burton's gorgeous voice. I love Dylan Thomas "Rage, rage at the dying of the light" is one of my favourite lines.

Annie I am very impressed that you played Polly Garter - one of my favourite characters.

Eilyann I remember Porthcawl so well. I live about 15 miles away. When we were children we used to stand on the prom waiting for the waves to hit us on stormy day. Very silly thing to do but we loved it.

Yes Gossemer

‘Do not go gentle into that good night’ ,

I was thrilled when at a poetry group meeting a guest speaker
said this poem was a tribute to the Welsh spirit ???????

sorry friends , couldn’t resist it

I agree Annie it does not get much better than Dylan - beautiful words.

I loved watching "Keeping Faith" purely for the scenery (although I do like Eve Miles)

Good night all. Have a peaceful evening and a night of sleep free from worry and pain xx

Reading the Poetry Pharmacy this caused me to think of the
Black Dog Gang

‘ I wish I could show you,
When you are lonely or in darkness,
The Astonishing Light
Of your own being’

Doesn't get much better than Burton reading Dylan. Good night all nos da.

Saw beautiful wild primroses yesterday. Palest yellow cream in colour; wild and perfectly formed and just there. Lovely to see them sprout out and they cheer you up no end. They are always a woodland flower

Look out for the primroses if you happen to get outside. The beauty of nature can be a consolation in these days of uncertainty where we have had to adapt to speedy change. .

Sleep well tonight.
Dawn xx

Night all sleep well ? ?

Morning all not very good this morning, woke up around 6.30 had a panic attack. So scary...
well better now, does anyone else have them I have only had about 5.. lot of tears this morning I am going to stop complaining now..
need to think positive now. Another nice sunny day for most of us let’s enjoy it..
hope everyone has a save peaceful day...

Oh Joce I'm so sorry you had a panic attack and felt frightened. It is so hard. Everything just gets too much at times. Take some deep breaths and try to get things under control. Now you are up and feeling better, go out into your lovely garden and sit down, close your eyes, and think of your lovely holiday in Florida. Just remember we are here for you and sending love and support to you xx

Thank you lavender you are so kind I am just sat having a cup of tea just trying to relax.. thank you for reminding me I will look at my photos..