I've had anxiety for years, but I have been pretty good the last few except when it comes to health scares, when it goes insane and I am convinced whatever it is, is terminal. It gets so bad I cannot sit still, eat or sleep. Truly torture.
Mum died recently and I've been amazed how well I've done, but now both my daughters have things going on. One is being investigated and though she tells me all the 'nasty' tests are clear, they don't know what it is and she is waiting for an appointment with another department now. Poor thing has one thing after another with her health and wellbeing.
Second daughter has had all sorts of business with her reproductive system as many of us do. She too has had all the tests going, including two cervical biopsies and internals etc. and they are happy nothing bad is going on. Now she is bleeding after sex though - she thinks she now has a senstive cervix perhaps after all the investigations. Also waiting for yet another appointment to find out what is going on.
Meanwhile, I sit here convinced I am going to lose both of them, because awful things have been missed. I am so anxious I can't think what to do with myself. I know fears and thoughts are not facts, but the anxiety tells me I already know the worst.
I know no one can fly over and diagnose my girls, but the waiting is torture. Just wanted to check in with any other anxiety sufferers and commiserate or whatever.
I just really want some peace. For everything to be 'ok' just for a little while.
Thanks for listening.
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