Please give them a try. I'm a mental health nurse (shielding atm) and sometimes people do improve without medication but antidepressants really can help. You have to give them time to work - it's not like taking paracetamol for instance but I'm sure this has been explained to you. There is no shame in taking them if that is what is worrying you? Feel free to send me a pm if you would like to talk x
34 year old assisted euthanasia