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That was a kind and helpful post Ali. Hope you are doing ok.
Allsorts like Annie I wonder if you are grieving. It doesn’t mean someone close to you has died. Grieving a loss can be in many forms. My dear SIL grieved for my brother when he had to go into a care home with dementia.
We can all tell ourselves to get over something but it isn’t easy. Perhaps you have some estrangement in your life.
Time usually brings some lessening of pain but the sadness is hard to cope with.
Ellie Anne no one ‘moans’ on this thread. This is the one place you’re allowed to say how you feel.
Sometimes it’s difficult to get the energy to do anything.
Annie thank your for the ? . Hope you have a good day.
We are waiting for the GP to phone DH to see if he can get some help. He had a bad night last night and was up walking for ages.
Take care all.

Ellie Ann you are not moaning you are sharing, I offered a suggestion because you are troubled about the painting x

I had a discussion this morning with my carer, I am still sleeping on the sofa, have been doing so for a year , now I must
change this, I don’t have to consider anyone else, I can do what
I choose to do. I will not have a carer to get me to my bedroom
at 7.30 in the evening, my carer understood, said I was very independent, I agree, because I have had to be since my husband died in 1976.

I so feel for you, I am very lonely but my home is my home , I
can only imagine what it’s like for you my love x

It’s hard to explain. Sorry I come across as a moan.

Hi all x

Allsorts no one can help all which is why here we share and support each other.
So many worked hard to help that little boy they must have felt
such despair to have reached him but couldn’t save his life.

May I ask ? Are you grieving ?

Ellie Ann your husband is willing to do the painting but will need to have breaks because of back problems? Would it not be better to have the painting done slowly than not being done ?

It’s great some are still walking even though the weather is miserable, good for you ???????

How is everyone?

I wish I could help all of us. At times for me it just seems insurmountable and I drag myself out of bed, paint a smile on and just get through. Times like that are so hard. I have a loss I can’t come to terms with and know I never will but should. I guess I can never give up on some things.
For those with health problems that understandably get you down it’s been particularly hard getting help, getting face to face with a counsellor nigh on impossible, hopefully things are now turning a corner for you, I hope so.
How I wish I had a tough shell.
Wishing you all a good day today.

Sweetpeasue, I hope that the doctors can help you with your symptoms. I had a Marena coil fitted and it really helped to reduce and manage endometriosis symptoms, so it might be worth a try for your adenomyosis. I had mine replaced at intervals until the menopause had passed for a year.

Good luck.

Sweetpeasue I hope you get the treatment that helps resolve your problems.
Sorry you and your son missed out on a visit from your grandchildren. It must be difficult making the arrangement work all the time. Hope you all get to see them next weekend.
Annie you made me laugh with your tales of David. I’m sure he was supporting you in your disappointment with the match.
Sadly my hat is grey not purple. I would have liked a purple one. Purple is DHs favourite colour.
Is your juice a nutritional one made for people who cannot tolerate much? Hope it doesn’t upset you.
labazs sorry for the shortened name from me too.
Sounds as though things are tough for you. Sleeping only 3 hours a night is not enough to have the energy you need to get through the day. When you’re feeling down everything seems to be too much of an effort. If your house is in a mess it sometimes seems to big a chore to tackle. I don’t know what the new business is but it sounds as though you need to house things needed for your partners work and that is causing a problem. Could you have a shed in the garden or rent a storage locker for a while so some things could be stored elsewhere.
You’ve mentioned a few positives in your post, Try thinking about them and perhaps tackle the tidying up one bit at a time.
sweetpeasue you can post on here about how you feel.
It is hard when children suffer. But I believe God was with the boy, not causing him to die but being with him. I also find it very hard when children suffer.
Allsorts like you, all my worries centre round family. They are what is important for so many people.
Ellie Anne we once lived in a bungalow that was in such a state it needed so much sone to it. We had to tackle things a bit at a time,
When you are feeling low things pile up until you are overwhelmed. That’s a little how you sound at the moment.
Your friend has upset you too which adds to the problem.
Wish I could offer words of comfort but just hope that things improve for you. Sometimes things seem better after a day or two when you’ve had a chance to mull things over.
Do you have a favourite TV programme or something to read that will take your mind off it for a while. So sorry you feel so down.
Scaredycat did you go out today? It was really cold here. We didn’t go out for a walk but went to visit our DGD and it was really cold getting in the car.
I hope all have a rest from anxiety tonight and some peace.

HVDY- hope you were able to have lunch and walk with your son. It will do you all good.
Annie- oh I do feel for you being awake at that hour it really is one of the loneliest places to be. I hope you eventually managed to get some sleep. I expect you had the roundabout of thoughts whizzing round in your head. If only we knew the secret to turning it off.
Oh dear juice doesn’t sound very much for you hope it’s fortified with lots of vitamins etc.
I,m sure David enjoyed your singing - he’s an old friend.
Labaz- No wonder you are so tired with so little sleep - it’s hard to think clearly when you are so fatigued.
You have done well with the stall and the weight loss and its great that your daughter has recovered well.
I,m sorry you suffer with PTSD you have a lot to deal with.
Sweatpeasue- I know what you mean about wishing to be back how you used to but perhaps the coil could really help you. I had a hysterectomy a long while ago and it wasn’t bad at all and really helped with my problems.
I do hope that as this day has gone on you feel less troubled.
Allsorts - overthinking is something many of us deal with isn’t it. Hope you get some peace of mind.
EllieAnne- sorry you feel so upset but maybe if you started a bit of painting yourself in the house like you used to it might take your mind off things . Your husband can always sit in another place while you are working.
I,m sure your family all have very busy lives and sometimes just don’t have the time to get in touch.
Take care all the gangxx

labadsiss hope you don’t mind me shortening your name.

Welcome to Black Dog which is for support, understanding and support for mental health problems, depression, anxiety,
phobias, OCD etc.

You have PTSD and Borderline Personality Disorder ? Are you
having support from a mental health team ?

So many people struggling. Labaz I am upset About my house too. So much needing done painting etc which I always used do but now he is in all the time I can’t. He would do it but it would take forever as he would have to stop for breaks meals and if his back hurt.and we would never agree on colour etc. so it’s a mess.
I felt upset at church this morning. No particular reason but was holding back tears so was glad of the mask. And am upset this afternoon about something a friend has done. Know I am overreacting as usual but am upset anyway. It’s too wild and wet to go out here . Haven’t heard from any of my family and feeling so low.

Allsorts It's just so wrong isn't it? I don't seem to be able to let it go. I'm angry at a God that can let it happen. I just hope he went into an unconscious type of sleep.
Oh Annie I do hope you get better soon. Thinking of you and wishing you well. ?

I cried at what that little boy went through and can’t understand why the innocent have to suffer, yet the rotters thrive, when we are depressed it is magnified many times. Anne you are right, the night makes it all worse, we start overthinking everything. I can’t think of anything I worried about, but it will have been family, I can cope with the rest.

Sorry about last message.

I don't know yet what I'll be having done. I don't want a coil either. I just want to be back to how I was. Just had runs again. So many on here need help I just feel so low this morning. Shouldn't be posting. Don't understand why that poor little boy down the well had to die. Where was God.! Feel angry and upset at same time. I'm just so tired of this life. Sorry.

I should be happy my new yarn stall is going well, lost 3 pounds at the slimming club last week, my daughter getting better after the bad covid attack, think that I and my partner are getting over the bad patch we were in having but I am so down.
Still sleeping 3 hours a night really struggling to cope in the day, my PTSD is really bad especially when i do eventually sleep, my borderline personality disorder is making me stress about things extra bad, though I should be grateful my partner started a new business because of covid finishing our last I am fed up of the mess it makes in the house and the way it's taken over our life. I cannot talk about it as it ends up in rows and it is really getting me down. I hate my house and the state of it my partner is supposed to clear his late mum's house too but it's taken over 6 months and he is nowhere near finishing. The social services want it sold so his fathers care can be funded but he just ignores the emails. not my responsibility but it affects me and also it means more stuff in my house

Hi all x

Joyce so sorry to learn you are struggling, we are here for you
you will get through this dark time, hold onto the fact that you
have done so and will do so again x

HVDY A call companion , so needed , I was involved with two talk lines for some years, you learn so much about people ,
am sure you will have some very enjoyable chats x

scaredycat I am sure David wishes he had been left on top of
wardrobe, not sure thought which he finds more hard to bear,
Wales getting hammered or my rendition of Myfanwy. x

Sweetpeasue hope the coil will be the solution to your health
troubles x

Doodle walking ? How are your muscles now ? is your bobble
hat purple or red ? x

Night time can be a very lonely time my lovely friends, I was still awake until 4.00am this morning, felt I was the only person on earth , horrible feeling.

My diet ? back to where the problems started , this time I have
a juice not thick creamy stuff though, and yes rice cakes for
breakfast.

How is everyone?

I froze the cottage pie, we had the Moussaka last night, and we'll have the fish pie tomorrow. Wondering what to do today - we'd hoped to see the GC (obviously my son, their dad was looking forward to it) but they're now not coming. He's very low today because of that, so I might suggest a pub lunch later and a walk around a country park (there are several nearby) to get some fresh air.

Hope everyone has a good day.

Sweetpeasue I hope the coil, when you have it, works well for you. I had one fitted, at the insistence of the hospital, years ago, but had it removed after a week or so. Mine was for horribly heavy periods that lasted 3 weeks at a time. I begged them to do a hysterectomy but they wouldn't. I was 59 1/2 when my periods eventually stopped

That sounds terrible Doodle
I think my consultant has suggested a coil that releases progestogen might help before resorting to Hysterectomy. Thankyou for your concern. X

Sweetpeasue just looked up that condition and it sounds really painful. This may be a personal question, so please feel free not to answer, do you think a hysterectomy would help you? I only ask because I had terrible problems with urine retention before I had mine. I had to have my op as urgent as I couldn’t pass urine for several hours a day (nearly drove me mad) the op made such a difference. I do hope you have something that helps soon.

Joce sorry times are difficult for you. Thinking of you in my prayers.
HVDY what a wonderful thing for you to do. I’m sure that whoever you speak to in Call Companions will be grateful to hear from you. I’m sure it will be a benefit to them .
I love moussaka. Any leftovers ?
Sweetpeasue thank you for your kind thoughts. I haven’t heard of adenomyosis (will look it up) but it sounds painful, Hope you get that GP appointment.
I never have pleasant dreams. They are not always nightmares but I’m always in some kind of difficulty or tying hard to get somewhere and everything is against me.. I would be happy not to dream at all if I could.
Scaredycat yes it was very cold today but we were lucky. Soon after we got home the wind picked up quite a lot and we had heavy rain. Good we weren’t out in it. Hope you got on ok. I have a lovely bobble hat from M&S that I wear when it’s windy, keeps my ears warm ?
Have a peaceful night all. x

HVDY- glad your counselling has come through and I,hope you have somebody who will help you deal with your worries.
Being a Call Companion sounds interesting , so many people are lonely and a phone chat can really help them to feel that someone cares. I think you will make a very good Companion as you sound like a very caring person and one who will listen with interest.
I like the sound of your cooking day- wish we had all those nice meals lined up.
Annie- that is a wonderful quotation and what a lovely world it would be if everyone followed that advice.
Glad you are getting more nourishment so hopefully you will start to feel a bit stronger soon.
You and David must have felt a bit cheesed off this afternoon - DH wasn’t too happy either!!
Joce- sorry you are struggling and hope things get better soon.
Sweetpeasue- yes nightime always magnifies our worries and fears and often a nightmare stays with you,the next day doesn’t it. I hope you have a more peaceful sleep,tonight.
AF is,scary at times although I try not to let it frighten me and just carry on most times.
Having pain as you do must be very wearying- Take care.
Doodle- hope you had a good walk it was freezing wasn’t it I had my hood up all the way as It felt like my head was going numb!!
Love to all the gangx

Hi everyone
Annie So hope you're managing with the extra calories. Also that it isn't just a doubling up of rice cakes which you must be getting sick of!
A beautiful quote from John Wesley, thankyou. A tall order at times but nevertheless one to aspire to.
The great game, on as I type. Ouch Annie. ?
HVDY Really pleased about your counselling. Sounds like you've had a busy baking day. Do you freeze all these lovely meals? Extremely windy and cold here too.
Scaredycat Hope you're OK and the A.F. isn't too troublesome. Have had probs with uneven heart rhythm and can feel alarming at times.
Doodle It's so dark, cold and windy here. Hope you managed your walk in the sunshine and also that your husband and yourself manage to have a reasonably restful night.
Shinamae and Joce345
Hello. Sincere wishes that you have a better time soon. ?

Been having the usual low pain with Adenomyosis and letting me know it's not going to disappear miraculously. Try to get Dr's appt next week.
Nightmare last night about scan and medical stuff but it will niggle away till sorted I know.
Night times are the very worst for our fears. We always feel completely alone then don't we?
Thinking of everyone.

Doodle Thanks. Call Companions ring housebound/lonely/elderly people, at certain times, for a chat. It will do me good, and, I hope, will benefit someone else too - I like to talk but am a good listener as well.

Anniebach I hope you're getting on alright. Glad you've got David there. x

It's bitterly cold out (I was out this morning) so I'm cooking - I've made a fish pie, a Moussaka, and a cottage pie. Hope everyone is doing ok

Annie my thoughts and prayers go out to you was thinking of you Friday sorry I’m late but really struggling..
Hope everyone has a good weekend...

Annie glad to see you eating more. Hope this time you stomach accepts the food without causing you problems.
That is a lovely quote.
Hope David is ready for action and some cheering. ?
HVDY hope the results of your scan are ok when they come through.
Good news about your counselling session. Face to face should be better. Try and say how you’re feeling. It’s difficult to let others in on our personal thoughts.
Are Call Companions people who speak to others on the phone and provide some company and someone to chat to?
Beautifully sunny day here although I bet it’s cold outside. Going for a walk later so will need to wrap up well.
Have a good day all