Black Dog 12

SweetpeaSue No, the counselling won't alter the state of the NHS. It will allow you to talk about your fears, anger, mistrust. I'm sorry you're in pain again. I hope you get to see the doctor tomorrow.

Anniebach Nice of you to say I'm bonnie (Obese is the word) and yes, I'll aim to lose a stone, to begin with. What are you managing to eat? The wait for a Physio is bad. Something should be happening to help you. Have you got a Social Worker or anyone who could try to speed things up?

It's very warm outside (just been sitting in the garden). I now wonder if I've got Conjunctivitis (Had it before) so I'll get some eye drops tomorrow.

Oh AnmieI'm so sorry about your wait for the Physio. It's so not fair, you must be so low, there alone on your sofa. I am so angry for you. What on earth is happening? You have every reason to be unhappy. Sending love and prayers. ?

Hi all x

HVDY new rule added to Black Dog, no one must feel or
speak of ‘shame’, you will lose weight, think what you have battled with, so you are bonnie let’s think of losing a stone
yes ? x

Ellie Anne belated but sent with love,Happy Birthday x

VioletSky yes, finding positives is good, what gives you pleasure? x

Scaredycat I find when it’s very hot the discomfort causes some anxiety, just a feeling not thoughts, wait for it - don’t
take long walks x

Doodle so relieved your husband has started to feel better, a
strong minded man, how are you? x

Sweetpeasue you are to have counselling, hope it helps you x

Friends I am finding it very difficult to eat food, still not able to
use wheelchair, seems there is a waiting list for a home visit by
physiotherapist. I am not depressed but am unhappy, it will
pass

How is everyone?

So, at sons this morning, were all going to a park. Felt pain coming on, took paracetamol without telling anyone. Within a few minutes awful pain, thought was going to pass out. Sat in kitchen away from children. Had to come away. Taken 2 lots or Oramorph. Pain never been as severe like this. Will try to get Dr tomorrow morning as we'd already intended. I was going to take 11 Yr old granddaughter to shops, just 2 of us on Tuesday. Just locally. Not sure if wise now. So scared, this isn't right. Please don't mind me sharing this. Everyone low enough with own problems. It will become too much to be here on BD if I continue to get worse. I don't know what to do but I will let you all know, I don't want to bring everyone down. Layed here trying to think things through.
HVDY Counselling will be F2F. They can't fix the NHS though can they? I'll be OK. Just wanted to know not alone. Hope everyone is OK.

Doodle I'm glad you and your husband are feeling better.

SweetpeaSue Good news about the counsellor. Will it be done over the 'phone or face to face?

Anniebach How are you today? Do you watch the commonwealth games on tv?

VioletSky It's a good idea to think of daily achievements/goals. I ought to try that.

ScaredyCat How are you?

I've been very lazy today. My eyes are very sore and incredibly itchy. It's perhaps because I cuddled the boy a bit too closely earlier . I hope everyone on BD has been having a decent day x

VioletSky Distractions are helpful I think - whatever you enjoy or absorbs your mind away from worries or anxieties. Hope you have a decent day.

Sorry you lost a long post

I need to be much more mindful of things while I feel this way I think amd just keep myself to positive things until it passes

Oh I can't believe it! Spent over half n hr posting and it's all disappeared again. So sorry everyone but I just can't do much now. Had a nice day and 2 glasses of wine with family so I blame that for me pressing wrong place on my phone.
But a v Happy Birthday to EllieAnne ???
So sorry its not been good for you. It happens a lot as we get older. My husband is NOT romantic. We never really make much fuss of it now but I'm sorry it's not been a nice day. You could have had a glass of wine with me. I'd have toasted your birthday.

VioletSky Hello. I'm so sorry you've been suffering so much. I hope HVDYs tip helps and you can remember your medication. The NHS is struggling and so many patients are fighting to be treated. I really do hope you can get a Dr to listen to you soon. You must feel all over the place at present and so tired. What a beautiful username you have.

I had so much to say but have splitting headache now(own fault) Very mixed day. Phone call yesterday to say I have finally an appt with counsellor! There's so much I need to say.
Doodle Relieved your husband has already started to feel better. Hope you do too very soon.

Have a peaceful night everyone. X

Violetsky you are suffering enough. You don’t need to punish yourself. You aren’t feeling well. Taking your medication might make you feel better. I hope your DD will remind you.
Oh good idea HVDY . Put the tablets somewhere you might see them and be reminded.
DH has to take 16 different medications every day. He is very regimented in doing it as if he forgets it could have serious consequences . I’m a bit more hit and Miss with mine but I do have a dosette box as I keep forgetting whether I’ve taken them or not and it’s a good way to check.
Annie I’m ok thanks. Still coughing but I feel fine now. I’m pleased to say the infusion seems to have helped DH considerably and he is feeling much better today,
How are you?
Violetsky despite being many years post hysterectomy I still suffer from hot flushes. I have a small desk fan that sits permanently on the table next to my chair and as soon as I start to feel warm I turn it on. You’ve had a busy day today. You deserve a rest tonight.
HVDY DH and I did (and are about to start again) the 5:2 diet where you eat normally for 5 days but drastically cut down for 2 days a week. Last time we did it the results were good. It means you don’t have to miss out on things you like just cut down a lot on two days but don’t overdo it on the others.
I had a friend who dieted with slimming world and did really well.
Scaredycat I bet you can’t wait to see your son. I hope you have a wonderful time. Yes DH is very calm. To be honest he’s had so many health problems since his 40s he takes most things in his stride.
I think you might get your wish Ellie Anne it’s due to be warm next week.
Oh happy birthday to you ?. How lovely you got to see your sons and their families. I’m sorry about your DD upsetting you. Is she struggling with her MH at the moment? Shame she couldn’t be nice on your birthday.
I hope you had a nice time with your sons. At least they came to see you. I wish we could all cheer you up.
I’m sure you’re not ugly just feeling bad about yourself. I was pretty once when I was about 5 years old. It’s all been downhill since then. I have a really miserable face (which is why I try to smile all the time) .
Like Violetsky says, could you treat yourself to something nice. New hairstyle or blouse or soemthing?
Sleep well all x
Little hug ? for anyone who needs one.

Hello all. Been a quiet day today. Not going out as DH has Covid so washing and ironing have been targeted.
HVDY my DGS has social anxiety too. Not nice is it.
You obviously put on a brave front if people don’t realise you struggle. Late menopause isn’t fun is it.
Your meal sounds nice. Tiramisu is DHs favorite.
Sweetpeasue thank you. DH isn’t feeling too bad. The infusion seems to have helped his breathing and his cough is better today.
Oh I’m so sorry about your mum. What a shock to lose her like that so quickly. She was quite young too.
What a nice thing to say to HVDY I agree with you ?
So pleased you had such a nice time with your son and his family. Must have been lovely to see your DGD. You must miss them being so far away.
Hope you have a nice relaxing evening this evening with happy memories of your nice day yesterday.
Violetsky you are always welcome here. We all know the feelings you describe. Just join in as and when you feel like it.
I mentioned the other day that when I had Covid recently I felt very emotional and teary. I think that was due to feeling I’ll so not surprised coming off your medication would have an impact on you.

Counting my achievements today

Deep cleaned both bathrooms
Remembered my tablets
Face masks with my daughters

EllieAnne Happy birthday . It's nice that you saw your son and his family, at least. Sorry you feel low. At least people on FB wished you a happy birthday. I'm sure you aren't ugly. When we're feeling low, we do tend to dwell on our insecurities. I think we ought to post photos of ourselves on here one day, so that we can all put a face to the name.

It's been warm here today - good for drying washing. I don't like the heat so haven't been out. I'll go somewhere tomorrow though. Hope everyone on BD has a restful evening and night x

Ellie Anne

Happy Birthday!

I demand that you treat yourself to something frivolous you would never normally buy yourself and enjoy it.

Well I would welcome a heat wave. It’s quite chilly here. We have had two hot days this summer.
I’ve had family here today. Son 1 and family this morning and son 2 and family this afternoon.
It’s my birthday .
Daughter sent a text and phoned but was very grumpy and I was upset.
Dh wished me happy birthday yesterday by mistake but no card or present. Some happy birthday messages on fb but I preferred when people sent cards.
The whole day has left me very low.
Trying to pretend I’m ok and enjoying it all when family are here is such a strain.
Hvdy I also hate how I look. I’m a bit overweight but not too much but I think I’m ugly. ?

SweetPeaSue- how wonderful to have your family all together for a week and get to know your GD all over again. It must make you feel very contented to see all the children playing well together- a week for making memories.I,ll keep my fingers crossed too that tomorrow you have a happy and pain free day by the sea. My visit to my son is getting nearer now - It’s been nearly 3:years since I,ve seen him.He is going to get the biggest hug ever!
VioletSky- good to hear from you again but so sorry you feel so unsettled right now- as you say not working at the moment allows your brain to click into overdrive. Hopefully it will help you sort your head out if you sit and feel the care and concern you will find here. I think lots of meds work best taken as regular as possible. I would get in a right old muddle without my phone alarm reminding me at various times of the day. Hope the kettle idea works well for you.
Hope you soon start to feel a bit brighter.
Doodle- I didn’t know either that your DH has blood cancer -
he has a lot to contend with. You must have felt very relieved
that he received the infusion so quickly. It always sounds as if he is quite a calm and unflustered sort of person. I do hope he’s well soon.
HVDY- glad you enjoyed what sounded like a delicious meal- I
love to hear when you,ve had something nice . Oh it would
have been so difficult to stand up in front of other people to talk about weight etc- I had a vision of having to stand up and say “ my name is—and I love eating cakes”!
It might be good to try Slimming World- one of my GD did it and it was very good for her and I don’t think she ever felt hungry.
Annie- hope we don’t have another heatwave- when we are out walking I keep hopping from one bit of shade to another! It’s not good for me to walk in the very warm sun.
Everywhere where we live is getting so dry and crispy. Our village Green is now a Yellow?
Hope you,re not too warm and that the blinds are working well now.
Joce,EllieAnne and all take care and hope you sleep wellxxx

Anniebach Yes, I'm really overweight. I've put on 2st since last year when I was ill, but I was already too fat. I'm about 6st overweight! My husband is perhaps a feeder . I don't feel bad when I go to aqua aerobics as most of the ladies there are either as fat, or fatter, than I am. Today, I've had_

2 Weetabix, an apple
2 cream crackers with peanut butter
He gave me a packet of Jaffa Cakes, and I scoffed the lot
2 cream crackers with cheese
a large salad with a small tin of tuna
a Cornetto

I'm ashamed.

HVDY the talking group seems to work as A.A. meetings work, it can help certain eating problems like comfort heating
just as some are alcoholics because they are self medicating with alcohol.

With respect, your husband needs to support you to cut back
on biscuits and cakes, are you really overweight my love or have you just gone up two sizes ? I am not going to ask you to
list all you have eaten in every post you write ?.

Anniebach I signed up for a weight loss programme with NHS, went for the initial meeting, filled in the forms, got weighed - the weekly meetings were going to be at a local community centre. I heard it involved a group of people sitting around in a circle, talking about why they're overweight etc. I didn't go - the thought of talking in front of a group was too much. I know what to eat and what to cut out. My husband doesn't help - he comes in with biscuits and cakes and encourages me to eat them! I really need to go to Slimming World or somewhere. I've got a lot of commonsense and don't suffer fools gladly, which is why people assume I'm confident. I'm pretty knowledgeable about medical/health things. How are you getting on? x

HVDY I have been keeping them on my bedside table, it's only just occurred to me how silly that is as I don't look at it very often but I look at the kettle at least once an hour lol

Thanks Annie

Please not another heat wave, they make the hot flushes so unbearable

Hi all x

Welcome VioletSky do sit with us , we are here for you x
Share if you wish to , you will be heard and always supported ,
talking can help , I understand a little of your emotional pain
and now know you have physical health problems too. Be kind
to yourself my love , sending a hug x

HVDY yes you do seem very confident, you find your confidence in the written word and when you are working as
a supporter ? Your weight ? anyone who judges a person’s weight certainly wouldn’t make a friend. Do you comfort eat ?
you certainly do much cooking and baking, for me it’s always been the very opposite, I am much too thin, are you having
help from a dieting group ? x

Doodle how is your husband? and how are you after Covid x

Scaredycat we are suppose to be having a heatwave next week, one positive of the hot summer ? I haven’t been saying
‘Keep walking ‘ x

Joyce sending hugs x

How is everyone?

I have my tablets (3 in the morning, 2 at night) in a dosette box, which I keep on the kitchen worktop. My antidepressant makes me drowsy and I take it at 10ish. I'm usually sufficiently dopey by 11

Yes I take it at 7pm as its meant to take a few hours to kick in

Putting it by the kettle is a genius idea I would never have thought of and I'm going to go do that right now.

As well as the iron tablets as I been aneamic for months now

You need to be in a routine. If not an alarm to remind you about your tablets, then perhaps put them where you'll see them - next to the kettle or somewhere like that.

Missing your Amitriptyline will make a difference to how you're feeling. Do you take it at night? It can cause drowsiness, so it might help to make you sleep

I take amitryptiline for fibromyalgia so I only take 20mg and missing it definitely has an impact.

No anti depressents for a few years now as most of the time I've been able to keep my head above water

I have an alarm set but I just don't do it. I think I'm punishing myself. I get stuck in a spiral where I think I deserve bad things

I might ask my autistic daughter to remind me... if she adds something to her routine, it generally gets done

VioletSky Are you on antidepressants at all? Stopping the thyroid tablets might be making you feel "off", so perhaps you should talk to your GP. Not taking your regular medication, not eating or sleeping properly, will all affect you. Set a reminder on your mobile about your medication, and try to eat little and often.