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nadateturbe I'm so glad you're feeling better. The weather's just right for being away at your caravan. Have a lovely time. I've apologised many times to my Son1. He says no apology was necessary, and he reckons I've been a great mum. Like you, I have such good relationships with my boys.

Eldest GD has been messaging me, said her mum wants to know if she and GD2 will be staying here Monday night. The crafty cow (mum I mean). As we've now only got 1 single bed, it really isn't feasible for them to stay. I suspect the mum wants to go out drinking that night.

Thanks nadateturbe . Hair done, nails polished, family phoned, packing done, ironing put away. Now I’m exhausted. 🤣 I spend a lot of time looking after DH too but I don’t begrudge it. He looks after me too in different ways. Hope your DH enjoys his caravan break. He must be pleased you are joining him.
Like you, I can’t swim. Wish I’d learnt when I was younger.
Glad the antibiotics are helping. Hope you feel better soon.
Wyllow I think we are all concerned about you. I have a feeling that the period where your family was visiting has come and gone and worry that you weren’t able to meet up with them. Like others I wonder if you’ve been in touch with your sister. We are all rooting for you so take care x
Ellie Anne I’m relieved to hear that nothing has happened recently to make you feel you’ve messed up. Please accept the fact we all feel the same. I know I have done so. Things I deeply regret that I wish I’d never done. I think that’s life and we all make mistakes. We are only human. We misunderstand things, other misunderstand us. One part of prayers is that apart from forgiving others we need to forgive ourselves too.
Hope the weekend is not one that drags out for you. thanks for your good wishes.
Oh HVDY you did make me laugh. Glamorous is not a word anyone would associate with me. Chubby, dumpy, short, aged,
Wobbly on my feet and dowdy would be more like it. 🤣
When my DGDs came to stay we dispensed with beds and put duvets on the lounge floor and pillows. Our spare bedroom got too hot with both of them in there. We left them in the lounge and went off to bed ourselves. They had a bit of TV time then at bedtime TV off and sleep. No complaints.

Off to be door early night.
Thinking of you all on BD. Sleep well xx

I couldn't cope with meeting more than DS last week. Ashamed and its happened before in very bad times.
I can't get out and stuff or self care.

Still following your days with caring thoughts xx

HVDY Crafty lady, difficult to refuse your GC. I must admit, I loved when my MiL had the children for a night. I had 3 by the time I was 24. Good idea from Doodle. My daughters friends used to just bring sleeping bags for the floor. (Not that much sleeping was done!)
Doodle I feel guilty now and again that my husband does so much, but as you say, we know they don't really mind, just as we don't.
Good advice, we are all human and humans make mistakes.

Wyllow3 Sweetpeasue what have you done today? How are you?

Goodnight everyone else. Sleep well.x

Doodle in case you aren't on later, I hope you have a wonderful time with your husband and come home feeling refreshed. xx

We tried the music festival. So hot! Didn't stay long. I don't mind a concert if it's someone I really like like Cohen or James Taylor, but local groups playing very noisily, not my thing.
We are lying in the bedroom reading- the only cool room in the caravan. Much too hot really to be doing anything.
Hope you are all relaxing.
Wyllow3 Sweetpeasue how are you both?

Doodle Hope you and your husband have a relaxing holiday.

nadateturbe You had your children young. I was almost 25 when 2nd son was born. Nobody ever had mine overnight, nor did we ever have a babysitter. Both sons used to have their mates kipping on the floor, when they were in their teens and early 20s, but my GDs are 12 and 8, I wouldn't want them sleeping on the floor (it's laminate not even carpet). I'd probably like the kind of music they were playing at the festival. I like metal, rock and punk music.

Wyllow3 You got to see your son, at least. I bet he told you to look after yourself a bit. I hope you're managing to eat something.

*SweetpeaSue and other BDers - how are you all today?

It's very warm here, too. We went to a garden centre - not for gardening stuff and had lunch there, then a quick drink in a beer garden on the way back. Bought some multi-aperture photo frames, so I'll take all the single frames to a charity shop. Love to all x

I get your point HVDY about the floor. Maybe invest in an inflatable. My daughter at grammar school used to squeeze 4 or 5 friends into her bedroom.
I much prefer multiframes too.
We have very opposite tastes in music. Even when I was a teenager I much preferred people like Simon and Garfunkel. I hate noise too. I once left a Cher concert after two songs.
When my children were young we lived in a,street with their grandparents and 2 aunt and uncle families and cousins. Wonderful memories.

Wyllow3 sorry, just noticed your post. You've nothing to be ashamed of. You managed to see your son. That was good. I feel awful that I have no idea of what you're going through. Are you eating, showering? Are you speaking with a counsellor? Is there a Quaker friend who you can speak to. Can you get into the garden. Thank you for posting. I appreciate you may not answer. But I am thinking of you, and praying you get some strength. xx

HVDY- you,ve had a nice day- yes it’s warm today isn’t it and I believe next week is going to get very warm.
I had a walk and coffee with DD and DGD while DH was at Golf- I so love being with them and will never take for granted that they now live so close.
Hope Baby is doing well - it’s tomorrow when you have her and the DGD isn’t it.
Doodle- I hope you both have a lovely break - you so deserve it.
We used to do the floor duvets when there were lots of GC to sleep. They all wanted to be on the floor instead of beds !! They called it being in a nest!
Bon Voyage xx
Wyllow- you have no need to be ashamed- you managed to see your son he needed to see you I think. Like others I am worried you are not able to eat or enjoy a shower or bath.
Would it be possible for any of your Quaker friends to help you?
Please try to eat something- have you been able to speak to your sister?
Thinking of you and wishing I had the right words to help you.
Nadateturbe- you were a young Mum too!! I also had 3 children by age 24 . Such lovely years when my youngest son was still alive.It must have been wonderful to all live in the same street - great times and memories for all the children.
Glad you were able to get to the festival - pity about the music though. Hope you feel a bit cooler now.
SweetPeaSue,Whiff,EllieAnne,Candy and all I haven’t mentioned wishing you a peaceful nightxx

Scaredycat it was an idyllic childhood. I'm so sorry to hear you lost your son. We almost lost our youngest age 16, after a car accident, he wasn't expected to make it through the night. I remember how we felt, so I understand a little.
It's lovely to have some family close. It must bring you much happiness.
Not my type of music at the festival, but an achievement for me to get there, which was good. Slept afterwards!

Hello to all BDs. Hope you are OK.

Just a quick visit for me. Off to dinner in a minute.
Wyllow you can’t help how you’re feeling. I’m sure your son understands. Glad you got to see him.
nadateturbe thank you for your kind wishes. Sorry the festival wasn’t much to your taste. It can be quite hot in a caravan. I remember that from when we had one. Hope you enjoy your weekend though.
HVDY yes I see what you mean. Laminate flooring is not as comfortable as a carpet. We didn’t leave our sons much either nor have babysitters. We weren’t close enough for family and I wouldn’t leave them with anyone else, I like rock but not punk. So probably older type rock.
Scaredycat what a nice time with your DD and DGD nice they live so close.
You had your children young too. Nice when family are close. I had that as a child but when DH and I married we had to move away for his work.
Thinking of all on BD. Take care and hugs. 💕

HVDY I used to wonder why my mum's generation liked garden centres now I love them too. I like their uncomplicated food.
Nadateturbe I loved Simon n Garfunkel. There have been replays of some of their concerts on TV. So sorry to hear about your son and the car accident. What a dreadful time for you all. Hoping your pain stays away.
Scaredycat I'm so pleased you enjoy your time with your DD and GD and they live close enough to see them. I too was a young mum.Son 1 born when 19 then miscarriage and son2 a couple of yrs later. I always thought my miscarriage would have been a daughter and was going to call Helen. I hope you can see your son who lives abroad again soon.
Doodle Hoping you are having a nice relaxing time. You both need that break. Enjoy your dinner. (Hope you get something with custard!)
Wyllow I wish I had the right words to help. Please, please dont feel ashamed about anything. You are having huge struggles. I hope you can reach out to your sister. People who love you will want to help. Even if they dont know what to say to help they would rather you talk to them, Im sure. So good you managed to see your son. Try to eat small portions if you can. We all think about you every day. Sending you gentle hugs.

Pain been bad but so far today ok. Son2 went back offshore last Friday. Had to let him down and GS (was going to have him for few hrs day before) Arranged but had pain all day so couldn't. Felt so bad about it.
Letter from Urologist telling GP he doesnt think its IC/BPS but CPP made worse from Hysterectomy!
Hope he didnt base diagnosis on that.
I dont think its IC either now as pain much stronger.
Extremely concerned for DH's pain. Something v wrong. Throughout whole body-can barely dress. So scared, think could be Fibromyalgia. Read severe stress can be cause which is me! He holds my head throughout my pain and has witnessed it daily. He can do nothing and has been severely disturbed by whole experience with Drs covering up. I've had to lean on him, it's my fault and Drs. I dont feel our lives are worth living and I dont know what to do.
We will try and see Dr tomorrow.

Candy Thankyou for your good wishes and kindness.
All BDs wishing you all a peaceful night from troubles. x

nadateturbe We gave the inflatable airbeds and pump to Son1. He used them recently when they went camping. It must have been very nice growing up with family nearby. Mum's family were in London, so we didn't get to see them very often. Dad's parents died when I was 8, and he fell out with his siblings, so that was that. Sorry about your son's accident at an early age. Has he been ok since?

ScaredyCat Nice that you saw your daughter and granddaughter. Yes, tomorrow's the day . I think we're going to go out on the bus somewhere, get some lunch out, and go to a park. That's the plan, anyway. They'll all be here by 7.30 (DH will collect the 2 girls from their mum's work)

Doodle Hope you've had a tasty dinner - and pudding.

SweetpeaSue The food was very good. They had 41 types of cake! All baked on the premises. It was hard to choose just one. Has the Urologist suggested any pain relief or treatment? Your husband needs to be seen by a GP if he's having so much pain. Son1 has Fibromyalgia, mainly in his feet and hands. He takes over-the-counter painkillers, that's all. His started when he had a breakdown (when he split with his ex and wasn't living with his girls). I hope you both have a better night.

I waited until it was cooler, then vacuumed, mopped, and polished throughout downstairs. Got so hot, I had to have another shower. Early start tomorrow. Love to all x

HVDY it was lovely having family close, not least because of all the support. Just one big extended family, all my husbands relations.
Good for you doing all that housework. I rarely polish now, I flick the feather duster over everything. Early start tomorrow. But a day to look forward to. Enjoy!

HVDY The Urologist doesn't suggest anything for pain, just suggests Pain Management. I haven't had Hysterectomy.
Husband is v bad, has pain in every joint, can hardly get in n out of bed. Calling Dr tomorrow.

Sweetpeasue I'm sorry your husband is having such pain. I'm sure you're struggling to cope. I've no idea what that pain could be. He really needs to see a doctor. I hope you manage to tomorrow.
I googled a little and thought a hysterectomy was meant to help CPP. but I know nothing really. I doubt you'll ever get to the truth. It's difficult for both of you to come to terms with that.
Don't feel bad about not being able to see your GS. It's not your fault. I'm sure your son understands.
I saw Art Garfunkel in concert twice, would love to have been at Central Park.

My son was in a coma for 10 days. He has made a good recovery considering. Works, married,
has 2 children. Although his short term memory is bad and I think he might get early dementia. But I try not to think about it. I'm thankful we have him. His wife is very capable and copes well.

Sweetpeasue Just read your last post. You haven't had a hysterectomy! How in earth have they made that mistake? Unbelievable.
I hope you both manage to sleep tonight. xx

Nadateturbe That must have been such a dreadful time for you while son was in a coma. We'd do anything to prevent our children suffering. Really glad to hear your son has made a good recovery.
I knew I shouldn't have said Id take GS the day before. I never know how long it will take for flare up of morning pain to subside. DH didn't want me to agree to it but I wanted to help.
You sleep well too. x

I rung crisis team today see psychologist tomorrow. I don't feel comfort family I don't know quakers that well to share

I've caught up with todays ups and downs from everyone and sending caring thoughts with concerns Sweetpeasue and others ending GP tomorrow xx

So glad you've done that * Wyllow3*.

Hope everything goes well with psychologist today Wyllow We all care about you. Good to call crisis, its why they are there and you need someone to get those bad feelings and thoughts out to. Hugs x

All worked up to get through receptionists but 'our' Dr wasnt on when DH phoned. Trying tomorrow. DH finding difficult to move first thing but loosening up a little now. Taken painkillers and trying to be strong for him too. Hoping you all have a decent day. Sun is shining here and hope it is for all of you.
EllieAnne Hope you're ok and you got through the weekend without too much stress.

Good morning all.
What a night, I was awake from 1.30am to 6am!
It sounds like strong inflammation Sweetpeasue. Hope you get through tomorrow.
Hope the sunshine cheers you a little.
Wyllow3 wishing you well with appointment.
Thinking of you all, hoping for a good day. And a great holiday for Doodle and OH.

Hello. It was a difficult weekend for reasons I won’t go into but it’s past now. Been a beautiful day here so sat in the garden for a bit and read a book.
Sorry so many of you are struggling.
Wyllow I hope you have had some help today.