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Wyllow that’s good news your DGd got home early isn’t it. Hope she’s ok. Must be worrying for you all.
The walk will do you good even if you don’t feel it. Did you go on your own, if so that’s amazing.
Ellie Anne you’ve done well with the TV. Nice of you to look after your DGD2. Does that mean you will have some time alone with her. That will be nice. Good your UTI is improving.
Maybe the break will do you good too. Sorry you’re so stressed. Yes it’s likely that will increase your BP. It’s really hard to calm down if you have troubles.
HVDY the service was lovely but very emotional. I did shed a few tears but my DGS held my hand and squeezed it tight. He is so caring bless him. Glad both our sons were there too. They miss their dad a lot.
Made me smile to think of Jaffa playing with his toys, does he have a toy box?
Sweetpeasue so glad you had such a good connection with your son. It’s nice to feel they understand isn’t it.
Hope you and your DH feel better soon.
Scaredycat it was very emotional but lovely too.
I didn’t know there were swan sanctuaries. I thought they just lived on the river wherever they happened to be. Windsor has so many. We have about 5 or 6 but they have more like a hundred.
Hope all have had a good ish day. I had a nice meal with DS1 and was so pleased he and DS2 and grandson all came to the service. It was lovely but I’m so tired now.

Wyllow Not at all meaning to sound patronising but I feel so proud of your efforts to go out for a walk alone. I understand you not feeling any enjoyment at the time, but you must know it's a great achievement for you and a way forward. Please keep going. It must feel such a very uphill thing. X
Doodle I had a short time when I talked to son 'alone' while looking out on the sea and others were distracted. I didn't talk of myself and DH but listened to his work days recently. I felt connected to him and his own life which I've been missing. It was good .
I do care so much about you and others here. I know there's a part in the bible that says 'He will wipe away the tears from every eye ' . That is so comforting for every person and ,I feel, not only for religious people. So many people throughout the world suffering. I just hope He will do that for yourself in time. I wish I could heal your broken heart but just to let you know I care so much.x

SweetpeaSue I hope you and your husband feel better soon. You (and I) are lucky to have a close, loving family. It makes a difference.

EllieAnne What has made you so upset? I hope you can enjoy the time with your granddaughter.

ScaredyCat I'm so pleased that your Grandcat is doing so well. She's been lucky. Bless her. One of the cats we used to have had thyroid and kidney problems (common when they're older) and lived to be about 18.

Doodle I'm glad your sons and grandson were there to comfort you and help you through the service. They're grieving, too. Jaffa hasn't got a toy box (I'll get him one). He's been asleep on a new blanket I got him. He's such a lovely boy.

Had a short walk today, just to get a bit of fresh air. Hope ALL BDers have a restful night x

I’m hoping your time with DGD2 was really nice, Ellie Anne.
And that the TV gets sorted as easily as possible to avoid high BP. Hope UTI disappears asap. I understand about keeping that front up - its a mixed blessing, isnt it x

I’m glad that Jaffa is perking up, HVDY and you got a bit of fresh air.

It was so good to read of really good family time yesterday and all the love there Sweetpeasue I hope it can carry you through bad days health wise like today.

Thats a relief Scaredycat that grand cat is back and well enough.

Doodle I didnt realise that your family would be there too. At the service. How sweet of DGS, and your sons being there.
Quite a day, you must indeed be tired.

Today was a very bad day in my head thoughts and empty heart. Feel unconnected. All I can say. I do appreciate mentions on here tho. Part of my last thing evening, coming in.
Took a massive effort but did check in that DGD OK but they were busy.

Hi all
Doodle- what a lovely,even though very sad,day to remember DH. All your boys together . Hopefully it was a sort of nice tired.
SweetPeaSue- Ah some quiet time with your Son- to be treasured.Hope you are having a more comfortable day today.
HVDY- Grandcat has a check up tomorrow. Her tail still has no feeling and sort of just hangs there at the moment. Good to hear that one of your cats lived to 18 with the same underlying conditions. Glad you both got out for a walk yesterday- a day without fresh air makes me feel restless.
Wyllow- hope DGD continues to recover well. You made the effort that’s what is Important. I,m sorry you had such a difficult day yesterday. Your thoughts and feelings of an empty heart sound so sad. You have been damaged through no fault of your own. But each effort you make is a tiny step towards mending your spirit. It must be so tiring but better days are ahead I,m sure. Did you shop today? Hope there was a treat in there somewhere!

I,ve been out to a big shopping centre today with my DD and DGD1. So good to have a day together but I am beyond tired now - how I miss the energy I used to have.Still managed to get some Christmas pressies with coffee and lunch stops. I realise how lucky it is to still be able to do something like that though.
It’s been quiet here for the last couple of weeks and for those not well or unable to post for whatever reason sending love and a wish for kinder times.

EllieAnne I hate talking to people in call centres so you've done very well. Hope the TV isn't still playing up. Meantime hoping you're having a nice time with your DGD.
Scaredycat I'm with you about missing past energy. It .just be so hard for you though with your AF. What a great photo of those swans- I've never seen so many altogether like that. They really are beautiful things. We have 2 in a small local village pond that is surrounded by trees. One year they had lots of little Cygnets . Thankyou I've have had more comfortable day today though DH is coughing and sneezing so has come down with a cold.
Doodle Ah that was so poignant at the service - your DGS by your side and offering the hand squeeze. I'm so pleased you had family there with you though it must have been extremely emotional for you all. I hope today has been kind to you and you've not been alone.
Wyllow I'm so very sorry you've been feeling so bad and that yesterday was so awful for you. I can only echo Scaredycat's words and that your efforts will help your recovery even though you feel so bleak now. It's good you managed to try communication with your son and DIL ( not sure if it was call or text but they will know you have been in touch).
You are right that love can help with bad days and I know right now for yourself you can't feel that and don't want to burden family but they will be thinking of you and care so much. Sometimes we can't find the right words to say. Just know we care.
HVDY What a good amount of money raised for the centre - and fun for those young it too. You must feel a big part of that centre now. Glad Jaffa has been enjoying sleeping on his new blanket. They do like their very own space don't they. Do hope that hip isn't hurting as bad today. You did well to go for that walk, I think it all helps , as long as you don't overdo it.
Candy Not sure if you're back home now or stoll at caravan but hope it's been nice weather for you. Your DGS is getting a lot out of his football playing . I see what you mean about taking it further though but as long as he enjoys playing , that's the main thing. I used to like watching my sons play football though as they got older there were times I used to watch between my fingers!

More comfortable today , but usual pain and stiffness. Am learning how to get out of the car , my own way, but looking / feeling like a v old lady in process.
We met up with son 2s wife yesterday and her little girl so all had a meal out together. No room inside so were sat on wooden bench n table and my, it was hard but it although it was quite dark before meal served it was amazingly still with no wind. Shame son 2 was still working.
DHs birthday tomorrow and also MH group. He wants me to go there but we'll see. He's laden with cold so not feeling up to much .

Hoping everyone has a peaceful night and thinking of all those not in and perhaps reading. Love to all.x

Sweetpeasue I know you care and that is so lovely. Your words are a comfort. I’m getting by, one day at a time.
Glad you got to have that quiet time with your son. It’s lovely to connect with them and have a chat.
Nice to meet up with your DIL. Good you have that sort of relationship. Hope your DH has a happy birthday tomorrow and that you get to your MH group,
HVDY I have a lovely image in my mind of Jaffa all snuggled up and cosy on his blanket, such a lucky cat to have found you.
Yes it was good to have family with me yesterday. They miss their dad/grandad a lot.
Wyllow if only we had an off switch for our minds. Troubling thoughts are what causes so much anxiety and worry. I’m the same. Yes it was good to have family at the service. They all wanted to come.
Scaredycat glad you enjoyed your shopping trip with your DD and DGD. It’s good to have a day out but shopping is so tiring isnt it. Hope you got some good presents and enjoyed a nice lunch. Nice to spend time together.

Wyllow3 sorry you had such a bad day yesterday. You've had a lot of heartache from your past relationship. Things can get better for you, you have to keep believing that. We're all rooting for you to get back to your old self.
ScaredyCat My little Stella was on medication for those 2 conditions. One was a cream that was rubbed into the fleshy part of her ear every day, the other was liquid syringed into her mouth daily. That was for about 3 or 4 years before she died. I hope your Grandcat gets on ok at the vet's. The tail hanging like that doesn't sound good, but they'll sort so out. You had a busy and enjoyable day out, by the sound of it.
SweetpeaSue It's good that you get on so well with your DIL and nice that you went out for a meal with her and her daughter. I hope you'll see your son very soon. Oh your poor husband, I hope he feels better soon. Not nice feeling unwell on his birthday.
Doodle I hope your day has been ok.

Day centre today, which was good. I've registered with PDSA, will be able to get a reduced rate fir future treatment for Jaffa (better late than never). Hope ALL BDers have a good sleep tonight. x

So sorry, not meaning to mislead.
It wasn't yesterday I met up with DIL but on the Saturday with Son 1. We all had a meal together.
I so hope I will be able to become closer to DIL.
xx

That was a really long family day, Scaredycat . Glad you bought some bits and bobs. Sounds like a take it easy day is called for tomorrow.
Missing past energy is very hard, isn’t it - watching others, and so on.

Glad today was a bit more of a comfortable today, Sweetpeasue. Hope DH’s cold doesnt set in. Yes the little old lady feeling when the brain says “no we aren’t”….see how you feel about the group tomorrow, don't force it. Yes I hope you can become closer with DiL ...take it slowly…..(I get on OK with my DiL, but we will never naturally understand each other)

Warm thoughts and hugs, Doodle…somehow we koko…

I’m glad you enjoyed the Day Centre HVDY. Given Jaffa might need a lot of help, it’s a great idea to register with the PDSA. I hope it isnt too far away.

Thank you all for your kind words. Yes it does make a difference.
I think it’s maybe the darkest time I’ve had MH wise….and yes it is still that past relationship is a big part of it.

Yes I did go to do the weekly shop, no treats this time. I’m very tired as I woke after 4.5 hours last night and didnt get back to sleep but I had something difficult to sort today, which I did.

Thinking of ... Nadateturbe, Whiff, Candy, 
 EllieAnne, and other BD’s coming in now and then or reading.

Night night all.

Went to MH group. It's 8 week course- last 1 next week. Don't think its helped at all but made me get out. Poor DH is 70 today but sore throat added to his other symptoms and any celebration going out is scuppered . An Art book was delivered from Amazon today from mysrlf which he liked and didn't know about .
His wheezing and breathlessness - not part of the cold- continues and it scares me no Dr taking notice. Trying to get him to go to Dr's--- again.

Hope everyone has had a reasonable day. Sorry not up to longer post .Love to
all and caring hug for those really down and lonely.x

SweetpeaSue It might be just as well it's the last MH group next week - those meetings aren't everyone's cup of tea. Is there anyone there you wold keep in touch with though? Sorry your husband has been unwell on his "big" birthday. Men are stubborn - my Son1 has had a cough and wheeziness for about 2 weeks now. We've all talked to him, and he's finally going to the GP tomorrow. I hope your husband soon feels better.

I had a busy day with LittleGirl—7.30 to 4.30 (she didn't even have a nap). New playgroup was very nice. The people were all friendly and chatty. She loved it for those two hours. Home for lunch, then walked to the shops this afternoon. DH out with Son1 this evening. Jaffa is fine - the PDSA place is 4 miles away, so that will be better than 1 branch of the vet's we've been going to (7 miles away), although the nearest is 200 yards away. I feel knackered . Hope everyone's v been ok x

HVDY you must be tired being on the go all day with Little girl. Glad she enjoyed playgroup, it shoes them good to mix with other children. Hope your son gets to see GP. There are a lot of people about with these coughs and colds now.
Sweetpeasue wishing your DH happy birthday, sorry he’s not feeling well enough to enjoy it. It’s not good this wheezing. I would try and force the GP visit. Good idea about the art book hope he enjoys it. Don’t forget to keep taking videos when you can.
Wyllow well done on the weekly shopping. I wondered if this was the worst you’d been MH wise. I have no idea how you get out of the pit, I’m trying hard to keep going but sometimes I frighten myself as to how sad I am.
Scaredycat hope you’ve had a good day and the AF not been too much of a problem,
I’ve been busy today. Cleaning this morning and then met up with old (in both senses) next door neighbour. Haven’t seen each other for years and we spent several hours reminiscing and talking about our husbands and families.
Church tomorrow and then meeting up with other grandma in the afternoon.

I was stressed with all the t v nonsense and almost broke down in front of s1 when I went over to stay so when they back from the concert on Mon he came. Over and managed to get it working. Because both sons live an hour away I don’t ask for help. Dd phoned on sun and I broke down with her too . I think I m so tired of doing every thing. When I was trying to sort it all out he just stood and watched or played on the computer. Never said thank you or well done when I got it all connected just complained when he cdnt get it working after I d explained several times
I think I’m just tired of doing everything. Organised new wills, ordered new carpet.found a decorator.
I do most of housework and shopping try to keep garden tidy and help out at son 1. And with being unwell recently it’s all got too much.
Sorry if I sound a moaning Minnie

Evening all.
Doodle- yes I did enjoy yesterday although sometimes the amount of Christmas pressies we have to buy is overwhelming!
Online shopping has made it easier .Being with my girls is worth any tiredness though.
Good for you to meet up with your old friend. You must have had a lovely chat with lots of memories.
So nice that you get on well with the other Grandma as for some it’s an uneasy relationship. Your family sound so lovely.
SweetPeaSue- oh dear getting in and out of the car I can empathise with. If my DD takes me out it’s so hard to get into a very low sporty car and I feel about 110! But you have pain too.😩
Nice to forge a friendship with your DiL and her little girl. It can take a while though.
Happy Birthday for your DH. What a shame he is full of cold and wheezing. I do hope he managed to have a decent day in spite of the germs. Did he have a cake?
Well done for sticking the course out - not an easy thing to do and not always helpful.
HVDY- Little Girl must have bundles of energy not to nap at all today.You make the days so nice for her and she is learning social skills that will make her so confident.
Glad Jaffa is doing well. PDSA will be a help for you as I guess he,ll need meds etc fairly regularly.
Hope Son1 gets on OK at Docs.
Wyllow- yep a take it easier day today- I tell myself when watching others younger that now is their turn .
You have suffered too much from the effects of your past relationship. It’s so unkind that your confidence,well being,enjoyment,enthusiasm and everything that makes you you could be so damaged by another’s actions and words. You deserve better.
But still you got out to shop even after a bad night and sorted out something difficult - 2 big achievements. You are a strong lady even though you don’t feel it.
Hope today was a better one.
EllieAnne- you have to do too much with little or no help so it’s not Moaning Minnie it’s tired and worn out Minnie.
I,m glad DD called you at weekend - hope it helped you to talk with her.
Love to all

Evening all
HVDY glad you’re getting Jaffa’s treatment a bit cheaper and it’ll be more convenient for you too thankfully. I’ve had a reminder that my 2 dogs annual jabs are due so I’ll need to make an appointment for them. It’s usually around £150 but at least they only need to go once a year. You had such a busy day with LittleGirl. She must be a bundle of energy to keep going like that no wonder you were tired. It’s hard work too when they’re so young and you have to watch them all the time.
Wyllow sorry you’re still struggling but you keep going and that must be tough. Everyone is willing you to get well again and you will I’m sure. Well done on your walk and getting your food shop. You can do it and soon you’ll do more. Hang on in there. We’re here with you.
Scaredycat glad you had a nice day out and sounds like you managed to get some presents sorted. It’s a start! Hope you have recovered today and your AF isn’t playing up. Take care of yourself.
Sweetpeasue shame your MH hasn’t been helpful but like you said, it got you out and at least you tried. You never know with these things but it’s always worth a try. Hope you and DH feel better soon and he is able to celebrate his birthday.
Doodle I’m glad you had support at the service. What a kind and caring DGS you have, that must have been a comfort to you. Glad you’ve been out today. It’s good to have a catch up. Enjoy Church and your meet up tomorrow.
Ellie Anne I can understand you getting fed up with doing everything. It’s a lot to contend with. I hope you managed to have a nice time with your DGD and it wasn’t marred too much for you. Good your DS got your TV working too.
Been a steady day for me, gym, shopping & making soup. Tired now. Love to all. Night night xx

I’m sorry that DH couldn’t enjoy his 70th, Sweetpeasue. Yes, if the breathlessness continues do gt him along to the Doc.

HVDY well done on the persuasion. Glad LittleGirl enjoyed her day. No wonder you are tired It’s great the PDSA is nearer.

Yes Doodle it IS frightening so I sort of understand (tho my situation is different. Just - mutual hugs to koko, and well done for what you did cleaning wise and chatting to neighbour.

You are not a moaning Minnie Ellie Anne. You are being taken advantage of. A situation has grown up that you dont have the energy for anymore. X

Thank you for your kind words, Scaredycat. I expect you were quite tired today after the day out and shopping.

And another thank you for your words Candy. Thats quite a busy day there too!

Today I was so tired and under the weather it was another tough dressing gown day. Ordered some bedding, Amazon stuff, it's difficult even doing that like I don’t want to. Tomorrow care worker.

Night night all BD’s present, and reading.

Doodle I was tired last night and only got up once, instead of the usual 3 times . You and your friend must have had a lot to talk about. It's good that yu get on well with the other grandma, although you strike me as being the type of person who can get on with anyone.

EllieAnne It must be very frustrating to be with someone who can't always fix things. As for you being the one to organise everything, I'm the same. I used to book holidays, airport parking, insurance, everything. Now, I arrange playgroups, meet-ups with family, car and house insurance, groceries, etc. I've bought every Xmas, birthday and Easter present for 40-odd years. I've always been better at those things. DH does the practical things of driving, keeping an eye on finances (although I'm the one who spends it), fixing things in the house. We play to our strengths. Is your husband depressed? Or has he always been indifferent?

ScaredyCat The only time she sits down is when we put Peppa Pig on YouTube for her. (never for long, we don't believe in plonking a child in front of a screen for ages. Do you enjoy shopping? Do you know what to buy for people? I hope your AF isn't so bad.

Candy6 Vets are expensive, aren't they? The one near us is reasonable, compared with others, but we've already spent £850 and can't keep doing that. Jaffa will need medication regularly, so after next Friday's check-up, we'll use PDSA. What kind of sup did you make? Have you got a fancy soup maker? I used to cook the stuff then put it in a blender.

Wyllow3 I love new bedding. What colour/pattern did you choose? I hope you have a better day, and that you get outside with your care worker.

DH is meeting his old schoolmates for breakfast (every Wed) then we're going to meet my friend from the Thursday day centre, and his wife, for coffee. Hope ALL BDers manage to have a decent day x

Ellie Anne I think it may have done you good to be upset in front of your son and daughter. Bottling it up all the time doesn’t help. Have you told your husband you’re struggling to do everything and ask him to help or will he not do anything?
You’re not moaning so don’t ever say that. You can come on here and say what you like. You’re among friends.
Scareycat so glad you had a good time with your girls. Nice to meet up. Yes very lucky with our family. Other grandma is a really nice lady we get on well.
Candy I can’t remember if you’ve told us before about your dogs so forgive me if I’ve forgotten. Who have you got and how old are they.
Our grandson is very caring he promised his grandad he would look after me and he will do his best not to let him down.
Wyllow I know you understand. As you say, reasons are different but the anxiety and loneliness affects us all.
HVDY my friend from yesterday is a very elderly lady. Still cheerful but she can hardly see and her hearing is going. She lives on her own and has difficulty walking but her memory still in tact and we had a lovely time together.
What are you up to today?
Sweetpeasue how has your DH been today? Did you persuade him to go to the GP? Did he like the art book?
I’ve been to church this morning and had a lovely chat with others after. Our for coffee with other grandma this afternoon

Hvdy I suppose I didn’t mind so much when he was working because he was away a lot
He will do housework if given specific jobs
Takes nothing to do with finances except his own car insurance
Doesn’t really have friends except 2 old navy buddies but one is in hospital long term.
Just does exactly the same things at the same time day after day.
I know what he is going to say before he says it!
Have just organised the carpet fitters 😬

Hi all
Candy- thank you .yes I had a bit of a rest yesterday. The AF progressed from having random bouts to being permanent 24/7. That’s why I get so tired.But in a strange way it’s better
than living in dread of an attack like I did before.
Been into town today but like many towns nowadays it’s changed beyond recognition. DH and I had coffee and a mince pie, got a couple more Xmas gifts and went home!!
How often do you go to the Gym? DH goes twice weekly and enjoys the company of the same people he’s known for years.
Wyllow- maybe you just needed a rest so a dressing gown day was in order. Especially if you were feeling tired and run down.
A dressing gown day now and again isn’t so bad .
Well done with the Amazon order- what a shame you don’t enjoy it. I find it a continual temptation - it’s far too easy when there’s an empty hour!! Don’t punish yourself so much ,new bedding or anything new you buy for yourself is not something that should give you grief - you deserve them . New sheets feel lovely.
Hope you have a satisfying,companiable day with your worker.
HVDY- you have a good system going with DH- a partnership that works. He# a good Dad and Grandad too isn’t he.
So agree with you about leaving children in front of the tele for hours. It’s so sad to see toddlers in pushchairs playing with tablets instead of looking and learning about the world around them.
I do enjoy shopping- just so tiring now. Yes have a good idea about what to buy - obviously to a budget with so many to buy for.
You’re right about Vets being dear. My GD little cat racked up a £2000 bill over that weekend!! She could have stayed at the Ritz for that😺
Hope you,ve enjoyed your nice sociable day.
Doodle- what a dear Grandson you have- his Grandad would be so proud of him. It’s so nice when your AC and AGC have good in laws isn’t it. Ours have been lucky too- very kind loving families.
Your friend must have enjoyed your company very much. I expect it’s become difficult for her to get out much.
Glad you enjoyed Church this morning and hope other Grandma and you had cake!!
SweetPeaSue- do hope you managed to get DH to at least talk to GP. Take care both of you.
Nadateturbe, EllieAnne,Nanny, Whiff, Allsorts, AGAA, and all who have visited lately or I,ve left out hope you are all managing OK todayx

HVDY What a full day you had with Littlegirl - no wonder you were tired. You are so good to put so much effort into occupying your little GD. They are so sweet and funny at that age - I bet she's a little delight. Hope you've had a nice time with your friend and his wife this afternoon. I think your presence at the daycentre must be so welcomed and I'm so glad you have some new friends there too.
Scaredycat You are right to listen to your body and rest when needed. I'm so sorry your AF was continuous the other day.It sounds as if you are learning to manage it the best way you can as opposed to it coming on randomly but wish it wasn't the unwelcome visitor you have to put up with. You're such a kind person to everyone. Towns ,and villages, changing so much - yes- I always think my mum or dad wouldn't recognise them now. Scary isn't it.
EllieAnne You are so not a moaning Minnie. You are doing everything in your family and it seems your DH doesn't seem aware of how it's all getting to you and taking its toll. It seems your unfair burden of running the home is now expected. Is it possible to give a few significant chores to your DH and say you need him to do such and such so he knows exactly how to help or do you think he won't listen? I'm so sorry , you're having to do it all. The weight on your shoulders is too much. You must find it very lonely but do come here - we care.
Wyllow Hope today has been better with having your carer. I know you get on better with the MH worker and hope in time you can have a good relationship with the carer too. Don't punish yourself for the dressing gown days. You have the ME/ CFS too aswell as the awful fatigue that must come with your MH illness.
Glad you got some new bedding and hope you find some comfort in that when you use it.
Doodle Your DGS sounds so lovely. You must be very proud of him and the way he cares for you and loves you. He's a very special person. I went to reading group today and 2 others in group have both lost their DHs in last few mths. I was there after session ended when they both spoke to each other with such genuine tenderness and empathy. So moving and it seems when people walk in the others shoes they have a knowledge that is so valuable and recognised in each other.
My DH still has a cold so he won't go th DRs just yet as he says the wheezing will only be put down to that. I see what he means but one expects a GP to believe you if you say you've had it months. Anyway he knows he needs to see someone so it will be next week now. Hope your afternoon with the other grandma was nice this afternoon.

The first week , this term, of my book group was OK. Better than usual as the book seems better. There was a kindness there as a member had died suddenly and we signed a card to her family. Life can be so hard. I helped the lady who'd lost her DH recently with her wheeler to her car. This lady was only one who communicated with me during my worst time after Dr's let me down and were dishonest. I feel so sorry for her - life can be so hard.
Pain started when I got home but I realise I'm lucky in other ways and have my DH - we can help each other. Heart feels heavy tonight but I know I must mix with others and not hide from life.
Hoping everyone can have a peaceful night. Xx

I realised today how lonely I am.
I went for a walk then into a coffee shop. I was the only person on my own. Felt so conspicuous so didn’t stay long.
What was nice was a group of older men sitting in a booth having a good chat and a laugh. Thought of your dh hvdy.

I’ll stick to supermarket cafes from now on. There are plenty people on their own there.
I just don’t know what to do.

HVDY chose plain bedding, I like it better. You are a great organiser, it doesn’t surprise me you did all those things in the household. I can recall when DS was little - its a relief to have a TV for just now and then for LittleGirl.

Doodle how very sweet of your grandson! Glad you went to church - it really is a good one.

Ellie Anne I can see how it happened now I know he was away a lot - you just “did everything” and it became a habit. I understand your loneliness. It is hard to know what to suggest xx

Scaredycat I recall when you were afraid - just sorry it’s taken you being tired all the time. Being with the worker today and having a walk made things a bit better, at least not alone, someone to talk to, and the exercise.

Thank you for your understanding of Sweetpeasue It sounds like you’ve managed to get DH to see your GP next week? It’s a battle not to hide, well done you for going against that feeling.

Night night all BD’s