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SweetpeaSue What a delicious and large dinner. Your son, like my two, is a good cook. I'm so glad you had a nice time with the family today. It's good that you get on with your DIL's mum. Does she live near to you?

Doodle The service sounds so lovely. I sob like mad at Silent Night, no matter who is singing it, I even cry at You are my Sunshine. Yes, you must have missed your husband being there. I'm glad you had your son and grandsons to care for you.

It's been a long day, but at least I've now got Step-grandson some presents - 14 year old boys can be tricky to buy for - an Airfix car kit, a kit for growing fruit and vegetables, and a small drone. Just the 4 adults and Step-granddaughter (also 14) to go..... Hope ALL BDers are ok x

What a lovely day to come into..Please nobody feel bad about posting positive times and thoughts so important.
Doodle could picture the candle service so vividly x
Feeling very physically poorly sick tonight so will just say a warm goodnight and see you tomorrow xx

Doodle I'm glad the service went well. I think Silent Night is such a beautiful carol and I can see why it was so very emotional. All carols are moving but that particular one , I think more so. Good that your family was there with you. It was so fortunate that your DH got to that hospice - hospital can't give that personal care . Hope you coping with today.
HVDY Yes, the dinner was indeed a feast. He told me he wanted to make it really good for his MIL too.
I really get stressed out thinking of what grandchildren and sons and wives would like to be given. You must be relieved to get some gifts sorted. I need to ask son to give me some clues before he goes away next week! DiLs mum lives 6 .mls from us .
Wyllow Oh I'm really sorry your feeling poorly. Hope you're feeling a bit better this morning but sounds like you might have picked up a virus or such. Hope it's not going to be lasting. Do call GP if you're poorly . Sending a hug and wishes for you to get better.

Dentist this morning. Need a crown on root canal filling done last year. It's all turning out to be complicated as my own Dentist retired. Long story!
Seeing DGS after school today. Very low but need to keep contact as much as I'm able and I love him so much. Have some books for him and food treat.
Hoping everyone is OK and wishes for better times for those struggling. X

Hi all
HVDY- mince pies were lovely but I,m afraid we gave the switch on a miss as it had rained all day,was dark and miserable and the Green all muddy and churned up after the morning Farmers Market. The best laid plans eh!!
Good idea to wrap as you go along - will try that next year. Clever choices for step GS pressies - you ,re on the home stretch now not many to go.
Hope you,ve had a nice day today.
SweetPeaSue- what a lovely day it turned out for you both yesterday. Your Son had really worked hard- what a fabulous meal. Glad your little people were a hit- how could they not be. Thank you we enjoyed our family time - and played some board games with GGC- like you we were so tired when we got home. It was nice your DiL Mum could come and she must have been glad of the lift home.
Enjoy GS time- they grow up so quickly.
Wyllow- so sorry you don’t feel so good- I hope you are feelin* better today. Being sick is horrible and exhausting. Yes call the Doc if you get worse.
Hugs from me too.
Doodle- The memorial service will always be a beautiful memory for you even though it was tinged with much sadness. I like to think your DH was right beside you in the candlelight. I,m glad you had some lovely hugs from your Son &GS.
Your DH was very well loved.
Thank you for the kind words and they were very wise words for Wyllow.
As I,ve said previously the light up was more of a wash out! It was so wet we even went to DD in the car and it’s less that 10 minutes walk away. We passed the tree and the choir ( not the church one) were there in their little Xmas hats all alone. 😩
When we went home the tree was lit and looked very pretty- but wet!!!!!
Nadateturbe,Candy, EllieAnne, Nanny, Whiff and everyone who passes this way sending love

Scaredycat Aww, your Christmas lights turn on' was drowned out. It's been like that all day here -just dark and wet. I could just imagine the choir members stood there all alone! Hope they got some mince pies somewhere too.
Apparently my step granddaughter had lined up all the little figures on the table and had been playing with them.😊 Made all the expletives while trying to knit the worth it!
Nice time with DGS after school ,he starred to read one of the books straight away. He didn't stop as long and wanted to go back after his dinner as little SGD was still here at son and wife's. Hadn't realised, so we took a little dessert back for her and DGS when we dropped him off.
Wyllow* Hoping you're not still unwell. Sending you hugs .x

HVDY they sound thoughtful gifts I bet your step son will love them. Yes I was pleased our son and grandson came to the service. Our granddaughters are both at university so couldn’t come and our other son had a prior engagement. Just found out today that my friend who came with me to the service and dinner after also came home and cried. It was very emotional.
Oh Willow sorry you’re not feeling well. I hope you’re ok. Not nice being ill when there’s no one there to help you.
Sending a gentle hug xx
Sweetpeasuegood you got to spend time with your DGS. Hope your trip to the dentist was ok. I have to go tomorrow, my filling fell out yesterday. 😱
Scaredycat I’ve told my friend not to get me any mince pies this year. It’s silly really but DH really loved them and I can’t bring myself to eat them now he’s not here to enjoy them. Same with steak. One is a different matter though. That was our evening treat together and I still say a toast to him like we always used to.
What a shame the light up was a wash out, so sorry for all those who get involved in things like that and then the weather spoils it.
I’ve been busy today. Went to neighbours for coffee then home, shower, hair wash and do nails. (I hasten to add I had already washed before I went to my neighbours.
Done accounts, vacuumed the hall carpet and the bedrooms. Did a bit of crochet and knitting.
Church tomorrow. It’s a day earlier than usual as we have a Christmas tree festival.
Have a good evening all. Xx

Wyllow3 Sorry you felt unwell, hope you're feeling a bit better today and that you haven't picked up a virus.

SweetpeaSue Glad you had a nice time with your GS. Does he like any books in particular? I remember buying our sons a Ladybird book every week when they were little. We used to go to the library, too (do children still borrow books?) How old is your SGD? It sounds as though she loves the little knitted figures.

ScaredyCat The rain has spoiled a lot of events. It's supposedly going to get very cold over the next day or 2, as well.

Doodle That sounds like a busy day. Did you paint your nails?

I didn't go to the day centre today - I didn't fancy it. Looked in a few shops for boots (including Clarks) but they're either too clumpy, too high, or have buckles on. Had dinner at Son2's this evening - he made 2 different types of curries, with naans and samosas. LittleGirl enjoyed it, too. We stayed and played with her, left after she'd had a bath. Hope ALL BDers have a cosy night x

Evening all, just caught up again after a a fairly long absence. I have been busier than usual with catch ups with friends, preparing for Christmas and busy with DGS’s football schedule. DD has been very busy at work so we’ve helped out more than usual. Her DH’s work isn’t very flexible so that means there is more for us to do. We love GS to bits but it’s both time consuming and tiring.
Wyllow sorry to hear you are physically unwell. It’s so unfair when you have so much to cope with. I hope you are feeling better soon.
Doodle The service you attended sounded beautiful but I can imagine it was very emotional for you. It was nice though that you had the support of your family. Sometimes in life Christmas is a time to be endured rather than enjoyed. I’ve had some difficult ones but it comes and it goes. I really hope it won’t be too difficult for you.
Sweetpeasue the meal your DS cooked sounds amazing. He must be very good and I’m glad you were up to going. My DS cooks too. Early days for him but he has a go. He’s helping me with Christmas lunch (for 10) this year.
Ellie Anne I’m sorry life is still difficult for you. You are so good to cook for your DH, I hope he appreciates it. Hope you have been ok today.
Scaredycat shame your village lights switch on was a wash out. People put so much work into these things it’s sad when the weather spoils the, I’ll bet the tree looks lovely all lit up though. I do like to see the decorations brightening things up on these cold, dark winter evenings.
HVDY your dinner at your DS’s sounds lovely too. I like curries, especially when someone else makes them! Are you looking after LittleGirl this week?
Nadaterturbe sending love and hope you are ok.

Love to all not personally mentioned. Night all. Take care xx

Thanks Candy but today’s not been too good.
I’m dreading Christmas and don’t feel I’ve any reason for living.

It sounds like you’ll have to go to the dentist a few times, Sweetpeasue. I’m so glad you are making the effort to see DGS and it was a nice time tho you weren’t sure before. Hey, great your step granddaughter is playing with the figures!

Sorry you missed the switch on, Scaredycat. Aw, poor little choir in the wet…..nice to catch all the twinkles on the way home on the tree.

I can really understand how you just cant bear some of the associations Doodle (am the same in my own way) but good for you for the glass of wine and the evening toast. You’ve done a lot today! I hope the church event goes well tomorrow , I expect there will be some small children there.
Memories are truly a mixed blessing.

Your boot search is really turning out to be a trial, HVDY Hoping it turns something up in the end! What a lovely meal Son2 cooked and play with LittleGirl.

Really good to see you in Candy. that really was a busy time.x

Feel the same most of the time EllieAnne we could do with those walks...just sending a hug.

Today tum was a bit better get heartburn and constipated and shoud actually ring sis really. Had to ring GP and hassle thme today for meds, sorted in the end after I made a fuss, and I did the weekly shop. Still avoiding Christmas

Hi all
SweetPeaSue- Ah SGD obviously loved the little people as much as we all did. Isn’t it nice that your DGS loves reading ,my GGS is like that too. He absolutely loves soaking up facts and history and geography- he says that he and I have a lot in common- he,s 9!!!!?
Doodle- what a lovely friend to care so much for you and your family. Some friends are just an extension of family aren’t they.
Glad you still enjoy your evening treat- DH would approve of that. It’s a shame about the mince pies - you could eat them for him but I totally understand how you feel.
That was a busy Monday - now I hope you are enjoying what sounds like a lovely event at Church.
HVDY- I think children do still enjoy libraries . When I was little it was my favourite place. When I went home the other week the tiny library we used was still there- many memories.
Your boot search is turning into a bit of a mission- is it cosy ones or smart ones you are looking for?
I love it that your Son cooks too- what a lovely thing to enjoy with them all. Little Girl is growing up in a special family.
Candy- yes it’s amazing how tiring small people can be. You have been busy but sounds like mostly nice things.
Our village tree does look pretty now after the deluge! It’s lovely seeing into peoples houses when the Xmas lights are on isn’t it- like when we were little.
Wow 10 for Xmas lunch- another lovely Son who cooks. I hope your MiL is doing OK now.
EllieAnne- I feel like you really should go and have a word with your GP. It’s so sad to feel as you do . There are so many reasons to love bit you are so unhappy it’s not possible for you to believe that. Please take care.
Wyllow- glad there’s some improvement in the tum dept. Yes your Sis might have some helpful advice for you and just for you to have a chat with her would be nice.
Why some GP surgery’s have to make it so difficult sometimes- it shouldn’t be a fight to ask for help.
Big effort for the shop this week- Sainsbury’s has a huge selection don’t they.
Yes Christmas i s hard to avoid but you have made a start with your cards. Hope you can have a few treats that won’t upset your tum. Please be a bit kinder to yourself - we care greatly
for you.
Love to all

EllieAnne- I meant live but!!

Candy6 You do a lot. Looking after grandchildren is tiring, we find that. Do you have much time to sit and do nothing? We've had Little Girl since 7.30, and she'll be picked up at about 5 (she's having a nap at the moment).

EllieAnne I think many of us have felt there's nothing to live for, but there is - your family and friends, for a start. Please at least think about antidepressants. I wouldn't be able to function without them.

Wyllow3 I'm Glad you managed to get your meds sorted out. Everything seems to be a hassle now with doctors, etc., and it shouldn't be. I hope you ring your sister soon and have a chat. Christmas is a lot of stress, all for what is really one or two days. You did well to do your shopping. Did you get yourself anything nice to eat or drink?

It's been cold but sunny. Went to a playgroup for 2 hours, then back home for lunch and a play, then a country park for a couple of hours. LittleGirl had a toddle around then fell asleep on the way home (still asleep, thankfully, so DH & I are having a cuppa. Hope all other BDers are ok x

ScaredyCat I saw a pair I like in Sainsbury's - a small heel, plain black leather, knee-length, but they didn't have my size! I want some I can wear with dresses occasionally. How nice to hear that your GGS likes geography and history. It's good that children learn about other places in the world and events that have happened (particularly WW2 etc)

HVDY no haven’t done nails yet I forgot. Been to dentist today then spent an hour or two shopping but didn’t buy anything. Everything is so expensive. I haven’t been shopping for a while.
HelloCandy nice to be involved in your grandsons football. Yes I can understand how it may be tiring and take up time. Stick with it if you can. It doesn’t last long and before you know it he’ll be taking himself.
Oh Ellie Anne I wish I could do something to cheer you up. I hate it that you’re so miserable. Do you know what you’re doing for Christmas?
Willow the tree festival starts this coming weekend. Lots of people are helping and we have a rota. I’m on over the weekend but can’t do the Friday as I have something else on. It’s usually really lovely. We have over 70 largish trees.
Have you tried the Movicol for your constipation? It’s quite good for that sort of thing. There are meds for heartburn too are you on any?
Scaredycat it wasn’t a celibate decision to avoid eating things DH enjoyed more the fact that I can’t face it. Yes he would certainly approve of me having the wine. He’d probably suggest I drank more, 🤣
Your village tree sounds lovely. I love a village setting for Christmas. Always imagine it to have lit houses round the village green. A smattering of snow in the ground and lots of smiling people.
Sweetpeasue how have you been today. Do you do Christmas baking?
I’ve got to get ready to go out tonight. Not really looking forward to it but give it my best go.

Another lovely Scaredycat post today. Like the descriptions f all the houses with lit up windows like little theatres.

That was a lovely day for you and LittleGirl HVDY, active, and not suprised she dropped off.
Can you order the boots online from Sainsburys?

I hope the dentist gave you a clean bill of health Doodle I just really hope that tonight goes OK for you.

Dressing gown day hard to get through some days whats the point just given up having to make an effort, but tho tum not hurting today I have to take drastic tum "getting things moving" tomorrow, chickened out of ringing sis.
yes I do need to get it together to try Movicol as current stuff not working well enough and it builds up. That means a day in again, carer is Thursday this week. Still can't face Christmas. Not good. It's like I cant care too much, it hurts too much.

Hugs for those not in today, never forgotten.
Night night BD's

Hi all.
HVDY- what you said to Candy. I think it’s important for everyone to have time to ‘stand and stare’ as the poem says.
That’s a long day with your dear little girl- you make her days o full of nice things. Bet that cuppa went down well while she crashed out. As Wyllow said perhaps you could get your boots online from Sainsbury’s .
I agree children need to know about other cultures and places .
Also events that shaped the world. It’s Vikings for DGGS at the moment and they played a huge part in our history.
Doodle- I understood you couldn’t face DHs treats yet- glad though that you can enjoy a tipple - or 2!!
We have houses all round our Green - both big and small and mostly quite old. I love the sound of a tree festival- what does it entail?
Finished the Xmas shopping today - now for the mammoth task of wrapping😩.
Hope you were got on OK last night.
Wyllow- I echo Doodles words- Movicol for getting things on the go. Walnuts are good too and Kiwi fruit.
Doesn’t matter about chickening out your Sis phone call- maybe you could ring at the weekend if she’s not working. It’s not always easy to pick up the phone I know.
I,m so sorry you hurt so bad- sometimes it is the price we pay for loving. But not everyone is like your ex- there are a lot of kind generous understanding people out there. Just like you.
When you think about Christmas it is only a couple of days - have you spoken to your carer about it? If it’s possible on the day to speak with your family and maybe find some programmes you enjoy on TV it will pass.if your tum cooperates maybe have a couple of treats that you used to enjoy at Christmas. Sorry if I,ve waffled a bit I so want to help you.

It’s WI Xmas meeting tonight - the drama group do something daft for us and we have a few goodies and a drink . They are a nice group of ladies and look out for each other.
SweetPeaSue,Nadateturbe, Candy, EllieAnne, and all who come here or just read wishing you all a peaceful night

Doodle How did you go shopping for 2 hours without buying anything? Unsure about what to get? I don't like going into shop, get most things online. Hope your night last night was ok and that you've had a good day today.

Wyllow3 I might look at getting boots online. Good idea. Hope your day has been better. Treat yourself to something you like.

Scaredycat It was a lovely but long day with LittleGirl yesterday, so we've had a quiet day today, ready for a day with her tomorrow. Hope you have a very nice evening later.

How has everyone else been today? x

Doodle Your feet don't touch the ground! Hope you managed to get back home for some sleep last night. How did your church event go today? Apart from knitting your shawl (blues n purples) wondering what the crotchet item is. I used to do Christmas cakes ( last Yr did one for sisters too) but just can't be bothered this year.
Candy Oh you really have been very busy. You'll want to go back to work for a rest! Oh my ,10 for Christmas dinner. You must have a huge table. My sis often did dinner for lots of family and it usually involved a lot of furniture being moved to make room for a large throng.
Will you be doing turkey?
Scaredycat The village you live in sounds so lovely with the interesting village green surrounded by houses. Wish I'd finished my Christmas shopping . Oh its going to be a lot of wrapping for you. I used to kneel on the floor to wrap-- no longer.
So funny the way your DGS told you 'we have a lot in common'. He sounds an old soul. My DGS is 9 too.
HVDY You will have needed your quiet day today. Will Littlegirl come early tomorrow? The books my DGS likes are the Horrid Henry ones and Horrible Historys-- there were some about a cat that I don't remember now. He's growing so quickly -- you'll notice that in your own grandchildren too. Hope your DH is still managing with the new contraption ( Sorry, can't even remember what it was called- my memory is terrible lately).
EllieAnne I'm so sorry you're so low. I know things like Christmas holidays can make things worse somehow. Please don't rule out seeking help from your GP if you get too depressed. Sending a hug.
Wyllow A hug for you too.x I'm sure your Dr sis will be only too pleased for you to ask advice about your tum. It must be so painful and uncomfortable at times. I don't know what I'd do without the movicol. I feel quite sick at times when my guts turn to granite. It's just knowing how much to take and when but I've found it helps. Not being able to get out and about will be worse for you too, which isn't your fault . So many physical problems with MH illness. Hope you have a better day with carer tomorrow. Such nice words to you from Scaredycat.

Hope I've managed to catch up properly.
In a despairing place with DH.
Saw GP yesterday. He's given him a different inhaler ( longer lasting). He said long waiting list for Spirometry Test. We told him about the other Dr that did his arm muscle tests that he'd said to treat his BP by taking it in the arm with the high BP. But GP said he's worried about intervening as could cause more harm to arm with low BP. On the other hand he's also worried about doing nothing! I asked him if he'd contact Vascular consultant and he said that's what he's going to do for advice(( at long last).
Meanwhile letter today from hand surgeon confirming that DH has very bad pain in his hand/arm and that Vascular surgeon had discharged him without intervention believing there was no pain. The hand surgeon was very accurate and believes the hand pain is caused be Vascular Insufficiency in the left arm (where carotid artery has plaque) and the Subclavian Steal Syndrome. Once he has test results of nerve conduction he may get in touch with Vascular Consultant to tell her.

Honestly- I knew the SSS was causing arm pain - I also think it's causing the breathlessness. Inhalers can't stop the cause.
Sorry I feel in such a state about it , I'm best not coming on.
DH was called by receptionist today telling him a Blood sample that had been sent to the hospital a week ago had 'crystallised ' because hospital had a backlog of samples to go through, so he's to have another blood test next week!
I feel DH is a ticking time bomb - with high BP in one arm and the other so low the blood circulation not getting to hand.
Written realms - sorry. I'm best not coming in .

Think a lot about you all and always care -- even if I can't post.xx

Doodle Sorry the 'crotchet' item was meant to be crochet!

Evening all. Sorry will be a short post tonight. I am so tired I can hardly keep my eyes open.
I was out last night with friends and didn’t get in till 11.pm then had to be up and out early this morning. I can’t stop yawning.
Willow i do wish you’d try Movicol. It’s what they use in hospitals for patients who are going to have colonoscopies. It doesn’t work like others they also use it for impaction. DH used it for years, he would take one a day sometimes two especially when he was taking loads of painkillers. If you get your tum sorted you could try one a day or one every other day to see if you can get a better routine.
Scaredycat good advice for Willow.
In church we have over 70 trees all decorated and with lights. They are all sponsored and money is raised for different causes every year. It’s very beautiful especially in the evening.
HVDY yes you hit the nail in the head. I nearly bought a jumper but wasn’t sure whether it was too thick or not. Nearly bought a sparkly top but didn’t like the wide sleeves. Looked at lots of things but was browsing really. I’m not into shopping at the moment but was trying to find some ideas for Christmas.
Sweetpeasue I’m trying to crochet a little star using embroidery thread rather than wool. So far I’ve undone it about 10 times. I’ll try again soon.
You are certainly not “best not coming in”. You need to offload and this is the place to do it. Your concerns are very valid and I can understand how upsetting it is to know that somethings wrong but not getting the proper treatment or advice you need. Your DH seems to be being passed from pillar to post.
When is the nerve test being done? Sorry I can’t remember
Are you keeping a record of all this? I think it would be a good idea to make a bullet point list of all the visits your DH has had and the outcome. Collect all the letters in date order and go armed with your worries to the GP.
Thinking of you x.

Candy6 Dinner for 10? I've never cooked a Christmas lunch, in 44 years of marriage. You must be very organised. Hope you've got a dishwasher!

SweetpeaSue Bloody hell, your poor husband. What a state the NHS must be in when blood samples are left hanging about and not being viable. Things seem to take long to be sorted out. The hand surgeon seems to know what is wrong, but it's not right that messages now have to be passed on and your husband will still be waiting for something to be done. LittleGirl will be here at 7.30, as always, tomorrow. Probably until 5 again. DH is doing well with the CPAP machine, thanks. I don't usually hear him snoring now (I used to hear it from downstairs, with all the doors shut).

Hope everyone has a restful night x

Oh Doodle You sound worn out. I really don't know how you have managed to post at all with all you're going through. You are so caring of others.
You must be very patient redoing the star so many times. I wonder now what your star is for.... I grrrr when I go wrong in knitting.
The nerve induction test was done a while ago. He was meant to have this muscle electrode thing done at same time , but there was some mix up and he had to go back for muscle thing. When he had that done the Dr told him the previous nerve test had shown he didnt think it was carpal tunnel but we had to wait for hand surgeon's opinion.Yes, I keep a record of everything but our GP is well aware now of all concerns .
Sleep well .
HVDY I know! I could hardly believe that the blood sample sent off nearly 2 weeks ago was useless because they couldn't get round to testing it because of backlog. So they can't fit DH in for another till next Wednesday. So glad the CPAP machine is working well for your DH. You'll be relieved.
Have a good day tomorrow with Littlegirl. No doubt it'll be full on.

Evening all
Ellie Anne I’m so sorry you feel the way you do, it must be awful for you. But please believe you can have a life beyond this, not maybe what you originally envisaged but you can build one for yourself. Firstly though, you need to work on feeling better about things which will give you the inspiration to do things you might like. Maybe book an appointment with your GP to discuss things? You’ll be able to ask any questions you may have and tell him/her of your fears. You don’t have to make any decisions there and then about medication but it might be a start for you. Do it for you, you deserve better.
Doodle what a busy time you’ve had, I hope you have a restful sleep tonight. You are keeping busy, that’s the main thing. The tree festival sounds beautiful. I live in a nice village too and it’s only since I’ve felt better mentally that I’ve come to appreciate it. Yes, I’ll certainly carry on with my activities with DGS. I’m going to embrace it all as he’s 9 already and may not need us as much in a few years. I love him so much.
Scaredycat your village sounds lovely too. We have many different types of houses in our village, lots of individual ones which is lovely. Your village green must be lovely. You’ve done well with your Christmas shopping. Ive not done too bad but now as you say - the wrapping! I want to get it done soon. Hope you enjoyed your WI meeting. It sounds like you’ve got a nice group.
Sweetpeasue oh dear, more hassles with the NHS for you to deal with. I really feel for you, it must be so frustrating having to deal with one thing after another all the time. Never think of not posting, you must. As others have said, this is a place to release your fears and worries, everyone understands they really do. I hope you get this episode sorted soon. The blood test must have been like the final straw - something so simple and even that couldn’t be completed. I hope you are able to get some rest and start afresh with everything tomorrow. Sending hugs. Yes 10 for Christmas lunch is a lot. We have a table that seats 6 and we bring in the one from outside too. I’ve tried different ways to make it easier, one was buying in all the veg ready made from M&S but it was so expensive and although it was good, it wasn’t as nice as freshly cooked. My son helps now so we’ll carry on with that for a while. What I’d really like one year is to go out but when I mentioned it, my MiL wasn’t keen so we’ve carried on as we are.
Wyllow hope you have a good session with your carer tomorrow. Maybe it will give you the inspiration to ring your sis? If not, do it when you feel like it. Let Christmas come and go. Tell yourself you will celebrate properly when you are better. And you will be as you are fighting so hard for it. Sending hugs to you too.
HVDY you are probably resting up now ready for your childcare day again tomorrow. You are right, it is tiring but would we have it any other way? Regarding time to sit and do nothing - yes I do, usually in the afternoons and I enjoy it. I’ll often have a nap too. I’m grateful for this as when I was struggling, I couldn’t do this as I was too anxious to just sit and I needed to be doing something all the time to distract me. It’s a balance. Hope you have a good time with LittleGirl tomorrow. You do so much with her she must love being with you and her parents must be happy knowing she’s been looked after so well. Enjoy your day.

Night all. I’m in bed now. I’ve broken my rule tonight of keeping off my iPad but hopefully my trusted sleep stories will help me relax. Night night. Love to all and those not personally mentioned xx

It sounds like a picture book village green Scaredycat with winter lights. Hope you have a great Christmas do with the nice WI ladies.

I am to be introduced to a new carer next week as a standby, nervous about it, but will have a visit on or near christmas day.
Oh...I so wish I was receptive to your kind lovely help! I'll try and buy foodie treats like a ready meal on the Monday before Christmas.

Carer tomorrow.

Good to have a day off today HVDY to recharge your energy for LittleGirl.

Candy, 10 for dinner! well done...

Sweetpeasue you do a good description of the granite tum!
I really must try Movicol as it did work once before.
A big hug for your despair over such a tough time for you and DH. If I'm getting it right, youare getting contradictory advice about seeing Vascular surgeon despite GP and Hand surgeon support. And now re-taking a test. I hope that getting the nerve result trigger the Vascular appointment. Your GP does know tho things cant be left thank goodness for that! xx

I’m getting the movicol message loud and clear, thank you all! It would make a difference. Yes I had a lot before a colonoscopy last year and it worked well.

You’ve been so busy Doodle I’m not surprised that you are tired.
All the best with the crochet and big hugs for you as Christmas approaches.

Mood as ever, a struggle with the whats the point. At least I can say that here

Night night all, it’s sort of hard to post this and break the contact….

xx