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NannyG4 I have done exactly the same. For many months, as soon as I came through the front door I cried. I think in some cases I’d been holding my feelings in while with others and then it all came flooding out as soon as I was home. I’m better now although I still cry every day. I do think it gets a little easier with time (or so I’m told). I’ve just been crying because something made me remember how I loved the soft hair on DHs head and how I used to kiss his head so often.
I miss my DH too. So very much.
Have you had any counselling yet? I found the best thing for me was to keep as busy as possible. Less time to think.
Lucyd you’re proof that time can help but never takes the loneliness or loss away. Thinking of you too.
Sweetpeasue I’m glad the GP is starting to treat your DH’s Bp now. It’s been too long really.
I think Mary Jane is lovely. You’re really clever to be able to make things like that.
Sorry you’re not feeling so great today. The hugs are so much appreciated as are your caring words. I know you would fix things if you could. Time for me to send you a hug now.
Scaredycat I only had what they thought was AF for a short time. It turned out to be the wire from my pacemaker sending my heart into AF, it wasn’t pleasant. I can remember feeling very tired too. Keeping exercising as much as you can is probably good but staying away from icy paths is a good idea too.
Yes I had a nice time at church thanks. I went to lunch with a friend after. Glad you got to see your DD and SIl.
HVDY yesterday’s lunch was only a toasted tea cake I didn’t fancy the hot food on offer. Today I chose lasagne as did my friend I took a mouthful of mine and found it was tepid in the middle my friend said the same so we took them back. Some time later they came round with a fresh lot. That too was cold in the middle so we took those back too. In the end they cut the slices in half and blasted them. The top was a bit black and hard but at least the food was hot.
I like the sound of your DH’s diet. One that allows chips would be ideal for me 🤣
Candy glad you’re feeling a bit better today. Good shoes are a must in this snowy icy rainy weather. I still walk very gingerly if facing ice. DH one e slipped on some black ice and broke his ankle.
Wyllow I’m glad your tum was ok. That’s a positive. Also your boiler. I’m another who gets tomorrows clothes out the night before if I need to get going early.
Hope tomorrow you will be able to get dressed and maybe a little walk.

LucyD and NannyG4 So sorry, thinking of you both. Hugs x

SweetpeaSue Sorry you've had a bad day x

Doodle Thinking of you, too. x

A pretty good sleep there at last, HVDY. Very welcome. All the best on your weight loss journey. I need some more clothes that fit me better then might feel more like it.

AW, Scaredycat, that tis progressive xx yes you do well to keep active. Glad you saw DD and SiL.
The ice should be melting tomorrow, I hope you feel a bit less stuck and cooped up.

Ah, you remember my shopping day, yes last week bought 2x ready meals and it makes a nice change from eating the same. Tum is OK with the posh chicken ready meals. And…thank you for that caring, as things are badly stuck in “no hope”. I wake, “not another day”.

A very sad and difficult time for you, Lucyd I hope it gets warmer weather wise soon and you aren’t worried about the pipes.

Hugs for you Sweetpeasue I’m just glad to see you in, may tomorrow be a bit better.

NannyG4 understand so well that loneliness of no hugs and the empty house, yes we are here for you in that xx

I thought of you too when I read Nanny, Doodle. You describe the simple sweetness so well and it’s not surprising you cry when you open the door and come in. I’m so glad you have a nice church - what a blessing.

Thinking of the not here’s and regular readers
Best nights possible all.

Hi all
HVDY- Bet Jaffa will be back when you are less noisy!! You really make a lovely home for your cats. My sisters little stray is called Herbie and the vet thinks he’s quite young - her little ginger girl is about 10 but I think she,ll probably sort him out.
Thought of you today we had a mooch in B &M . Just got biscuits and T bags- we know how to live😀
Lucyd- oh it is a sad time for you- you had a lovely Dad but your DH was very young- a great loss.
Yes feeling cold can make things worse and you are living in very difficult conditions. You have a gentle humour that I,m sure helps you through . Your Son and his family will forever be so thankful for your generous heart . Won’t it be lovely when you turn the key in yoir new home.
SweetPeaSue- so sorry you had a bad day yesterday - hope today brings some respite.
NannyG4x - never think when you tell us how it is with you that you are moaning.You describe very well how you felt and it is so understandable. It’s the contrast of being with couples and then going home alone that is so hard to deal with.
It will get better - although it probably doesn’t feel like it. Take one day at a time , accept any invitations , be kind to yourself.
You,ve been poorly too so you must feel a bit vulnerable.
Glad you found your way here - we do help each other.
Doodle- So touching how you describe the memories that trigger the tears.but what lovely memories you have of your dear DH.
Pleased you had lunch out afte4 church even though it was a bit of a challenge!
I,d forgotten you have a pacemaker- glad they sorted it out for you and the AF didn’t continue. My niece has a pacemaker/ defibrillator - so I,ve been lucky so far.
Wyllow- the ice has gone so I don’t have to mince about anymore!
It’s good news the chicken meals agree with your tum . I do believe the more variety you can eat the better you will feel .
I do wish I could give you hope- every day is a gift and one that is denied many. I remember the things you used to enjoy .
When the Spring comes and all the new life starts to emerge perhaps you will be able to emerge too. I,m sorry if I waffle on I don’t mean to be a pain but I so wish for you to be well - as we all do x

Hope all BDs , those not mentioned ,those we haven’t seen for a while and any one reading have a peaceful night

Wyllow3 Glad the recent chicken meals are suiting you. I love chicken. Do you like fish? Salads?

LucyD Your husband was young. One of my brothers was 54 when he died, leaving a wife and 18 year old daughter. It's no age. Your son and his family must be so grateful to you, having your house to live in. I bet you can't wait to move into your new place. Have you bought many new things for it? Bedding, towels, etc?

NannyG4 It must be very hard to go back to an empty home. Remind me - have you got any pets? How has your day been today?

ScaredyCat Herbie . Bless him, I hope he settles in with the girls. Jaffa's had a tin of pink salmon for his tea. I love B&M, it's the only shop I don't mind looking in. We've got 2 less than 2 miles from us, but prefer the much bigger one 7 miles away. It's got an upstairs floor that sells furniture and electrical goods. (exciting stuff).

SweetpeaSue How have you and your husband been today?
Doodle Have you been out? It's been milder here and dry.

Hope ALL BDers have been ok today. x

LucyD I'm sure the cold living conditions must be adding to your grief and it must be so hard. It's good you had a loving father who helped you so much after your DH died. I expect that bond made you ever closer being able to share with him, - so understandable that you miss his care and support. I really hope you're feeling better today. The temperatures are meant to rise soon so hang on in there. X
NannyG4 I've not been through the loss of my DH and I dread it happening. Scaredycat has and of course Doodle and LucyD. I'm so very sorry - the grief must be unbearable at times. Please don't think you're moaning - you are just in need of someone to care and we all do here . Hope you had a better day today. Sending love.
Doodle What you said about stroking your DHs hair was so poignant and it's gut -wrenching for you. How I wish there were words that could comfort you and those alone. I hope today you've had company today. Nice you went out yesterday but what disappointing food - good you took it back. I've done that with a sausage bun from Costa- twice. Couldn't get knife through it. The doll wasn't my being clever as it's only simple knitting and following the pattern. Just wish I knew how to sew up seams professionally- they always look a bit of a mess. Thanks for my hug😊
Scaredycat Lovely posts to all. Laughed when you said the Roses didn't count as they're little. All gone now so can't be tempted. I love cherries too. I'd love enough room for a cherry tree but think you'd need 2 to fertilise. There was once some in a NT castle grounds and everyone was helping themselves and feeding them to their children. Hope you've been OK today .
HVDY No wonder Jaffa loves you so much. Pink Salmon for tea - he should be called Prince Jaffa.😅 Hope your chest is a bit better today and the steroids are helping. Thanks I have been a bit better today. DH still the same but he's feeling quite chipper about fixing a leaking bathroom tap aswell as the central heating timer.😄
Wyllow It's good you've introduced something different to your diet and the chicken suits your tum. That can only be good- but so sad knowing you're still struggling through each day. As Scaredycat says, perhaps when weather gets warmer and spring begins.... My clothes are feeling quite tight too. I hate looking for new clothes but I keep telling myself I'll not have to and really want to lose the extra weight.
I have trainee Psychologist tomorrow - meant to be helping with confidence issues but I'm really not looking forward to it. It just feels like more work I can do without on top of other stuff.
Candy*EllieAnne Whiff*Nadateturbe Thinking about you and hoping you're all OK. Take care all.

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Scaredycat I wonder if little Herbie will be adopted by your sisters older cat.
I went for a walk today. One that DH and I often did together. I talked to him the whole time. About things I remember from our walks. Things that have changed, things happening in the family. I could almost feel his hand in mine. It was a lovely walk so peaceful and nice.
I’m going to my first sit fit class tomorrow and I don’t think I’m anywhere near fit enough to do it. Oh dear. I might be asked to leave.
HvDY thanks for your kind thoughts. I’ve been busy sewing most of the day. Keep losing things like my scissors or cotton. I put them down then can’t find them. Not my sewing machine has decided to play up.
Sweetpeasue I’m hoping you and your DH had a good sleep and are feeling better today.
My son isn’t feeling great either. He thinks it’s something he ate.
Take care all xx

Wyllow chicken is good for you I think. I have it most days with some veg. I buy Waitrose chicken fillets. They come ready to cook with different flavours like lemon and pepper. Been buying them for years.
Sweetpeasue crossed posts. No I’ve not been with anyone today but I’ve been for a walk and been busy doing some sewing. Tomorrow is sit fit then Church on Wednesday which is the day I look forwards to. Hope you’re feeling better today

Been very under the weather today physically shivery and tired out but made it to the supermarket. My mind won't let me really rest.

Read your posts lovelies and lots of hugs sent and thank you for the good wishes.

Night night all BD's see you tomorrow.

SweetpeaSue I'm much better now, thanks. Last of the steroids today, so I'll see how I get on after that. Glad your husband managed to fix the leaky tap and the timer on the heating. It's good to have someone who is handy. I hope your appointment with the trainee Psychologist goes well.

Doodle Hope your keep fit class goes well. The day centre I go to has a lady who comes in to do exercises with us all. It's good for people who aren't as fit as they'd like to be (me I mean). Hope your son soon feels better. Has he had an upset stomach?

Wyllow3 Did you manage to sleep ok eventually? I was awake for hours, over-thinking everything, for no reason at all. I hope you're not coming down with something. Keep warm.

LittleGirl is here today. Playgroup soon. She will be going to speech therapy classes every Tuesday from next week (she doesn't speak even one word), so I think her day with us will change to Monday or Friday. Hope ALL BDers, regular and visiting, manage to have a decent day x

HVDY- yes I hope Herbie gets on with his elder sister.
That big B & M sounds good- don’t know if we could cope with all that excitement😀
Ah your brother was young when he died and you lost your younger brother too so sad. My Dad was only 57 and my DH and Son much younger. Sad that they all missed so much - a reason to live life for them.
Glad you are feeling better but sorry you had a night with the Whatifferies etc- where is our Off switch when we need it?
It’s really good that Little Girl is starting her speech therapy next week. She’s so sociable I,m sure that as well as learning she will enjoy it too.
SweetPeaSue- by the way Maltese’s,Heroes and Celebrations don’t count either!!
DH is a man of many talents isn’t he. Nice to hear that he felt pleased with his efforts - a good boost for his confidence.
I hope your session with the trainee Psychologist goes well today. She will be wanting to help you and could turn out to be just what you need. You can give each other confidence perhaps!
Doodle- watch the cat shaped space- cats are so unpredictable aren’t they. I,m really missing having one- keep looking at adoption sites. We got a Xmas gift of a visit to a Cat Cafe - where you have coffee and there are lots of friendly cats to sit with. Run by lovely ladies who take great care of them. We’re going after my Son goes home. He,s coming tomorrow- can’t believe it til I see him
I love how you describe your walk with DH and that you got comfort from it. Such a lovely idea and I,m sure his hand was in yours all the way.
Good luck with the Sit Fit class- hope you don’t get detention!!
Hope too your Son feels better soon .
Enjoy Church tomorrow xx
Wyllow- so sorry you felt awful yesterday. You really dug on to get your shopping done- with treats !
I hope you’re not sickening for something although sometimes when your mind can’t rest your body can’t either. See after yourself - eat what you can and keep yourself warm.
Hugs back to you.
As I said my Son will be here for a few days so I,ll try and keep up with everybody but if I,m absent that’s why.
Whiff- I hope you are being seen after well - sending love.
Candy, EllieAnne,LucyD,NannyG4., Elveral, Nadateturbe and everyone else who visits or reads have the best day you can.

Evening everyone. Didn't post yesterday as had the worst migraine in years ( get them frequently but this one was off the scale). Even the injections couldn't keep it at bay and then I had no water! Went down to reception this morning and it was sorted quickly but could really have done without that after the weekend I had. Still, onwards and upwards, I suppose. The worst few days of the year (hopefully) are over, the weather is milder, my migraine is gone and I have my wee grand daughter tomorrow ( playgroup and indoor play centre so a fair bit of driving but she is a poppet).
Wyllow3 - I, too, remember waking up and thinking " not another day" and having to put on a positive face in front of my Dad as I knew he would have been devastated to see me upset. Sometimes the act we try to keep up just wears us down - you know we are always hear to listen. Like you, my mind is always whirling and it definitely something that has happened since DH died - you would not believe how I catastrophise?! I don't know what the answer is apart from constantly repeating " this too shall pass".
Scaredycat - a visit to a cat cafe sounds like a real treat (even though I am a dog person!) Animals are definitely very calming. I do miss my lovely old dogs and am so looking forward to having my son's dog for a sleepover once the evenings get lighter ( it is very dark here) He is a funny wee dog - supposed to be a hunting fox hound but I think his mother must have strayed as he is much smaller than a fox hound.
Doodle- is sit fit similar to seated yoga? My friend is a yoga teacher and I used to go to her seated yoga class before my hip replacement op. It was excellent - a real mixed bunch of ladies. Unfortunately I now work that day so I can't attend. Also miss seeing my friend as we always went for lunch afterwards. The caravan adds another 35 mins onto a 30 min journey so it is quite far. I found it was good to get out as time spent alone indoors just dragged me further down, hence the reason I volunteer for extra shifts at work.
HVDY2 - I am glad to hear littlegirl has some speech therapy sessions lined up. I used to work closely with that department and the wee ones always had a fun time. My little grand daughter's speech has been slow ( she is waiting on an appointment at ENT) but her speech seems to be really co ing on since she started nursery. She is the youngest there and that seems to have helped.
No purchases for my new house as it will be another 7 months before it is done! Still, the builder told my son that they don't need to dig down and lay more foundations as the existing ones are good.
NannyG4 - coming home to an empty house is so difficult. I used to dread that. My poor old dogs must have been fed up of me weeping on them! It did get better in time although I have struggled since I moved to the caravan as it is so quiet here and I don't have a phone signal. I keep telling myself I could be just as alone in a city but am still longing for the lighter nights.
Sorry to those I have left out but I am thinking of you all. Take care xx

Scaredycat Oh I'm so glad you will be seeing your son tomorrow - you must be so excited -I'm so happy for you. Hope you have a lovely time and share some precious moments so you can store up more great memories until the next time.
HVDY Hope you've had a great time with Littlegirl today. My DGS took a long time to talk and seemed really shy , though I know Littlegirl is very sociable. Hope the speech therapy helps. I think all little ones take their own time and all different. Hope you sleep better tonight.
Doodle Hope your son soon feels better .All sorts of lurgy going around. Oh what a special walk that was - it sounded so peaceful and comforting to feel your DHs presence. Hope you will be able to repeat more of those - just talking naturally to him like that .
Did the sit fit go well. A lady in the MH recovery group said she went and it was fun- she was 89.
Wyllow Oh you don't sound well at all. Hope you got a decent night's rest and feel better today. If you get worse do let someone know - be it the carer , worker or GP. Thinking of you and hoping you're ok. Hugs for you.
LucyD Amenities in the home seem to pick the worst times to play up.I can imagine how weary you must have felt with the cold weather and lack of water. Thank goodness your migraine was over before the water problem. On dear 7mths seems a long time to wait for your house, but I'm sure it will be well worth waiting for and you can make your new cosy home. I often think ' This too will pass' - it helps so much to know that, when we're very low.

Well I got a call from trainee psychologist this morning asking if I was OK. She wondered why I hadn't turned up. Apparently a mix up as the letter I had said afternoon appt but she'd sent a letter out changing it to morning but I never got it. Seeing her Friday now.
DHs car gearbox has played up so going to garage tomorrow.
I've book group which I couldn't go to last week, tomorrow. Should go but am getting more anxious about going there. So many times not been able to go because of health that I don't feel 'included' as different people there.
Been low today with DH - both feeling the same but we'll koko.

Love to all BDs and any not mentioned and hugs for those especially sad. Wishing you all a peaceful night.

Evening all. I’ve been to sit fit classes this morning. I enjoyed it. Nice bunch of people and about time I did some exercise.
Been sewing most of the rest of the day. Church tomorrow
Wyllow there are lots of bugs around. My son and grandson are both quite ill. Hope you haven’t caught anything. Wrap up warm.
I have problems when my mind won’t leave me in peace too. I’ve been very busy today doing some sewing. It helps me a lot to keep my mind occupied.
HVDY glad you’re feeling better. Do you stay with Little girl at play group? She’s quite young isn’t she? Hope she gets on with the speech therapy.
Scaredycat I’m so pleased your son is coming home I know how special these visits are.
My DGD worked as a volunteer in a cat cafe. She loved it. She used to go in to give the night time feed and put them all to bed. Son and grandson both ill now (grandsons uncle not dad)
I enjoyed sit fit. It was very good. It’s on once a week so I shall go again.
Lucyd sorry about the migraine. I don’t suffer myself but know from others how debilitating it is. Hope the water situation is sorted out. Have a lovely day with your DGD.
No I think the sit fit is more gentle exercises for those of a senior age. 🤣
7 months is a long time. Did you know it was going to take so long when you moved into the caravan?
Sweetpeasue I know it’s hard to feel left out when there are people around you don’t know and everyone else seems to know each other but give it time. I didn’t know anyone at sit fit although several of them knew each other. They all seemed friendly though.
Shame about the mixup with the psychologist. Good you can still be seen Friday.

Scaredycat If you've never been to a Kitty Cafe before, you'll love it. I've been to the Nottingham one several times. The place is all kitted out for the cats that live there (they can be adopted). You must be excited to be seeing your son.
Enjoy the time you have with him over the next few days.

LucyD Migraines are horrible, aren't they. I'm glad yours has gone. I've used Imigran in the past. Hope you have a lovely time with your granddaughter tomorrow. Those times when they're young don't last long enough. Good news that you won't need to have any further digging doing. You should be in your new place for the summer, so that will be lovely - just in time to sit outside in the sun.

SweetpeaSue That's a pity about the mix-up with the Psychologist. At least you'll see her soon. Feeling as though you don't fit in with a group of people is the same for a lot of us, but go and see how you get on. Sorry you've felt low today. Tomorrow is a new day, hope it will be better for you both.

Doodle Yes, we've always stayed with her at the various playgroups (other mums, dads, grandparents too). She's 18 months old, doesn't even say "Dada", "No", or anything at all. She understands everything that's said to her, though. I'm glad you found the sit-fit class good. I need to start doing some exercises (Aqua aerobics again some time and perhaps Zumba Gold). I hope your grandson and your son both feel better soon. Lots going around at the moment. GD2 (10yrs) had Laryngitis last week .

Wyllow3, EllieAnne, and all other BDers - hope you've been ok today x

I’m glad the steroids have been working, HVDY. But sorry about the over thinking night.
Nice to have a LittleGirl day, I hope the therapist benefits her.

Scaredycat that off switch would be useful.
Oh my - your son coming at last - may it go as well as it pssobioy can - great excitement!
I’ve Neve heard of cat cafe.

So sorry about the awful migraine, Lucyd. Just glad you have your DGD tomorrow.
Thank you for your thoughtful words most people on here have expressed that “not another day” thing.

(what I think you probably dont know as you are newer is that relatively recently I was in an abusive relationship and a horrible break up from it, but there had also been love so all twisted up still think about it) I think you are great keeping on at work!

* Sweetpeasue was glad to read about your DH’s “DIY” anything to feel better. Oh no - a mix up on an appointment - I’m glad she can see you on Friday. Please only go to the book group if it feels OK.
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Well done on your busy day Doodle , glad to hear that sewing helps.

Not been shivery today, it was a not dressed dressing gown day yet again, but my mind wasn’t as bad today able to hide. Having put on weight and losing hair have lost confidence, need comfy clothes, I look so bad - all affects all.

Night night all, best nights possible.

Wyllow I’m sorry your days are being difficult. I used to find the intrusive thoughts one of the hardest things to deal with. They’ve quietened since I started to take AD’s thankfully. It’s good that your chicken ready meals don’t affect your tum. Chicken is so mild and can be tolerated well. I only started to understand the importance of good food when I started to see my last counsellor. She was very good at nutrition and I was amazed at how the food we eat can affect the way we feel so much. It’s a bit of a minefield but just adding small things can help - fruit, nuts etc. I won’t go on but I
could! I hope today is kind to you.
HVDY Hope you enjoyed playgroup with LittleGirl. I used to love going with my GS. I’m sure the speech therapy will help her. I remember my son had to go too but once he got to 3, he never shut up! Hope you have a good day today.
Sweetpeasue shame about the mix up in your psychology appointment but at least you will still be seen soon. I know what you mean about feeling excluded but if you push yourself to go to your book club you’ll find you’ll soon get back into it and be accepted I’m sure. I find that in my gym classes, there are “cliques” of people who obviously go regularly and are more friendly with each other but then I think so what? I’m here to exercise not so much to make friends. They’re all friendly enough though to be fair. Hope you and DH have a better day today.
Doodle glad you enjoyed your sit fit class I’m sure it will do you good both mentally and socially. It’s good you have hobbies to do indoors too. A nice ‘go to’ when you need distraction I’m sure. I need to find an indoor hobby. I found last week that because all my hobbies involve going somewhere or outdoors, then I had nothing to keep me occupied when I was laid up. I got very bored. I’ve thought of knitting but never actually got around to it. I hope you enjoy church today.
Lucyd hope you’re fully recovered from the migraine now. I too have thankfully never suffered but my brother does so I know how debilitating they can be. Hope you had a nice e time with your DGD. I have a DGS whom I do a lot with, he’s 9 now and I’ve helped looked after him since he was 8 months old. I love him dearly and I’m sure you love your DGD just as much. 7 months is a long time but once January is over and it starts getting a bit lighter in February, the time will go faster I’m sure and as the build progresses, then you’ll have lots of more exciting decisions to make - kitchen, bathroom, decoration. You will get there.
Scaredycat have a lovely time with your son, I can imagine you’re very excited. Enjoy every minute and making special memories.
NannyG4 I hope you are feeling less emotional now. As you know, there are a few people on here who are also sadly in the same position and I’m glad you’ve found each other. We’re all here to help each other of course but someone in the same position can fully understand. Sending ❤️.

I’m feeling much better now although I’ve still got this annoying tickly cough. I’m going back to the gym today and trying a short class - nothing too strenuous though. Then I might have a gentle swim. Wishing everyone the best day possible. Love to all x

Morning everyone.

Just come home from Pilates, which I enjoy and the ladies are so kind to me. Then went to have my blood pressure checked, all good which I’m so pleased as I did wonder whether it may be a little high due to my circumstances and stress at the moment.
Candy6…..Thankyou for your kind words….hope you managed a swim, a lovely feeling after when you’ve got dressed, feel all nice and warm…
Wyllow3..I’m relatively new to this wonderful thread (thanks Doodle). I’m so sorry to hear about your relationship. Sending love…lots of love❤️
HVDY…There is a cat cafe near us, I’ve not visited yet but they sound wonderful, even therapeutic…
Doodle…glad you enjoyed your sit fit class, I think any exercise we can do is good for both our mental and physical health. I loved hearing about your walk and your and DH’s hand in yours…. I sometimes still can feel my DH’s arms around me giving me a hug, long may it last❤️…
Sweetpeasue….did you go to your book club, sometimes I think it’s the thought of doing these things and once you’re there is not too bad. I must admit though I’ve lost my confidence since DH passed about going out in my own, feel very self conscious…
Hope you’re feeling a little better…
Lucyd…hope your migraine has gone and you’re feeling a little better. Enjoy your granddaughter. Yes it’s hard going back into your empty home, once I’ve closed the door had a few tears I get on with it…all part of the journey…
Scardeycat…thank your for your kind words. It helps…..do enjoy and embrace your son’s company.

I apologise if I’ve not mentioned everyone, but Thankyou to each and everyone of you . Much love❤️💐

Hi all.
Lucyd- thank good ness that horrible migraine has gone- I can’t imagine how awful they are.
Catastrophising is confidence destroying isn’t it- before I had the ADs to help it was something I did over so many situations.
This too will pass is a comforting quote - it gave my Dad comfort I remember.
You are dealing with life in the caravan so well - the new home will feel wonderful. It sounds like a pretty perfect set up,for you all. Would you have a dog then?
SweetPeaSue- Oh no not another muddle. Hope Friday goes smoothly.
If you want to go to BookClub don’t let that ‘left out’ feeling spoil it. There are new people there who probably had churning tummies when they first joined. But if you don’t want to go don’t upset yourself - just don’t go.
I,m sitting here watching the clock - it,ll be another 3 hours before DS arrives- there’s been a couple of hold ups . We are all so looking forward to seeing him.
Doodle-glad you enjoyed the Sit Fit- more new friends hopefully. Sorry your DS and GS are both poorly- hope,they feel better soon and that their respective families have stayed bug free.
Yes we’re looking forward to the Cat Cafe. What a lovely job for your DGD- my DD would like that after she is retired.
Hope you enjoyed Church this morning and there was coffee and chats afterwards. It’s not so cold today so maybe you had a little walk too. We went this morning - it was quite foggy so stopped for a coffee- any excuse!
HVDY- your Cat Cafe sounds lovely. The one we are going to doesn’t have any for adoption . Just as well or we’d,d come out wit( a bag full!
I,m beyond excited to see my Son- thank you for your kind thoughts.
Our youngest GGS doesn’t really speak at 2 yrs 3 months so speech therapy would be good for him. They live a long way away so maybe it’s not an option.
I remember you doing AquaAerobics- that might be nice again when the weather is warmer.
Wyllow- glad the shivers have gone. It’s good to hear your mind wasn’t quite so troubled- don’t worry about your weight too much it’s beneficial for you that you are eating better.
When the better weather comes you will be able to get out and walk more.
What about getting some loungewear from the Internet?I think Next do some or maybe Tu in Sainsbury’s. They are warm and comfortable and a step up from the dressing gown. Maybe a cut and colour with the hairdresser might make you feel brighter. Please don’t be so hard on yourself- you deserve the best.
Candy- really kind and sensible advice to all.
Hope you enjoyed the Gym today- you must have felt so good to get moving again. A swim too - so good to hear that you feel stronger. Watch that cough though.
NannyG4- great that you had a good BP reading- it’s is always such a relief when that happens.
Yes long may those lovely huggy feelings last- I,m sure they will. That self conscious feeling you describe is one that will fade a bit over time- but as you say you are on a journey- one step at a time . You will get there.

Sending love to all - old and new or just reading. Hope those we haven’t seen in a while are having some brighter days.

Wyllow3 Thank you. I think we all have the over-thinking, don't we? Glad your shivery bouts have stopped. Could you get a mobile hairdresser to call and give you a trim and perhaps a temporary colour? How about lounge pant/jogging trousers, which are comfy and a change from nightwear? I buy things from Asda, online, then just go in and collect them. I expect other supermarkets do the same.

Candy6 Hope you enjoyed your gym session. Which machines do you prefer to use? I wish I'd learned to swim. I ought to go back to doing Aqua Aerobics. Perhaps when I've lost a bit of weight..... Drinking cold water helps with a tickly cough.

NannyG4 Is Pilates like Yoga? Glad your BP is ok. Mine is high although I'm already on tablets (low dose which will probably have to be increased). Do you meet up with any other women for coffee etc?

ScaredyCat Counting down the time until you see your son . Will you see him for a meal?

SweetpeaSue Did you go to book club?

How has everyone else been? I had my hair cut and layered, all the last bit of blonde cut out. It's mainly white now but I get complimented on it, so I'll leave it. Had my nails done, too, a pastel pink. Bought a couple of toys and 4 books for LittleGirl, from a charity shop. I disinfected them, so they'll be ok for her. x

Thankyou for all your posts to me.
I didn't have a choice about book club.
Difficult to explain but my body feels like it's shut down - aches, stiffness but extreme tiredness. Just more severe symptoms of what I've been getting.

Love to all and wishing peaceful night.
So sorry for all struggling.

HVDY yes I thought little girl would be too small to stay in playgroup on her own. I bet you have fun there with the other parents grannies and babies.
Forgive my forgetfulness but wasn’t there a medical reason you gave up aqua aerobics? I thought you weren’t allowed to go. Be nice if you could start again.
Wyllow sounds as thought you’ve got a chill of some kind.
As for looks, I’ve put on loads of weight. I’ve huge black circles under my eyes, but right now I am what I am and I’m not really bothered. Concentrate on getting to feel better. The rest can be tackled later.
Candy have you ever tried diamond art? that’s something you can pick up and put down whenever you like. might be an idea.

NannyG4 pleased you got on with your Pilates group. People can be so kind. Good your BP is ok as well. I haven’t done much exercise for the last 18 months so need to build up gradually.
Husband and wife neighbours took me and a friend for lunch today. It was really nice and we had a good chat but I couldn’t help feeling that DH should have been with me.
Yes hold on to those memories as long as you can. It’s a comfort.
I’m glad you like the thread. I knew you would be safe here. Everyone is so kind.
Scaredycat I can almost feel your excitement waiting for your son. I hope he’s now with you and you’re having a nice catch up.
Did joy church thank you. No walk as went to lunch. Glad you got out for a walk. It’s nice to pop in somewhere for coffee.

HVDy I bet your hair looks nice. Charity shops often have lovely things for children. They are often hardly used as children grow out of them so quickly.
Sweetpeasue your symptoms sound like stress to me. Things have been too hard for you these last few months. I think you should see the GP again and tell them how you’re feeling.
So sorry you’re feeling so bad. Hope tomorrow is a better day.

I’m really low tonight but I don’t know if anyone will understand.
Ds1 and family are going away for a couple of days soon and wanted Dh to look after the dog. It would only be from Fri afternoon to Sunday lunchtime. I’d worked out how I would spend the time got some paintwork needs touched up have a couple of nice meals and relax. But he doesn’t want to go because it’s boring sitting there on your own.wnich is exactly what he does here.So he’s offered to pay for the dog to go into kennels . I know I sound stupid.