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Oxymeter arriving tomorrow through azon * Doodle* 👍❤️

Doodle I appreciate you caring and touched that you have written when your hand is so bad.
I'd rather know anything/everything I can, no matter about worry. Just want to do best I can fir DH. I'd feel terrible if I let him down.
Yes, nurse said exactly what you say and said it could be serious. Didn't know oxymeters were available to buy- like blood pressure machines. I'll ask at chemist, thankyou so much.
What DH noticed last night was ,after having really bad pain in his left arm( Subclavian Steal as left Subclavian artery has plaque) after taking the spray he got substantial relief in left arm and fingers stopped tingling. I don't think he should have been dismissed by Vascular Dr.

I'm really sorry your hands are still so painful it's a bugger. Not fair at all when you have enough on your plate. Big hug for you and thankyou for caring. Hope you can sleep tonight.x

Sweetpeasue do you have an oxymeter? If not it would be a good idea to get one. It measures heart rate as well as oxygen in the blood. Slow low heart rate is a concern. My heart rate was 30 when I went into A&E with heart block and I had to have my pacemaker fitted. Make DH go to A&E if necessary. Sorry I don’t want to worry you anymore but just be aware.

My hands are painful at the moment. Done exercises and they ache. Sorry not writing more. I am reading and thinking of you all xx

Scaredycat How lovely - didn't realise you're there for 2 weeks. I always think that you only start to relax a bit by the time one week comes to an end and if you then have to go home it's a shame. You always have such nice posts to us. You enjoy this next week as much as your first and the forecast is good here too.
Wyllow I thought the photos, coming from nothing and then planting up, might inspire you for your garden nursery visit. Things grow so fast this time of year. It's so good to hear the optimism in your posts.

Hi all
Doodle- you have so much to cope with and the added discomfort from your hands is making life so difficult for you. All those special days and all the memories coming up.
Your Son is missing his Dad very much . The memories are mostly ones to cherish- you had the most wonderful marriage.
Poor DH he must have rattled with all those pills.My Sisters DH made her a spreadsheet when she first had her cancer as she had so much medication.
You keep safe too,Doodle- hope you can enjoy Church tomorrow and remember we are all thinking of youxx
HVDY- You and DH are right about making the most of life although you always sound as if you fill your days with all sorts of nice times. But maybe you,d like to have a few adventures- it’s never too late.
Your day today sounds great- such varied activities- something for everyone. Hope you are having a good day and that the Sciatica is giving you a break.
SweetPeaSue- you’re right . Having the time to “stand and stare” is so good for us.
Chance encounters and chats are one of the great pleasures of life. Meeting random people and just connecting is so uplifting isn’t it.
I do hope the ECG didn’t throw up anything untoward for DH and that afterwards you were able to do something nice together.
Nadateturbe- So sorry the ME is being such a beast- you don’t deserve that. Sending a hug from France.
Wyllow- your beautiful painting- you have a talent . The colours are lovely. Thank you for sharing it.
Walking is by far the best way to get your tum moving- I speak from experience!! TMI!!
It was a good idea to order from Dobbies they have great plants. Easier than having to get them home in the car!
Yes your diary is a good gauge for you to monitor how you’re doing. Your life is yours to enjoy and live the way you want to-it’s so wonderful to hear the enthusiasm in your post.
I can’t cry either - just inside.

We start our 2nd week here today and the weather forecast is looking good - feel very fortunate. Hope the next week brings you all some good days. Thinking of those who,ve not been here for a while.

Ah, thank you!

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And now! New life thriving.

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Sweetpeas for cheer.
This was the border last year after fence was taken down for new one

Nadateturbe Sending love and hugs and a prayer for you to feel some relief from the awful ME. You're not alone ,you have friends here too.x
Wyllow I've just listened to your song link Everybody Hurts and it's so powerful ,the music and the words. So very relevant for this thread, thankyou. It brought some tears here too.
Sure it will bring release for you when it's time .

Wyllow (andBDs) When DH saw GP last and I asked for referral to private Cardiologist GP seemed to 'wake up'! A Fewm mths ago I'd asked GP to refer DH to Rapid Access Chest Clinic( which I realised existed research). He wouldn't do it and said the Spirometry test would need to be first.
When I mentioned private referral GP asked further questions about DHs tightness in chest and breathlessness ( which started last November) and he said it could be Angina ( as Respiratory Dr said) and gave him spray to use and said he'd refer him to Rapid Access Chest and ,obvs, to call 999 if bad.
A recent ECG and blood test was required for this Rapid Access thing, hence ECG today at a surgery that was open.
Nurse said he had v slow heartbeat on ECG and she gave him a print out and told him to go straight to A&E and show them it if his chest tightness continued or got worse.
Thing is ,the tightness was bad last night so he used this spray in mouth and it worked by relieving it so seems it probably is Angina and it's getting worse.

I'm so scared yet angry that GP didn't listen properly last November a d seemed to think it was COPD or Asthma( hence this necessity for Spirometry tests and waited all the time for it).

Sorry for going on so much ,I just hope he gets appt soon. DH said he doesn't want A&E wait ( we know too well about those) but if he's bad I'll make him.

Husband has just said how good your painting is Wyllow. Strange isn't it the co- incidence about similarity.

Hoping everyone is ok. X

PS silly isnt it I wish I could cry...the high gets in the way but release for the sad bits are needed too.

Love back to you, nadateturbe. So sorry. xx

Your song made me cry Wyllow3 but strangely comforting too.

M.E. still very bad. Love to you all.

Yes! I see the face Sweetpeasue even my shape and hair. I had no idea. It's a copy of a photo, so completely serendipitous I think unless the subconscious at work but that's over egging the pudding.

Glad you popped over otherthread. Only possible if one can engage, and we are all at different places as regards that and thats just fine.

I do hope you'll tell us how the ECG went for DH - was it a sudden or planned thing?

HVDY Aw I remember when my grandson used to like playing in water. The times he stood on a chair in front of kitchen sink filled with little boats, dinosaurs and tiny figures and we'd make up stories about the adventures they were having. Of course we both got soaking wet! Sounds like a great day out at the park for you all- hope it's enjoyable. Strange weather here hot and sunny then black clouds n showers. V changeable.
Doodle I do hope you had a better sleep last night without so much pain in those hands. So many triggers for you this month which will be so difficult for you. Your DH was on so many tablets- he must have got fed up with swallowing them all. Hope you can manage church tomorrow.
Scaredycat What a lovely way to pass the time - just sat on the beach there and taking everything in. Somehow everything is different when you just have the time to observe . Yes, I like Tom Hanks - not seen a film with him in it that's been bad. The book isn't autobiography but a mix of short fictional stories. Just started it yesterday.
Wyllow So much is happening for you now. You are noticing so many details of your days - it's like a light has just been switched on- I'm so pleased for you.
Your painting is beautiful. I see a face in the outline of the top of mountains above and then the face reflected in the lake. Not sure if that was intention or just me reading too much into it.( an outer person and and inner person) Anyway it's really lovely .

You are so right about the observations and the chats we can have when out and about. Who knows what the exchange of words can mean to another person at that time and what seeds may be planted or just how much that other person needed human contact in what is becoming a world relying on techie robotic messages.
I do hope your tum is responding. Prunes are good aren't they.

Back later. Been writing this in car while DH has ECG.

PS, had a great start to day (with added gentle political bits, excuse them, walk on by if too much)

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(ps, its nice to have a good morning space suitable for here HVDY but never feel you "have to" I'd still post)

It's over cast here too HVDY. I hope you have a lovely day out with your family, I looked up Thoresby Park before, spot on.

I've actually just rung my DocSis as still bunged up. The plan is - do a long walk round the block (too tired for more!) then if nothing take large dulcolax dose which works through the day. Get prunes in (just run out....) drink enough the usual stuff.

Anyway, not to dwell: thank goodness I did sleep 8 hours so less adrenaline as I "come down" from computer excitement.

A little gift for the day: I painted this in 2005 when I was very depressed but made myself go to a lovely art group up the road. (remember I did have art training BD's) but its my new computer wallpaper.

ScaredyCat I admire you for really making the most out of life - something I've said to DH we should be doing - your days on holiday have been quite full and enjoyable, by the sound of it.

Doodle That was a lot of tablets. I expect those various occasions of birthdays etc will always be tinged with sadness, but hopefully you'll ine day remember them with fondness.

Wyllow3 You had a very busy day again! Put me to shame. Hope you can regulate yourself so that you don't get a bad low mood. Hope your tum is ok by now.

It's overcast here, but we're going out with Son2 and his family at about 4pm. Big event with live music, motorbike and dog shows, hot air balloons, Thoresby Park. Hope ALL BDers manage to have a good day x

Oh, I thought about Ex today in a calmer way thankfully.

No u tube tonight. Starting to look will get me all alert again!

No, the tum playing up like mad, HVDY I do try to relax enough and let my system work with the laxatives but not got there yet. I think I need to go for a walk tomorrow thats always the best. I had another packed day with lots of amazing bits and lists and contacts but did some gardening yay - including getting the mower out when after 3 years it has been in rather damp garage but it was OK so I can do it now - to a point energy wise...and explored the attic storage area (go in for one thing, notice lots more useful Stuff)
Keeping the diary for the psychologist is key I think for containing the "highs" as I go into analysis which helps me reflect not just "Act".

I do love it seeing small children at water play HVDY super weather for it.

Now today you did exactly the right thing, Scaredycat....resisted the temptation to squeeze everything out of the holiday when sitting on the beach does have its own rewards..people watching, finding small shells or stones...

.....and yes I did order some plants from Dobies after seeing them in the Botanical Gardens thinking "those are just right". Pricy, but so much easier for me than going to a garden centre.

I did realise that song was OTT for you Doodle, sorry. For me, it reminds me to take care of myself and am not alone.

MY goodness, DH had a lot of tablets. I cant be certain but I think I recall you telling us - when I first came in we were discussing walking machines, that helped me.

More poignant triggers coming up for you - people say time heals a little, whether true for all is doubtful, but its my hope for you - your relationship was so long and loving - please keep up the Hospice and other visits, anything that possibly can help.

Time management is a bit more under control tonight, if I manage to avoid another trigger, but ~I need to get to bed relatively early for me and am more physically tired than yesterdays top stress/excitement = adrenaline.

Night night to all BD's reading or posting sometimes

xx

Hello all. Can’t listen to that Wyllow so many songs make me cry but it is a good one.
DH was on at least 25 to 30 tablets a day. He kept a spreadsheet.
Son struggling with Father’s Day coming up. Also DH’s birthday this month and our wedding Anniversary next month. So many days the used to love and enjoy.
Keep safe all

Hi all.
HVDY- thank you but,Scaredy is what I am. Yes we have to get on with life it’s the only one we get!! Feel the fear and do it anyway .
Lucky old Jaffa - I bet he licked his chops well after that. He showed hi appreciation by being a good boy at the vets!
What a lovely day you and LG have had - so nice to hear all about it.
SweetPeaSue- yet another faffy mistake by your surgery- your poor DH he must wonder whatever next.
Glad you are more comfortable today . Baby clothes are something I used to like making but I understand your frustration they are so dinky.
Was the Tom Hanks book autobiographical? I like him in films.
Book a haircut- blow the mirrors- the poor hairdresser has to look at themselves all day now that must be awful.
Doodle- your poor hands - we take them so for granted don’t we. The fact they are disturbing your sleep is awful . I do hope there is an improvement soon.
Hope you,ve done something nice today.
EllieAnne- - I think we all take our glasses off when having a hair cut. It’s when you have to put them on again to look at what they’ve done - I always think who’s that old bird !
Wyllow- yes took it more easy today and sat on a deserted beach while DH had a walk. The sand was warm and it was so peaceful- not cos DH was away walking!! I did feel so fortunate and grateful.
Well done with the O2 lady and it was a bit of a result in the end after all.
That was a Duracell Bunny day - but one of achievement too. Try to rest every day - nice cup of coffee in your garden. Getting in the garden will be good for your tum as it’s moving about and relaxing too. So glad you are starting to enjoy it again. Maybe you could get some pots and plant them with different plants you like and it,ll start to feel like your own space again.

Can’t believe we,ve been here nearly a week. So glad I am able to post too as I care so much how you all are. Love to all- and those who we haven’t seen in what seems ages.

Wyllow3 You were on the go all those hours?? You must have been shattered last night. Hope your tum is ok now. So pleased you feel able to enjoy yr garden again.

How's everyone been? It's been too hot here. Little Girl played with the sand, looked at books, then we went to Asda (she loves that) and had lunch at our favourite pub/restaurant. She played in the paddling pool when we got back, she watered all the plants. She went at 4. Jaffa was incredibly well-behaved at the vet (only claws trimmed). x