Hello.
Last year, I was diagnosed with anhedonia...a really terrible element of a very strong depression. Basically, it means that my brain's reward centre is out of touch with the rest of my brain. How that manifests itself in my life is pretty awful: I have no ability to feel pleasure/enjoyement/reward! So, I've gone from having 15 hobbies/pastimes/enjoyements/interests...to having none at all.
The way I usually describe it is: Ian died last year. I'm just Ian's ghost, haunting the house he used to live in. I move around like a spectral detective, seeing clues...evidence of what Ian used to do, but knowing that I can't understand why he did them - they mean nothing at all to me! I have no feeling, at all!
I know Ian watched movies, because there are around 800 of them in the house. I know Ian listened to music because of the music CDs lying around. I know Ian read books because some books in the living room have bookmarks in them. I know Ian wrote a diary, because I found one. I know Ian loved photography - I've no idea why. I also know that Ian was a Christian, because I found a small wooden holding cross in his bed when I came home from the hospital that did this to me...or him!
So, I'm curious...do any of you suffer from anhedonia?
Ian's Ghost.
