Gosh, so many replies!
MOnica and others, thank for simply replying to my question, as you pointed out the rest of the conversation was pointless.
I don't mind being criticised for my life choices, it was right for me at the time, and I am no where near facing destitution.
I'd just like to say, I didn't sit at home all these years doing nothing, I was heavily involved with charity work, of which I don't need to broadcast. I held many a hand to people who had been cast aside by their families in all sorts of circumstances. Guess I've been lucky with mine.
Yes I am ill, last year I spent most of it clearing out my house so the boys don't have to rootle through my stuff when the time comes, I wanted to contact HMRC due to some old paperwork I found, that is all.
Once again, I have no intention of robbing the state for a pension.
So I'll leave the thread now, but please try and remember that there are a lot of women out there, lots younger than me facing future financial difficulty.
I never had that difficulty - I had a ball!!!