I agonised over this decision. I avoided the big showpiece debates and programmes as they were so extreme and illogical; but I read everything I could lay my hands on and did my best to digest what I read.
A few weeks before the vote I had decided not to vote at all, because I felt (and feel) that the referendum was undemocratic, that the majority of the population would not understand the economics (and how could they? - it is a highly specialised subject), that we were being sold lies, and that the motivation to hold the referendum at all was led by party political matters, not the national interest.
I then went back on this decision as I could not bring myself not to take part in something that people had died to achieve - universal suffrage.
In the end I voted out (ducks below parapet) and these were my reasons:
- I really do think that the EU treats us with contempt. Shortly before the referendum DC went to try and get some concessions and was more or less sent away with a flea in the ear, in spite of the fact that Brussels knew the referendum was coming up and DC needed to bring something back to allay people's concerns.
- we have always been on the periphery of the EU, in but not quite in, carping about the decisions of the "club", bobbing back and forth with failed attempts to achieve change. I feel that we either have to be in wholeheartedly (which we never have been)or we have to get out.
- I do not think the systems within the EU favour small nations who wish to state their case and make the EU fit their needs better - we have too little influence.
- when I voted to be in the Common Market I, and many others, did not expect to finish up as part of an organisation that has strayed so far from its original brief as a trade consortium. The EU is pushing the boundaries of its influence beyond what many people feel is reasonable or democratic; it is certainly way way off what we signed up for.
- I believe that the EU is now too big and unwieldy; and it is considering becoming even bigger. Not only does it make decision making rather ponderous and inflexible, but I do not think that is a healthy way to try and ensure world peace. Large blocks (US, China, Russia,the EU) all jostling for position feels dangerous to me.
- adding too many nations to the EU has caused a lot of problems - see Greece. The idea that Turkey with its dreadful human rights record) might even be in the running at all is very worrying. More members means slower decision making and more dissatisfied members, as such a large group cannot meet the needs of everyone.
- England is a small island nation (no - I am not a little Englander - just stating a fact) and islands have a very singular mindset. The issue of immigration (no - I am not a xenophobe) impinges in a particular way for this country. The government has ignored the concerns of poor and disadvantaged people in our country and not listened to them - this is one of the reasons the vote went the way it did. If your children are trying to find housing and jobs and you see a European immigrant who has been more fortunate in this regard, then you are going to be pissed off - and the government has let this wash by them for a long time and is now paying the price. It is all very well to say that the issue of immigration is a great deal more subtle than that, but if you are lacking advantages in life or a decent education, then that does not wash.
I feel very unhappy about the whole scenario - in the end I could not bring myself not to vote, but I knew that whichever way the vote went a rough ride was ahead because of the very close margin by which one "side" would win. The simple fact of the referendum was going to be divisive to the nation and to lead to political turmoil and recriminations.
The referendum should never have happened. Shame on you Cameron.
What a sorry time this is for us all.