My loyalty has been to the Labour Party because its belief systems and aims are close to what I want, a more equal society.
I was a huge fan of Michael Foot, his policies, his personality and I was distressed when under his leadership the LP got trounced. I was a much younger woman in that period. I liked Neil Kinnock but feared he couldn't win an election. He did however do a great job in kicking Militant out of Labour, I'd left the party because of Militant. I'd worked with many SWP/IMG/ Militant union leaders. Especially after the Miner's strikes, much as I loathed Thatcher, and still do - I couldn't avoid looking at the role Scargill played.
Moving on Blair won in 97 and my world in work changed. Primary schools, health centres, family centres, every kind of social work support system were recognised as essential and funded.
I wasn't keen on Brown, didn't think he'd win elections. Yes, I do believe Labour leaders need to win elections. If they lose, the poor, the deprived, the people who need a Labour government lose out in a big way.
I voted for Ed Milliband, having seen him speak several times. The positivity seen in small town halls didn't translate to the big stage. The bacon butty - awful (and yes, anti semitic)
I voted for Yvette Cooper and Andy Burnham in the election Corbyn won. I saw them speak several times. Corbyn won the hall each time. I liked him but had that Michael Foot feeling - so didn't vote for him.
As leader - I grew increasingly despondent. He was simply hopeless, grumpy, irritable if challenged. He was I' m sure a good back bench MP, opposing everything and being true to his purist beliefs.
I left the party when so many of my Jewish friends did. I voted for our good Labour MP, I joined those on the doorstep responding to "ill ne'er vote for yon mon" by saying we are using you to vote for X our good local MP. He lost his seat by a few hundred votes.
So - I'm completely and utterly fed up with all this.
The report criticises the party under Corbyn's leadership. Accept it, apologise, move on. We need a Labour government. Corbyn and co seem determined to do all they can to prevent that.