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Afghanistan - can’t control my emotions

(33 Posts)
Marydoll Tue 17-Aug-21 07:54:42

I haven't experienced anything like this, but could not pass by, without acknowledging how heartbreaking this must be for you and your family, Grannyactivist.

Kandinsky Tue 17-Aug-21 07:35:50

I completely understand how you must feel.
I used to cry when I saw the photos of the young men & women killed. It all seemed so pointless.
There’s nothing anyone can say to make this terrible situation any better, but please know that millions of people are so proud of your son-in-law & thank him so much for his bravery.

baubles Tue 17-Aug-21 07:30:00

I have no experience ga but I feel for you both. The situation is dreadful to see and read about even without any connection to it, my heart aches for the Afghan people.

Ladyleftfieldlover Tue 17-Aug-21 07:00:22

I can understand your feelings almost exactly. My son was one of the lucky ones, because he survived Afghanistan. The scenes he witnessed there encouraged him to leave the forces. He was front line. I was usually the person who picked him up on his return and he would tell me everything that had happened to him. He is on holiday at the moment so I have no idea what his views are on what is going on right now in Afghanistan. I can imagine all families who lost loved ones must be filling very bitter. Someone said to me that you can’t keep harping back to the past. Well I think we have to.

seacliff Tue 17-Aug-21 06:47:05

I am so sorry and understand to some small extent how you must be feeling. My son was there as a medic on the front line, and saw and dealt with terrible things, lost close friends. He was really affected mentally for a long time after he returned, it was hard to know how to help him.. It was a difficult dark time. We were so lucky and grateful to get him back, so nothing compares to what you have all suffered. It's been on my mind again too, such senseless waste.

I'm in tears for you and his family. No suggestions, just understandable you'd feel like this. Last time you had to stay strong for your daughter. Now it's hit you again. Go easy on yourself, let yourself grieve, take care. X

eazybee Tue 17-Aug-21 06:39:06

I am so sorry to read of your distress and anguish, and can understand that it has been triggered by the recent appalling events in Afghanistan .
I have no personal experience or connections with the military, but I honestly do not believe your splendid son-in-law died in vain. He gave his life defending what he believed in, and Afghanistan gained twenty years away from the Taliban because of his actions, and hundreds of others like him.
I hope you and your family are able to find peace.

Blossoming Tue 17-Aug-21 00:26:17

No, I haven’t experienced anything like this but I didn’t want to pass by without acknowledging your grief, I can’t imagine how painful this is for you and your family. A senseless waste of so many lives indeed.

grannyactivist Tue 17-Aug-21 00:13:21

When my son-in-law was killed eleven years ago it was my role to support my daughter and her new baby. I accompanied her to RAF Lyneham for the repatriation, stood with her in (Royal) Wootton Bassett as the parade of hearses went by, gave a reading at the funeral, I was at her side as the coffin was lowered into the ground and later I sat with her through two inquest sessions. My husband was a rock throughout and attended to many of the practical matters that needed sorting. For two years it was an awful time; I grieved of course, but it wasn’t about me, so I just got on with what needed to be done.

Now it seems I can’t stop crying at the events of the last few days. I have a permanent lump in my throat and the tears are never far away, my eyes are red and swollen with weeping, I can’t even have a conversation about Afghanistan without breaking down. I know that my daughter is having a similar experience and I can’t quite understand how, after eleven years, it can suddenly be so raw again.

My son-in-law was only 26 when he died. He was funny with a really dry sense of humour, very clever, physically super-fit, and he really was a natural leader; his men adored him. Our grandson recently came to stay and is now showing some of his dad’s traits - he has a genuine interest in people and asks insightful questions, and he has his dad’s habit of only just staying on the right side of cheekiness.

I am finding it unbearably sad that this young man, a new daddy, and with his whole life ahead of him, died so senselessly. Literally, there is no sense in what happened to him - or to so many others. I am so sad and angry.

Has anyone else experienced this kind of belated grief? How did you get through it?