Ten years ago I decided to leave a lonely loveless marriage. Elder sis was devastated and angry, very angry, with me. I felt ashamed so cut most contact really. This I feel bad about. Her daughter then got married, she had been like a child to me ...I wasn’t invited. Devastated. But ex was asked with his new partner. I was told there was no space for me or my two children ....So when the invite came for the second wedding to another daughter from her I sort of felt, eff you. She was angry, rightly so, and I tried to explain that I was struggling with awful depression. She cut contact and that’s been that. I think of her every day but not sure if I should ....I miss her. I absolutely recognise my failings and have apologised often. She says she has moved on in her life and that’s that. But I dread the next time I see her will be at her funeral, it’s so wrong. Any ideas?
Ladies would you post on a predominantly male forum on a sexual matter?

