My mum was my good friend for a lot of my life and I have some good memories buried away which I am grateful for. Now My mum is 88. My dad died 18 years ago, she met someone new and he died 15 years ago. Since then my mum became this needy person that I did not like any more. I have had 15 years of her wanting to do things with me. If I go on holiday, weekends, out for the evening, have friends for dinner - it’s all about her. She will ask if she can come and gets upset when I have to say no. I don’t tell her I am doing things now. Shes had a heart attack and has the start of dementia in recent months Which means I am more tied to her. I am her main carer, my brother lives abroad. I have carers in place once a day, I have taken care of the power of attorney, living will and all that stuff. I take care of everything but I’m at the end of my tether. When I go away I usually have panic attacks towards the end of the time and feel most unwell, I know it’s the thought of coming home to another problem and believe me there have been plenty of them for me to return to. Falls, breaks and vile jealous behaviour to name but a few. I believe she has a form of Hostess dementia or I hope she has, either that or she is just pretty horrible to me. She calls me to come up because she feels so ill, I go running and she is just the same as normal - poorly I know but no more than normal. She tells my brother, my children, her friends and carers that she’s fine and doing well but I don’t get any of this. She’s not well and I know she is not going to be around for a lot longer but i am wishing her gone. I am 66 and would like to live my life now. She refuses to go in a home and I am struggling to find any joy in her. I don’t even want to see her. I talk to my husband who is a lovely lovely man but sees what she’s doing to me and we just scratch our heads and get the wine out.
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