Thanks both, I know you're correct- I'm only hurting my own mental health. I keep these feelings to myself. Arranged marriages are normal and accepted, forced marriages however are not, in fact they're illegal. I struggle to think of many parents who would force a grown male, in tears and close to suicide, to marry to protect their own reputation. I have the same religion and culture heritage and would never do that to my children. That's what I can't get my head around. I often forget but then occasionally the anger raises in me. But what's done is done, getting some professional help is not a bad call.