Male companionship

I can understand a widow not finding it easy to move on if you have had a long happy marriage, all you can do is judge your feelings. If a new man feels right you will know, but don’t try to compare him with your husband and be careful not to refer to him too often.

A divorcee like myself had no problems deciding because the relationship had gone sour

You mention you have not been looking.
Sounds like you are at the point of wanting to?

You don't say how old you are WiWi, or how long you have been on your own. Well done on having cancer treatment,supporting yourself! Could you join any clubs?Or do a bit of volunteering? I sincerely hope you do find your male companion in the not too distant future. ❤

I lost my first husband when I was 48. I hated being alone then so I looked for another partner (used the internet even way back then in the early 2000's)
I found someone and had another 20 years before he succumbed to dementia and died in January this year.
I've had major health problems (dissected aorta and open heart surgery) and although it would be lovely to have someone to look after me this time I am quite happy to live on my own.
I would at least start looking for another partner- it's not easy but in my case it did work out.

I am sorry for the loss of your husband, but those memories you made together can never be taken away.

I too miss having that other person, my 'better' half but I gave up looking some time ago.

Sending you virtual hugs and hopes that you do find that person one day.