Depression again

Thank you ginny. I managed the rehearsal last night, and I have woken this morning feeling a bit better - so I will hang on to that as a step forward. Up and dressed which is good.

I have had good weeks before and it then descends again - I need to find some way of consolidating the good times. Not sure how to do that.

Sorry to hear you are feeling down again Mishap Thankfully depression is not something I have suffered from but my Mum did so I have some idea how you feel. One hour, one day at a time. At least now you know there will be better times and hopefully they will soon eclipse the bad.

Thank you bellasnana. It seems to be a bit of an epidemic.

No word from angie who I hope is doing OK.

I really feel for you, Mishap. Depression is a horrible thing to go through. I suffered in silence for years, but thanks to a new doctor spotting that I needed help, I am a different person due to just two little pills per day. Never believed in taking pills but now I dearly wish I'd had them years ago. My family might have had an easier time.

There aren't any words to help but I am thinking of you and hoping you will feel better very soon

Thank you ruby and others for your kind words. Down morning today, but I am up and doing stuff that needs doing. I have to run a rehearsal tonight so have to get my act together by then.

The only way is to try and bash on, but how lovely it would be to have a day that does not require 100% determination just to get through.

Life is so poo sometimes. It seems to come in waves but depression hits out of the blue. When I suffer I go from hour to hour, tape some things that will distract me from the tele or sleep, like you said, Mishap.

I was feeling better and then my mother has appeared on the scene again and so I will have to be very careful not to let her get under my skin or else I will be down again. It's hard as it is with other people I have to deal with at the moment. I can see a time when things will ease but at present it isn't going to happen and I go from day to day, sometimes good, sometimes bad.

I am sure your DGC has managed to make you smile today at least so that is something to focus on and the upcoming birth of the baby due. (Not Kate's, your own family ). Welcome him/her and look forward, an hour at a time. Good luck, stay strong. X

I can only endorse what Katy has said. I have had depression and there were times when I found it harder to cope with than the cancer I had had several years before. At least with cancer I felt abl to function reasonably well Depression seems to suck the life out of you. Mishap you are doing extremely well and we are all rooting for you. (Hugs)

So many people suffering/have suffered from this terrible illness, including me. it's a horrible feeling having to make yourself get out of bed each day and live your life as best you can. I hope you can find a way through this angie and Mishap, enjoy your day, you can definitely do it

I am very grateful for the kind supportive posts - it really does help.

It is a very frustrating illness - 10 days ago I was conducting a rehearsal for 150 singers, then spent a lovely family day with everyone - and I was completely fine and beginning to feel I had made it. But a few days later it strikes again - hence the increase in treatment, which is a challenge in itself. Today I will be looking after my DGD all day, as my DD is overdue with her baby and is flat out exhausted. It will take every ounce of determination to do this job today.

But gritting the teeth and carrying on is the only way forward that I can see.

How are things for you today angie? - have you managed to make an appointment with your doctor?

Hello Mishap I'm sorry that you are plagued by depression and can see that previous posters have offered positive and kind advice. I just wanted to say my thoughts are with you during this difficult time and I hope you will soon see some improvement in both your physical and mental health.

[questions to angie]

Do you know that you are loved really, by some people?

Do your family know that you are on tablets for depression?

Mishap - going through similar here. There are good days and then the bad ones come. My doc says to try and stay focused on the good days - easier said than done I know.

angiebaby - wanting to run away is a classic symptom of depression isn't it. The times I've planned to pack a bag and leg it are countless. The only thing that has stopped me is the agoraphobia which has a strange sort of irony.

I've found the thing that helps a lot - not for everyone is TV. Getting absorbed in a programme focuses the mind, also crochet, the endless counting of stitches is like a mantra and sometimes stops the panic attacks.

I have a very kind GP who listens which is lucky but I tried two others before I found this one.

I am also fed up with an endless sniffy cold virus thing that won't go away.

angiebaby please go back to your Dr. Meds can take about three weeks before you feel any benefit. I speak from experience.

Mishap So sorry to hear the black cloud has found you. It's hard always to be strong. ... but I think you are strong because I've seen it in your very considered and level headed advices to others. But sometimes it's ok just to let others be supportive

Angiebaby - read Mishap's post again - and do what she suggests please.

angie - sometimes the tablets make you feel worse temporarily and you have to stick with it in order to get the benefit. I am in exactly that situation at present as well and I am having to grit my teeth and deal with it - so I know how hard it is. But I am lucky to have family around who are supporting me through this, and I know that at present you do not have the support you want. I can see how very hard this must be for you, and you haven my sympathy. Sometimes husbands do not know how to deal with this sort of thing and feel a bit frightened and powerless.

I really do think that you should go back to your GP and tell him how bad you are feeling, and discuss your tablets - he may suggest a change if he/she knows they are making you not feel so good. The thing is not to give up on them without talking to your doctor.

Hang on in there.

DEPRESSION........hello girls,,,i have posted before......usually about my children cutting me out of their lives really,,,well i have seen one of the kids twice in 4 months and they only live 5 mins away,.......i dont see my grandkids as much as i like, i have never had them to take out for the afternoon on my own, never saw them at christmas or easter,,,,,,,,,,so now my depression seems to be creeping back,,,,im always crying for no reason,,,i feel worthless, everyday is a struggle to get out of bed, what for,,,im retired and i have been to the doctors he put me on tabs that made me feel worse,,,i try to keep busy,,,i have done the breathing and all of that jazz,,,,,,its not working, i have booked 2 holidays but i dont feel like going now,,,i just want to stay in bed all day and hide away,,,,,,,,,i think whats the point of it all,,,,,,,i have no problems other than not feeling loved, i wish the crying would stop,i wonder if getting a puppy would help at least it would need me.......i dont know what to do,,,,,,,,i do miss the relation ship with my family, my husband doesnt seem to get involved he just keeps quiet,,,i feel so alone,,,,,...i want to run away from myself.....advice please,

Mishap Sorry to hear you are feeling so down. No doubt it hasn't been helped by having a nasty bout of bronchitis. Constant coughing is exhausting and perhaps you now really need the extra sleep.

I hope you soon feel better.

Tree pollen and windy weather doesn't help anyone with a persistent cough at this time of the year.

Take care, Mishap. Hope you soon feel better.

I do not think I will try the dozing in a garden chair, appealing though it sounds, as we have a sunny day accompanied by a veritable gale - it sounds as though the conservatory is going to collapse around me!

Thank you all.

Tanith - you have certainly hit the the nail on the head there. I get better and start to feel a bit more confident that I have beaten it - and then something triggers it off again. It seems that I can stay OK, but that it is a precarious wellness that can be completely wrecked by some input like a virus that tips it over the edge. It feels very cruel; and I am trying everything I can to beat it, but it is lurking and waiting to pounce. What a b****r this illness really is.

I second all that has been said , it can't be easy when you are always looking over your shoulder to see if its sneaking up on you ..

Dozing in a comfy garden chair combines both lots of advice. You get the rest and the Vitamin D. Just make sure someone stands over you waving a fan and brings you a cup of tea when you wake.

DD recommended adding a good teaspoon of cinnamon if you like it, or at least a good sprinkle, it is supposed to be good for chesty coughs.
The flippin' cough/cold this year is really lingering isn't it.

If your body tells you to sleep then have a nap as long as you can sleep at night if you do.
And I would agree, fresh air and sunshine for vitamin D, it is supposed to get warmer this week.
Hope it lifts soon, Mishap

I usually add whiskey to that, pompa.