New to site ...but wish me luck

I am just getting ready to go to GS's Harvest Festival at school....I have good contact with my Gs through ex Son I L (which is quite strange ..) but my worry is my estranged daughter will be there...such a sad situation, but I can no longer miss out on my GS's growing up milestones...
Very nervous at the moment, but holding my head high and smiling...still sad though.