Anniversaries from a Past Life

I don't find I rember the actual dates of sad times, it's more the changing of the seasons that affect me. Knowing that my husband cannot enjoy the coming summer, or that I have to cope with winter on my own again. But I keep busy!

My wedding day was on Christmas Eve so I can never forget it and, yes, it does get to me especially as I'm very good friends with my ex and, in hindsight realise how difficult I must have been to live with [as was he!!!]. My mums birthday is on the Queens so I always thing of her on 21st April. This year I was in the very same part of the hospital where I had my daughter 37 years ago, having tests [which, thankfully proved to show nothing sinister] and being there on that date really upset me.

The anniversaries that get to me are around the time when our 4th child should have been born. I had a missed abortion and eventually miscarried at around 24 weeks. We had 2 more children and I don't consciously think about it but often find I'm a bit down at the end of October.

The other date is in early September - this year it was the 9th anniversary of DS1 having a stroke. He forgot!

Doesn't make me emotional but I do remember certain dates in the past, it would of been my ex OH (RIP)birthday last week I did give him a thought during that day and I will give it a passing thought when it would of been 48th anniversary on the 28thof this month our Golden Wedding in 2018. They are good memories even though we divorced after 20yrs and I've been happily married again for 20+yrs to my now OH.

Aw Anniebach hugs

I try not to think about dates or anniversaries, we only had eight anniversaries before my husband died ,thinking what might have been hurts too much

Just realised today it would have been my Golden wedding anniversary just over a week ago, divorced ages ago. Maybe I'm just less emotional but I tend not to notice the date itself. I do think that it might be nice if I could have done something to celebrate(?) maybe commemorate is better, the date. I agree about being a different person.