Excitement

When my depression was at its height I can remember looking at or listening to things that would normally have made me excited or moved and ..... nothing, just nothing. I think it is part of the illness - you just feel "flat." I thought it was interesting that rather than just feeling flat, there was my "other brain" looking in and observing the fact that I felt flat - fascinating.

I hope that you will regain the occasional thrill when you have had a chance to unwind.

The trouble is if I get excited my IBS kicks in. That said I did get excited when I went to Australia to meet the brother my dad never knew he had - and found they looked alike! It will remain in my mind forever. Imodium proved a very trusty friend and there were loads of free and clean loos wherever we went so no real problem - unlike in the UK!!!