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Death of a partner

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grannygrunt Sun 11-May-14 18:27:45

I sadly lost my husband of 33 years two weeks ago. He suffered from COPD and had a heart attack seven years ago.
He was taken ill (with exacerbation of COPD) about five weeks ago and was rushed to hospital. We thought that our prayers had been answered when the doctors said he was well enough to go home. Sadly he passed away one week later in his sleep at the age of 66 years.
I awoke to find him dead beside me. I desperately tried CPR until the ambulance arrived but despite all efforts by me and paramedics (who were brilliant) deep down inside I knew there was no hope.
I went to see my beloved husband in the chapel of rest because I didnt want the last time I saw him to be that traumatic day and he looked so much more peaceful there.
My family have been wonderful and I am lucky to have loving caring children, grandchildren, a great grandchild and a dear friend but can other gransnetters tell me how to begin living without my husband, friend and soulmate! He was such a lovely man.
I miss his kindness, his loving ways, his knowledge, his jokes, the way he continually had a remote control in his hand and his whistling (which often got on my nerves when he was alive).
I know it is early days yet, and that time will probably help to heal the pain of my broken heart but what can I do in the meantime? I just can't imagine what it will be like without this wonderful man in my life!

Sewsilver Sun 11-May-14 21:31:20

Granny grunt, I am so sorry you have had this huge loss. My DH died 6 months ago and I am still struggling massively.It seems impossible at first to go on. I have found that the only thing to do is to take one day or part of a day at a time.I have pm'd you.

Soutra Sun 11-May-14 21:12:18

flowers flowers!!

Soutra Sun 11-May-14 21:11:24

Bellasnana [flowers|] hang on in there and when you need a shoulder or a listening ear remember we are here!

Grannyknot Sun 11-May-14 20:55:07

So sorry Grunt and what a shock for you that night. Hold fast to the happy memories of the past 33 years. flowers

newist Sun 11-May-14 20:37:52

I wish I could sit and hold your hand and tell you, I am so sorry for your sad lose, there is nothing I can say that will ease your pain but please believe I shall be thinking of you flowers

Bellasnana Sun 11-May-14 20:27:46

So very sorry for your loss. My DH has recently been diagnosed with cancer and some of the feelings you describe are what I am terrified of having to face in the future. I can only send best wishes as you begin this new and unwelcome journey without the man you love. flowers

MiceElf Sun 11-May-14 20:10:57

Such wise words from Soutra. I'm just sending my love and sympathy. Please keep,ousting, there is a lot of love and support on here x

chloe1984 Sun 11-May-14 20:03:56

For you flowers with love and sympathy .

Lilygran Sun 11-May-14 20:00:14

That's very hard, grannygrunt flowers hope things start to get better soon.

Anne58 Sun 11-May-14 19:57:21

Every good wish to you, I know that you will find a lot of love, support and advice from those who have experienced the loss of a much loved partner, stick with us Grannygrunt and although we can't change things, hopefully you will find some comfort here.

mcem Sun 11-May-14 19:55:55

What a sad event to prompt you to post for the first time - but you've come to the right place. I'm sure you'll find support and comfort with grans who have shared your experience. Sincere condolences to you and your family. X x

Aka Sun 11-May-14 19:42:57

So sorry to read of your loss Grannygrunt sad

Soutra Sun 11-May-14 19:36:27

Dear grannygrunt what a dreadful experience for you and while you may not see it this way yet how blessed your DH was to be in his own bed beside the person he loved most in the world. The shock will take a long time to wear off and the adrenaline which has helped you through these nightmare weeks will have drained away leaving you weaker and more exhausted than you could ever have imagined. There are gransnetters who have been bereaved relatively recently and others whose sad anniversaries fall around now. There are sympathetic shoulders to cry on and, when you are ready for a giggle some silly threads to help raise a smile. We can't make your pain go away or bring your DH back but we are here for you. It would be lovely to hear more about him when you are ready and/or to hear all about your DGC. flowers and sympathy for your loss xx

ffinnochio Sun 11-May-14 19:32:36

grannygrunt flowers

Agus Sun 11-May-14 19:23:28

My heartfelt condolences grannygrunt. You will always find sincere support and understanding on GN.

A very warm welcome to you flowers

Lona Sun 11-May-14 19:18:55

grannygrunt flowers My deepest sympathy for you and your family.

Sook Sun 11-May-14 19:09:24

So sorry to hear your sad news grannygrunt you will find a lot of comfort on gransnet.

annsixty Sun 11-May-14 19:04:15

Sincere condolences grannygrunt this is an awful time for you and your family.Your grandchildren are beautiful and I hope that the whole family are a consolation to you. Others on here have been through this and will help you if you will let them.

Lindylooby Sun 11-May-14 19:04:10

I have 'bumped' Going it alone, and hope that may be of some comfort, remember ask anything you need to, vent your feelings here, they really are lovely ladies here. X

grannygrunt Sun 11-May-14 19:01:35

I am lucky to have had twins and another baby girl born within a few weeks of each other who are now 3years.

grannygrunt Sun 11-May-14 18:59:48

Thank you all for your kind words and messages. Yes, although I have been on Gransnet for some time, I am a new poster and i can't believe how kind people are.

Greenfinch Sun 11-May-14 18:54:08

Yes, lovely photos. Are they twins or triplets ? smile

bikergran Sun 11-May-14 18:47:15

just looked at your profile pics...they are all adorable..smile

bikergran Sun 11-May-14 18:45:57

grannygrunt do keep posting and telling us your feelings, there are plenty of good listeners here, I can understand where you are coming from as my DH has had c.o.p.d for many yrs and serveral heart attacks and we live from day to day. Your DH was quite young, I hope you will find some comfort on here, it doesn't matter what you say we will always be here to listen.

Mishap Sun 11-May-14 18:45:21

Many condolences - such a difficult time for you. I know that there are grans on here who have been through the same process and will be happy to hold your hand through this sad time of adjustment. I am so glad that you have supportive family around you and send love and good wishes.